CHAPTER 3 – WHAT IS LOVE?

The 6 of us talked until it was time for the shoot. We were really getting along and I wasn’t nervous anymore. In the start I was about to fall, but the guys made me relax and especially Nick was nice to me. He was very nice and very, very handsome. Brian was really funny, Kevin was really charming, AJ was REALLY wacky, Howie was very down to earth, and Nick was all those things in the same person. "Why do you keep thinking about a guy, who you probably never gonna meet again?" I thought to myself.

Probably because he was famous...no, it wasn’t that. Well, sure he was famous and gorgeous but he was sweet too, and not many good-looking guys are sweet. Todd had been very good-looking and he’d treated her like dirt. I was just gonna enjoy the time I had with the boys.

The grumpy woman walked in and said it was time for the shoot and we got out of the car. There were cameras everywhere and all the girls and boys, who’d also got selected, were taking their places.

I looked at Kevin, very confused about where I was supposed to be. Kevin could see it and smiled.

"Just stick with us. You’re suppose to film us, right?" "Right" I smiled, but then stopped. "Where’s my camera?" I said, but in the same time, a man threw a camera at me. I took it and went after the boys. I still hadn’t gotten completely over the excitement of being with the Backstreet Boys; just saying "I’m with the Backstreet Boys" would be incredible. The guys took place and I was told to turn on my camera.

From the moment the producer said "Action" till he said "Cut" was a bit of a blur cuz I was so nervous. When we were completely done, I got to see the films I’d taken. They were actually really good, and I’d gotten in the video too, I was told later. This had been a day I would never forget.

I didn’t know if I was suppose to go over and say goodbye to the boys since I wasn’t their friend, but before I knew it, all the guys came over to say goodbye to me.

"It has been fun, Taylor" Brian smiled and gave me a hug. "Yeah, it has been," I said, very overwhelmed. "Goodbye Taylor" Kevin said and gave me a hug. "Goodbye Kevin" I said and smiled.

"I hope to see you again" Howie said and also gave me a hug. "Like wise" I smiled. "You were great out there" AJ smiled and gave me a hug. "You too" I smiled. Then Nick came and gave me a hug.

I melted. "Goodbye Taylor. I hope we meet again some day" "Yeah...I hope so too" I said and smiled at him. He smiled back and after one more goodbye, I went out to the parking lot and the guys went out their car.

A few minutes later, Charlotte’s car came and I got in. "You’ll never believe what happened to me today!!!" I practically yelled. "Nice to see you too" Charlotte said. "Come on, this is serious" I said. "Okay, what happened to you today?" she asked. "I bumped into Nick on the beach" "You met him?!" "No, I bumped into him" "How embarrassing!! Did he get mad at you?" Charlotte asked. "No, he was very sweet and GORGEOUS!!! It was so great, Charlotte. And later AJ’s mom, AJ’S MOM, asked me to do a special task in the video, so I met all the boys and we talked for a very long time, and when I was to go home, all the boys came to say good bye to me" "OH...MY...GOD!!! That means you’ve met AJ? How was he like? Was he gorgeous, of course he was gorgeous, he always is, oh my God, you’re so lucky, why didn’t you get their autograph?" Charlotte nearly screamed.

"Oh no, I didn’t get autograph" I said. "But I couldn’t really ask them about that" "Nah, you’re probably right, but I’m so jealous of you" Charlotte said. I laughed. It was good to hear those words. "So who did you like the best?" Charlotte asked. "Nick" I said without any doubts in my mind. "He was charming and handsome and funny and..." "Yeah, I get the picture" Charlotte laughed. "What about the others?" "They’re all very nice and down to earth," I said. "Can we go home now? I’m extremely tired" "Sure, but you gotta tell me all about it tomorrow. I’ll bring Rachel and Summer too and we’ll come over to you" "Okay" I said.

The whole way home Charlotte kept talking but I didn’t really listen. I kept thinking about my whole day. The guys were so nice...and Nick. He was nice, not at all like Todd. Todd was an idiot, but you couldn’t really compare those guys. They were too different.

Suddenly I started thinking about Todd. Even though he hadn’t been nice all the time, we still had very good times together, and I was sure that at some point, Todd did really love me, but that was all over now.

My mind was going like crazy the whole way home.

I guess I wasn’t really over Todd yet, I mean, I didn’t love him anymore, but he had hurt me so deeply that it would probably take a long time before I could trust and love a man again.

When I was home I gave Charlotte a goodbye hug and once again she reminded me how lucky I was and then took off home herself. I stayed outside for a little while before I went in. It was such a beautiful sunset and would be sad to miss it. Once the sun had gone down, I went inside our big mansion.

"Hi Mom" I yelled and closed the door behind me. "Hi hon. How was your day?" my Mom said. She was making dinner in the kitchen and I went out to her. "It was great Mom," I said. "I had so much fun" "Will you tell me about it?" she asked. "Can I do it tomorrow?" I asked. "I’m really tired" "Sure" she said. "I’ll bring up your dinner" "Thanks Mom" I said and gave her a peck on the cheek.

Then I went upstairs to my room and threw myself on the bed and looked up on the sealing.

I thought of Nick again. It wasn’t the excitement of meeting them I thought off it was Nick. Of his wonderful, deep blue eyes and lovely smile. Of how he smiled at her when she bumped into her.

"How embarrassing" I thought aloud and buried my head in a pillow.

I was already aware off, that I would never see him again, well, not in person at least. They were gonna come on TV talkshows, and concerts, and videos and I don’t know how many other things, but they were gonna be really big, even bigger than they were now, I knew that for sure cuz they had the talent to go far. Especially Nick "There we go again" I said and walked over to my stereo. I turned on the CD player and listened to the song "I’ll Never find Someone Like You" It was my favorite song, it had so much meaning in it and was so lovely to listen to.

I sang along to the words:

Girl, you take my breath away

And when I’m with someone new

I’d rather be here with you

Baby, forever

My heart belongs to you

Girl, I think about you all the time

I know my love is true

When we’re together

I cried almost every time I listened to it. But not this time. My thoughts drifted away to Nick again.

I was about to smack myself. "You’re never gonna see him again, Taylor" I said to myself. "So stop doing this to yourself"

"What did you say, sweetie?" my Mom said when she came in, holding on a plate of steak with potato’s and gravy. "Oh nothing Mom" I said and walked over to take the plate. "Thanx" I said. "No problem" my Mom smiled and left again.