Writing

Imperfection-

The happy pills deteriorate my sick mind
I look for the end of this maze
But a dead end I always find
I eat the lies they feed me
I spit them out, but always crave more
Ending up more damaged than before
The words pour out of my mouth
But no one ever hears
The difference between the laughter and the tears
Life repeats itself in a funny way
The pain hides but never truly goes away
I end up where I start
Alone, afraid, and in the dark
Can anyone really see my heart
Beneath the frost bitten tissue torn apart
My memory stays in vain
I keep remembering again and again
And everyone is so different now
Trying to act the same but not remembering how
I stand still, moving forward
And there is no one to move toward
No one but the broken reflection
Stood up, screamed at, and drained of imperfection

Divine-
(verse)
Running through my veins
I can feel this pain
Causing my uncertainty, I try again
Beneath the layer of ice
Melted thoughts have slowly swam away
I begin to walk away
Thinking everything was just fine
(chorus)
I'm feeling so divine
I can't escape this illusion that is real
Like a riddle of my mind
Nothing comes close to how I feel
(verse)
Give me a piece of something
Something I can understand
Like a blank sheet of paper
There's always something you're suppose to write
But never can remember
(chorus repeat)
(end of song)
contemplate, concentrate, think of what you've done to me
play, erase, nothing matters more than present tense

I've lost my mind-
(verse)
Sometimes life can be so scary
Dangerous thoughts I try to barry
I'm one step behind
Always left to kiss the ground you walk upon
(break)
And I guess you could say I've lost my mind
That i've left all sanity behind
Go ahead and laugh at me
Just don't stare when I start to breathe
(chorus)
I could have swore that you led me on
I guess I'll just ignore what I had felt
Cause hating you is so enjoyable
Another guilty pleasure I adore
(verse)
who said life isn't about me
when there's no one but me
looking back at me
The end of the road is all that I see
Cause I just ignored the fact that you were in front of me
(repeat chorus)

Trace-

I'm so easy to abuse
I'm the misread directions you misuse
Trust isn't an easy thing to gain
When people keep messing up again and again
Say the words to my face
Instead of leaving without a trace
I could step on your body and you'd be numb
Leaving you bruised up and dumb
I hate you, you piece of shit
I finally gave up, I quit
On pursuing something so worthless
Making my mind a mess

Pandora-

Her face was gloomy and alack.
She had scars on her creamy white back.
Such a beautiful girl of opulence.
Her death had no significance.
She used to dance with such iniquity.
She'd twirl her sticky dress in the humidity.
She had an altercation with the whole town.
But no one seemed to know how she came about to drown.
Dead flowers at her obsequy.
This is Pandora's final day.

Play Toy-
Did I ever mean a damn to you
Or was I just a play toy meant to chew
Were they words that came from your head
Or were they just lies you fed to me
Ooh Ooh I don't know anymore
Ooh Ooh I don't know you anymore
Were you afraid to spit in my face
Cause these scars I can't erase
I'm so glad you decided to choose
That I'd be the one for you to abuse
(chorus)
I am not your little play toy
I am not your property to destroy
I swear that I don't know anymore
I swear that I don't know you anymore
(2nd verse)
Just when I thought I found someone
You started to have your own fun
You crawled inside my head
You found every fear that I dread
You ask if the world revolves around me
And I said that you can guarantee
(chorus repeat)
(break)
Could you please think of me
Forever until I feel happy
Why do you wanna leave me
I thought you said I was pretty

Copyright ©2001 Leah Brown