It had been about a week and a half since the whole thing and Brian was totally ignoring me. He wouldn’t even look at me. I felt terrible, he was just becoming a great friend and I go and tell him his girlfriend is using him. The last thing he wanted to hear. All of this was eating away at me and sleep just wasn’t an option anymore. I just couldn’t get to sleep from feeling guilty. Kevin keeps telling me I should sleep or I’ll make myself sick. But how can I sleep with all of this going on? I asked myself that question over and over again and never really found an answer. It’s like the whole idea for a story. Nothing is making sense and I’ll probably end up crazy.
Anyway, right now all of us are on the bus heading to the next destination. Just don’t ask where, because I don’t remember. It was about 3:15 in the morning and I was in the entertainment room, scanning the channels on the TV. Just to give me something to do. Insomnia sucks! I wish I didn’t have a guilty conscience all the time. But I’m cursed with one.
I was about to change the change the channel, when my cell phone rang. I hit the send button and put it to my ear.
"Hello?"
"Hi girlie! I knew you’d be up!"
"Jane, what are you calling at 3 in the morning for? Well, it’s gotta be later there. I have no idea where the hell we’re heading to right now."
"You’re going to Kansas City, dumb nut."
"Oh yeah, that’s right. Hey, don’t call me a dumb nut! I’m exhausted, so I can’t think straight."
"I know. Kevin called me, telling me you haven’t gotten much sleep since you’ve been on this trip. Les, you gotta stop worrying about Brian and worry about yourself."
"I can’t. I don’t function that way."
"Yeah, well you’re going to have to learn to function that way or you’ll get seriously sick."
"I’ll try. But it’s hard, when the guy who told his girlfriend I was like one of his best friends doesn’t talk to you and ignores you. When you feel this over whelming amount of guilt, because you ruined something. It’s hard."
"I know it is, Lessie. But Brian will come around. You’ll be friends again and he’ll realize you and the guys were right about Kate. It’ll just take time."
"Too much time. I don’t think he’ll ever come around. He hates me and I don’t blame him for that."
"You are one complicated person to talk to." Jane laughed.
"Thanks. I love ya too. So, what is the real reason you called? It has to be other than just trying to convince me to sleep."
"Well, it kinda is. Kev is really worried about you. And so are the others. He thinks that it will be a good idea if you come home for a while."
"What?! Janie, I need this. You said yourself I needed time away from home to get ideas."
"Yeah, but I wasn’t expecting it to make you an insomniac and make you sick."
"Janie, I’m not sick. I have a little insomnia and I’ll get over it. I was just starting to get used to this whole traveling thing."
"Ok, fine. Stay. But if you get sick, you’re coming home."
"Ok deal. Thanx, Jane."
"You’re welcome. Well, I’m gonna let you go, so you can get some sleep. And you better get some."
"I will, I promise."
"Ok, talk to you later, girlie. Tell the others I said hi. Take care. Bye.
"Take care too. Bye. " I hung up the phone and threw it on the other couch.
Geez, I have a little insomnia and people think I’m deathly ill.
"Yeah, well I wouldn’t be like this if Brian would believe me!" I thought out loud. I heard a noise outside the door and saw someone start to walk away. I knew that is was Brian, because I saw his curls.
"Brian, either stop spying on me or come and talk to me!"
He turned around and walked into the room, sitting on the other couch, near the door.
"Look, I don’t appreciate you telling your friends and whoever else lies about my girlfriend." He said, coldly.
"Brian, I’m not telling lies. And I’ve only told Janie. The other guys know already. You just have to get it into your head that what we’re telling you is true."
"Kate wouldn’t do any of that, that you have accused her of. She’s not that kind of person."
I had enough. It was obvious he wasn’t going to believe me or anyone else for that matter. I was too tired to argue over this stupid thing.
"Ok, Brian. Maybe you’re right, Kate probably wouldn’t do anything like that. I probably misheard her. I’m sorry for miss accusing her. I hope you accept my apology."
He was silent for a while. I could tell her was thinking. He then opened his mouth, to speak.
"I accept it. I actually wanted to apologize to you. I heard you talking to Jane a few minutes ago and heard that I’ve caused most of your insomnia by ignoring you and not talking to you. You’re right, I did see you as one of my best friends. And I was stupid for doing all of that to you."
"It’s ok, Brian. All a misunderstanding." Dude, now I was lying to myself. I had to figure out a way to get proof of her using him and I had to soon or this was going to kill me.
"Friends?" He asked.
"Yep, we’re friends." I smiled at him. He opened his arms and I hugged hi.
At least I got his friendship back. That’s all that mattered right now. The situation with Kate was going to have to wait. I think I could finally get some much needed rest. Maybe anyway...
