Feel For the Villain

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What do you get when you take one overtired teenager watching Rayearth and then staring at the computer screen at 1:30 in the morning? You get this lovely story of course! ^_^ This story happens after Loa dies so it would be a good idea to read The Black Dragon Chronicles first. In case you couldn't tell... I was really tired and braindead when I wrote this. But I hope you enjoy it.
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I feel for the villain. How can I explain it? Villains are evil…an amazon like myself is not supposed to feel for the evil. But I do. I sat in my hut a few hours ago and watched my tapes of Magic Knight Rayearth. One character that caught my attention was the sorceress Alycione. At first I thought she was pure evil. I didn't like her at all. Then I saw how Lord Zagato, her one and only love treated her. She betrayed everything and turned to the dark side for this man. And what did he do? He called her a useless sorceress and almost killed her. Tears came to my eyes. And I realized that the villains…from a story or from real life… are people. People who had to sacrifice things.
Why is it that I'm thinking of my friend Loa right now? Could she have been a villain? I know that she was to many people on the island. I don't blame most of the amazons for disliking her. She burned our village to the ground. She messed up the whole island. She killed me. I sometimes feel the cold dagger. It was horrible… and frightening. And when I died I cursed Loa. Do you want to know why? Because back then I felt pure hate for her. I hated her for ruining my life. I hated her for ruining the island. And then I hated myself for bringing her to the island in the first place. How many lives had I ruined? I hated Loa with a vengeance. It drove me crazy to think that she was still alive. Then I returned home… to Rough Cove. So many crazy events occurred. I met my father… and was visited by the spirit of my mother. She told me… that Loa was lost and confused. The only way that Loa could express herself was through anger. That's when I took a step back and began to think. How could I have wished evil thoughts on anybody? I know that she killed me… but I came back. I left Rough Cove, ready to talk with Loa. But then when I arrived home I found the village burnt to the ground. It was Loa… Anger took over me once again. I was not going to let her evil ways destroy my life. So we fought on the cliff. It was luck that saved me… and she fell over. Everyone was grateful that I had rid the island of this monster. But I felt remorse for my actions. I remember standing on the cliff from where she fell. I couldn't help feeling upset. Visions of the past had danced in my head that night. I began to remember my friend Loa. I still can't fully comprehend how and why she turned on me. Then came that horrible night when I got sick. I met Loa in hell. She did her best to torture me with pain and memories. It worked. Once again I felt that fiery hate in my soul. How dare she do this to me? I looked into myself and found hidden power. I killed her. Then I woke up in the healers hut. What had just happened? Hell wasn't real? But it felt real… Something told me to go to the beach. After assuring Ashana that I was feeling fine, I remember running. I ran and ran past everything and down to the beach. And there she was. Loa. She looked like…a drowned rat or something. I ran to her and knelt down to see if she was alive. Her voice came, weak, but still full of hatred. "Rae…" I stood straight. I was not going to let her get to me again. I decided not to take my chances. I put the pinch on her and dragged her to a cave. I had a feeling that it was not wise for me to alert the amazons. When she came to she looked weak and defeated. I guess I took pity on her because I gave her food and water. Yet she still spoke hate to me. I said to myself that I wouldn't let it get to me. But it almost did. When she spoke of the burning village…I started to feel hate. I was going to hit her but something stopped me. I turned away from her. I would not let her see that she had pissed me off. Then suddenly she went unconscious. And I got so scared. I shook her. She came to and lashed out at me. That was it. I went to the opening of the cave, as far away from her as I could get. She shrieked at me that I had to help her go to Japan. Then she fell unconscious again. And I was confused. So confused… how could I help this person who had killed me and tormented my friends? How could I trust her? Then she woke up, begging for me to help her again. I couldn't. I told her that I wouldn't. But then she started crying and begging for me to help her. She told me that she was sorry for hurting me. That was when I stopped yelling at her and started to listen. She was in tears. I felt a pang of sympathy. Not for the hateful Loa… but for my friend Loa. I saw confusion in her eyes. I saw desperation. Then she tried to blame everything on me. I instantly shut her out again. How dare she? But then she begged again. I remember that I took a deep breath. I would help her. That night I remember when we met. I had foolishly saved her from death and brought her to our island. How could I have been so blind…so stupid? Yet there I was again helping her. Then I thought…did Loa betray the amazons? Or did I? I had betrayed them? No…it couldn't be. We left for Japan the next morning. During the trip I played over all of the events that had occurred in the past in my mind. What had happened to our friendship? Loa had helped me rescue my mother. What had happened to the good times? The laughing and joking? Had Loa decided to sacrifice the amazons…me… for evil? She was a true villain. When we got to Japan I saw how the people feared Loa. I was sad. Then her master Ni Shang appeared. He made some sort of snide comment about me. I was about to wipe the floor with him, but Loa stopped me. She told him that I was there to defend the people. And I took a step back. Loa had defended me. Why did she…defend me? Then Loa and Ni Shang fought. And I felt the power of the black dragon. It was like fire. I will admit that I was frightened by it. A force like no other… Then there was a bright light. When it cleared, I saw Loa lying still. She wasn't dead though. I didn't want her to die. I shouted for help as if Loa was my sister. And that was when I met her sister…Ming. She looked exactly like Loa. And she was there to help. But then she told me that she couldn't help Loa. Anger ran through me. How could she not help her own sister? I pleaded for Ming to help Loa. She wouldn't. I almost punched the wall. In anger, I left. A storm came out of nowhere a few hours later. I ran back to Ming's house to find the horrible truth. Ming was dead…with the symbol of the black dragon across her face. My mind raced. Where was Loa? I ran out into the storm. Rain and wind lashed at me. I saw her standing there. She was holding a dagger that was dripping with Ming's fresh blood. I called out to her. I knew she could hear me… I had a feeling. She screamed something into the storm and killed herself. Right there in front of me. Once again I felt a cold dagger going through me…my heart. This was my…friend? I neared her. She was surrounded by a pool of blood. A black dragon stared at me from her fatal wound. Then in disappeared. I dropped to the ground. I wanted to help her. I was too late. How could I have helped her? I held her lifeless body. My friend…was gone. I shouted for the people to help me. Nobody came. Tears fell from my eyes. Why did it have to happen this way? Why did my friend have to die? She had sacrificed her life to remain a villain. At that moment I had forgotten everything bad that had happened. I remembered my friend Loa. Not my enemy. I felt for the villain that time. When I returned home the amazons rejoiced. They were relieved that the evil had finally perished. I was torn. I was happy for my amazon family. I knew how much pain that Loa had caused. Yet I was sad. And I felt something watching me. I know that Loa is watching me though she is a villain. And I feel no hate toward her. Never again…
A few hours ago I watched Magic Knight Rayearth. I watched Alycione and cried. I turned the tape off and sat on my bed thinking about this story which I have just told you. I know that most of you amazons will call me crazy. I'll probably get solitary confinement for a month. I'm sorry. I know that most villains don't have any remorse for their deeds. And they are evil. But some have good in their hearts. It is them who I feel for. I felt for Alycione's loss…even though she was animated. I miss my old friend Loa. Am I crazy? Maybe…not. They were people who sacrificed for what they thought was the right cause. Amazons, do not punish me for this speech. Sometimes I just feel for the villain. And that is all I have to say. Good night.