~*10/2 2:38*~
We are in Ohio. The boys have recieved an hour break so they came back to the bus. Howie was sitting with me at the table. Kevin was taking a shower. Nick and Brian were "discussing" their plans for tonight's show. AJ and Krista were in the Den cuddling and watching TV.
"Well" I said to Howie (we were discussed about my sister and grandfather) "I was at College. It was....September 18 I believe. I got a call from my mother. She told me the news. That my grandfather was killed in a car accident and that my sister Jess was in critical condition"
"How terrifying" Howie replied. He took a sip of his Ice Tea "Go on"
"I flew back to NY to see her. I got to the hospital as soon as I could. Then I saw her, all wrapped up in bandages" I started to cry. Howie put his arm on my shoulder. "And.....ummmm......I went over to her. She kept slipping in and out of counciecness. I gave her a hug.
"Tess...is that you" She whispered
"Yes Jess, it's me"
"I missed you" She told me.
"So have I" I said starting to cry :*(
"I know I don't have much more time so can you do me a favor"
"Anything"
"Please....don't ever drive drunk"
"I wont I promise"
"I love you" I told her
"I love you too" She managed to utter
Then she slipped into a coma and died a few days later. The funeral....I didn't even go because I was so devastated. I cried for weeks after that."
Howie just sat there in shock.
"I mean" I went on wiping my tears "She was only 22. She had her whole life ahead of her"
"I know how it feels to lose a loved one" Howie told me "Caroline and I was very close. You have to try to move on....not to forget her...but move on in life"
"I know" I replied drinking my ice tea "But it's so hard"
"I know Tess" Howie replied "That's why friends and family are here. That's why I am here. To help you cope and move on"
I smiled "Thank you Howie" I said giving him a hug
He smiled "Anytime Tessa. Anytime"
~* LATER THAT NIGHT 9:26*~
The boys insisted we come watch their Cleveland show so Krista and I went. We got dressed. I wore Mudd Jeans and a purple Baby tee. Krista wore black Capri's and a white sweater set. We stayed backstage where we met some other contest winners. There was a girl named Mandy. She was about 15, blond hair and blue eyes and she is dying of a rare form of Leukemia. Her last wish was for Brian to sing to her and that's why she's here. There's another girl, Latoya, brown hair and eyes who had connections through her Dad's workplace. She's 17 and in love with Howie. The last girl, Becky is 9. She won a contest from a local Radio station. She has brown hair and green eyes.
"So you two won the Across Country with the BSB contest?" LaToya asked as we listened to the concert.
"I won and I brought Krista along" I told her.
"You guys are so lucky!!" LaToya told us. "I tried to win, but I didn't odviously"
"I'm so excited" Becky squealed.
"Me too" Mandy replied watching the concert. "This has been my dream"
"I know what you mean" I told her as I peeked behind the curtain.
It was about 9:30 when AJ made an announcement. "Will the 5 girls watching backstage come out here for a minete?" He asked us. Krista and I were shocked =:o. This was so unexcpected. We walked out. Nick escoreted me to a stool at the end of the stage. Krista went with AJ. All us gurls sat next to our fav BSB member. AJ cleared his throat as he began singing. "On the first day. That I saw your smiling face..." He sang "I'll never break your heart" To Krista.
"Nick" I whispered to him. the lights were blinding and all the girls were screaming. "What's going on?"
"Well" he replied "This is my song to you" He got on his knees and held my hand. "Will you go out with me?" He asked. He smiled at me...OHHHH I love his smile.
I was shocked but happy. "Yes" I replied. he smiled and started to sing the chorus. He took my hand and took me to teh front of the stage. They all got on their ands and knees and said "I'll never break your heart. I'll never make you cry. I'd rather die than live w/o you..."
I looked over to Mandy. She was crying. Brian gave her a hug. I looked back to Nick. He smiled his beautiful smile. When the song was over, we were escorted offstage. I was so suprised. What a sweetheart! We stayed for the rest of the show. We said goodbye to LaToya, Mandy and Becky and gave them hugs.
It was 10:15 when the BSB wraped up the show. "We thank you for always sticking with us throughout the years throught the good times and the bad." Brian tried to say over the screaming fans. "Thank you. We love you guys" AJ said. "Our hearts will always be with you" Howie said. "Thanks Cleveland. We love you. Bye" Nick said. "The BSB loves you all. Goodnight" Kev said. They walked backstage. Nick turned around to see me.
"Tessa" Nick said.
I smiled an evil smile. I ran toward him and jumped. He caught me and I put my legs around his waist. I gave him the most passionate kiss :*. It was beautiful....until Brian pulled us apart in a jokingly manner and said "Get a room you two". We just smiled as we walked back to the bus hand in hand. AJ and Kris followed us locked in a kiss while they walked. I turned back.
"How can they walk and kiss at the same time?" I asked Nick
"I dunno" He replied smiling. I leaned (try to lean) on his shoulder as we walked to the bus.
I was relieved when I told Howie about my sister and grandfather. I was glad I had someone to talk to who knows where I'm coming from. Who knows how I feel.
Now about Nick and I. Of course I'll go out with him. But I'll not rush into this relationship like I did with Keith. How sweet was that! He definatly is everything I thought he would be. But Remember, Guys come and go but friends are forever. Peace out!!!