His dreams haunted him.Everynight it was the same thing.Slowly he thought about the days
leading to her death.Everyday he'd wake up with a sweat,hugging his pillow as if it was her.
As if it was all a dream and she wasn't in,fact dead.He went on with his life;he was a backstreet
boy..he had to.He loved his fans..loved his life and loved her.

"Jessica."He whispered softly.Kneeling in front of the tombstone,he ran a finger over  the
lettering."I love you and I always will."Tears ran down his cheecks as he remembered
his angel.

"Every time I close my eyes, I see your face and I wonder, when you close your eyes, do you think
about me?

An import song,ran inside his head.Everytime I Close My Eyes..It had a meaning now,a special one.He
remembered the girl he'd met a while ago,she had the name of an angel;Jessica and strangely he couldn't
get her out of his head.Thats the wrong  Jessica...AJ thought.She even looked a little like her.He turned back
to the tombstone and sighed.His one true love ripped out of his life by a drunk driver.

He kissed his hand and lowered it to the gravestone.Pausing he turned,"I can't love again..I love you so much."
He turned towards his parked car.The wind rustled against the trees. it seemed to talk to him,as it did now
sometimes."Goodbye AJ."

He unlocked his car door and stepped inside.Starting up the ignition and the radio started.His own voice filled his ears as  Everytime I Close My Eyes  played..not only did the music go to his ears but to his heart.

the song ended."And this song goes out to Alexander..from Jessica..she loves you."