LOOKING FOR LIGHT

The cold darkness of fear

has appeared in my life,

And everywhere I go,

I encounter trouble and strife.

What is this monster, made up

of things I dare not hold in my grasp,

Such as what is the future?

What of the past?

The Infinite Way

is to stay in the now -

But somehow, some way,

I've forgotten how.

I must look again

for beauty around me,

and most of all within me,

where I know God's love is real;

Pray for me, a sinner,

whose faith seems nil.

"Forgive and forget"

is a beginning, I know,

and like Spring follows Winter,

My serenity can once again flow;

The pain wracks my soul,

as the floodgates open,

My certainty of knowing the answers,

is suddenly broken;

With my Heavenly Father

to show me the way;

In earnest I will,

I must,

try to go foward,

just for today.

B.J. McCall

11/9/95