I woke up the next morning with a splittng headache. I layed there in my bed, or so I thought, until some lady came in my room. She was wearing a white nurses outfit. Funny I thought, I dont remember coming to the doctors office. I looked around. Why was my mom sleeping in a chair by the bed? And Christin, why did she look so sad? I could see all the guys were there too. Aj had his arm around Christin, I reminded myself that I had to talk to him about that later. Howie and Kevin were talking softly about something. Brain was just standing by the window looking outside. I remembered he did that alot when he was worried about something.
"Oh my GOD! Hes awake!" the nurse lady said to the others. Ohh..kaay I thought, and why wouldnt I be?
"Nick! Oh my Nick..can you hear me?" My mom said while leaning over me. She kissed my forhead, and cheeks, and nose..and GOD why did she always do that?
"Yeah" I mumbled noticing my voice was weak.. why was that.
"Ohh Nick! I love you so much!" Christin said to me and giving me a kiss. "I was so worried!"
"About what?" I asked not having the faintest idea what she was talking about.
"You dont remember?" Howie asked.
"Naw man. Why, should I?"
"Nick, you just came out of surgery. You had a small cancer lump in your shouder..remember now?" Kevin told me. "Your probably still drugged up man, its okay."
"Yeah, yeah I remember" I lied. What the hell were they talking about? Cancer, I didnt have any cancer I thought. Man, Im only 19, how can I have cancer? Whatever. "Can we go home? I really don't wanna be here. This place is creepy."
"Yeah sure, I dont see why not" The nurse lady said from the back of the room. "Hell be fine at home"
"Okay then. Ill go get the doctor and well get ya home okay bud" My mom said happily. "Where do I go?" She asked the nurse.
The nurse took my mom out into the hallway to where she could get the release forms ready. The guys with the help of Christin, got me dresses in my jeans and tee shirt I remember having wore earlier that day. After what seemed forever, my mom came back with a wheel chair and commanded that Sit. I argued that it wasnt my legs that hurt it was my shoulder, and that I could walk. But I didnt win.
They took turns torturing me with the wheel chair. Each thinking that it was just the funniest thing that they try scaring the hell out of me. Brian, my crack ball buddy, decided that pushing my chair down a ramp at full speed was hilarious. I, on the other hand, didnt. Wait, just wait until I get better I thought.. then he'll see who is funnier. When we got to my house, my mom made a little bed for me on the couch in the family room. I took my shoes off and made my self comfortable with Christin sitting beside me. God I love her.
"You look tired man, why dont you try and get some more rest?" Brian said. "We'll be here when you wake up again man."
"Naw" i said stiffling a yawn "Im fine"
"Yeah okay angel" Christin said rubbing my head. "Here, just laydown for a bit" She said patting the pillow at the end of the couch. I did what she said. I didnt fall asleep at first, but somewhere between talking about the upcoming baseball season, and about the dance Christin wanted to go to, I feel asleep.
I had the weirdest dream. I was woke up in the middle of the night. I was back in the hospital again. My room was dark, really dark but I could just make out My mom sleeping in the chair again. Brian was holding her hand. Aww how sweet. I walked over to them and kissed my mom gentaly on the forhead, tryng not to wake her up. I ruffeled Brians hair as a joke, but it didnt wake him either. I guess Howie had decided go outside and get some fresh air. I could see him thru the window. He waved to me and I waved back. Kevin was sitting on the floor. I think he was reading a book and fell asleep. I remember I picked up Kevins book and set it up on the table so it wouldnt fall and knock over his coffee sitting next to him. as I turned twords the door I noticed that Christin was sitting on Aj's lap. (I thought I talked to him about that? ) She awoke and looked at me. She asked me were I was going and I remember saying something about the room being to dark, and that I need light, but I didnt want to wake the others. She smiled and said okay and for me to hurry back. I whispered "I love you" to her, and as I walked out the door, I heared her say "I love you more". I walked out into the hallway of the hospital, took one last look into my room and shut the door. The the light was so bright in the corridor, Almost too bright.
Then I woke up.
"Good morning to you to" I said feeling my girlfriend giving me a kiss on my forehead.
She was crying. her tears fell on my face. I didnt wipe them off, I didnt mind. But I wanted to know why she was cryimg. "Whats wrong angel?" I asked. She didnt say anything, but I knew she must have heard me. She patted my hands then Aj came up behind her. Her wrapped his arm around her shoulders and lead her away from me. Man I thought, what is with him? I watched her start to walk out of the huge room we were now in. Wow it was full of people! Some where looking at me. but why? Others were crying to themselves or on other people. My god, such sadness in the room! I Saw Christin turn twords me again. She mouthed I love you to me, blew me a kiss, then left out the door to the cold.
I layed there again thinking to myself. Why was Aj always touching her, but Howie leaning over me broke me out of my trance. "Hey bud" i said to him holding out my hand to do our usual hand shake. But he ignored me. Instead he stood there looking at me, then looking up past me and saying words from what seemed to be the bible. He crossed his torso like a cross, then started crying and he kissed his fingers and then touched my forhead, saying "Good bye Brat, Ill miss you". The he walked away. My mom sat by me next. When I said Hi this time she said Hi too. She then started crying while she sang me my favorite lullibye from when i was a kid. After a few moments of listening to her sweet singing, I started getting tired again. I looked up at her again smiled and then I fell asleep.
