"Are you sure you want to do this?" Howie asked softly. We were standing in the middle of his room, our kisses becoming deeper, our bodies becoming closer, and our hearts beating faster.
I nodded in response to Howie's question. I was ready for this. I have been saving myself my whole life for this moment. This time where I can let my innocense be taken away from someone that I am in love with and loves me. I really felt like this was time to let my virginity be taken away.
Samantha and Stephanie were already in bed and Howie and I had been gazing into each other's eyes the whole night.
Howie leaned down and gently pressed his lips to mine. Slowly, our mouths opened and our tongues met. My heart was pounding rapidly and I started to get very nervous.
Howie slowly moved me over to the bed. He lifted my shirt up over my head and kissed my shoulders, sending shivers down my spine. He slowly layed my on the bed and kissed my neck. He moved his lips down to my stomach. I started to feel really nervous and I wasnt sure if I wanted to go through with this.
Howie was really started to get into the whole love making thing, when I could feel my body tense and I knew I wasnt ready for this.
"Howie," I said, lifting his head.
"Yeah baby?" he asked looking up at me.
"I dont think Im ready for this," I said, a worried look in my eyes. What if he got mad.
"What?" he asked in disbelief.
"I dont think Im ready for this," I said.
"What do you mean? You led me up to all this and now you just want to stop," he said. Ok, he was mad.
I felt like crying.
"Howie, please, Im just not really not ready," I begged with my eyes for him to understand.
"OK, ok, Im sorry, I didnt mean to sound insensitive, but, it's frustrating, you know?" he asked climbing off me.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"Marissa, I have been in love with you since the moment you talked to my neice. You werent mean and rude and you hung out with us. Your personality just grabbed my heart. I knew I loved you or could fall in love with you since that moment. I just want to be able to show exactly how much I love you," he explained.
"Howie, I love you too," I said looking into his eyes.
"Then let me make love to you baby," he whispered. I looked into his eyes and I smiled.
"Show me how much you love me," I whispered back.
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Eighteen
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