ALL ABOUT ANDRES
by Rick Dalton
CHAPTER ONE
It was just as I had remembered it. A low walled wood framed structure stretched across the clearing, still covered in a tangle of vines. A few remaining cabins dotted the edges of the open space. No one was around – it was apparently deserted. Or was it? The sound of my rental car had alerted someone. I was being watched from a corner of the building.
Clean-cut, shirtless, and a well-muscled body – things were looking up. I hoped the natives were friendly! I slipped out of the car, arms at my side, and stood waiting for his next move.
“Es perdido usted?” he called out across the open space.
“No español, Señor,” I answered in my friendliest tone, and with a nervous smile.
“No problem, gringo, I speak English. I am an educated man.”
“I think I’m lost. Is this ‘Uma Tukuynin’?”
“Gringo, you surprise me,” he grinned, “you speak Quechuan, the language of my ancestors!”
“Only about six words, and you’ve just heard half of them,” I chuckled. “I was here long ago, if this is the same place. It looks the same, but just a little more – overgrown.”
“I’m working on it. Someday I hope to make this a home for me and my future wife.”
“But you do live here?” I pressed further.
“My family owns this property, but we live on the other side of the river.”
I slowly approached him. He seemed friendly enough, but might regard me as a trespasser.
“What are you doing here?” he asked as he slowly walked toward me.
“Reliving my past, a long slow journey,” I said quietly.
“You are from the United States?”
How do I answer that without giving away any secrets? I was a wanted man. I had shot my lover and fled England.
“On a long vacation - from Miami, Florida, originally.”
That seemed safe enough. I dare not mention any connection to England or Jamaica.
“You are welcome to my future home,” he grinned, extending his hand in friendship. “Would you like to see the inside and hear of my plans for the renovation?”
“Yes, gladly.”
I followed him around to the rear of the building. It wasn’t easy keeping my eyes from adoring his beautiful body – half-naked in the noonday sun, glistening with the sweat of his labors.
“Ah, yes, the deck with the beautiful view of the river below,” I exclaimed as we stepped onto the rotted wood planking. “There used to be a pathway down to a clearing by the waters edge.”
“You remember it well,” he said curiously. “Just when were you here last?”
“Long ago, under strange circumstances,” I sighed, “A short stopover on the way to Lima.”
He slid open the glass door of the window wall and motioned me inside. The great room had been stripped of all its furniture, only the pool table remained in the wide space – and the old stone fireplace along the end wall.
“The former occupants left very little. They were in a great hurry. My father bought the land to add to his adjoining farm. We were going to level the structures and plant, but I asked him to save this building. I fell in love with the privacy and the view.”
“Yes, it has endless possibilities,” I agreed. “There were six small bedrooms and a bath at the end of the hallway over there,” I said, pointing toward the opening next to the fireplace.”
“You have a good memory, Señor.”
“Please call me Rick.”
“Okay, Rick, I am Eduardo.”
We continued our tour of the dusty but empty rooms, as images of what it used to be like here sprang into my mind. Ending back out on the wood deck, Eduardo sat on the edge of the step and motioned me down beside him.
“What is your real purpose here, Rick? This part of Ecuador is not on the usual tourist stops.”
I thought carefully before answering. He was smart and not some country bumpkin ready to swallow a story of half-truths.
“I write books,” I said simply. “I had some strange and exciting adventures here. I need time alone to think and relive those memories to jump start my creative processes again.”
“You mean a ‘safe house’ from the world,” he grinned.
“Something like that. Actually, this used to be a ‘safe house’ for some dissident groups.”
“Yes, I know. We don’t speak of them in my family. They are evil people.” He stared across the river valley before turning back to me with, “You are not a terrorist in hiding, are you, Rick?”
“Certainly not!” I sputtered in surprise. “What makes you ask that?”
“I am a cautious man with many responsibilities. I don’t need any trouble.”
“I was hoping you might let me stay here for a few days. I can pay you.”
“There is no electricity, no hot water, no bed to sleep on. What would you do?”
“Camp out, not literally, but unroll a sleeping bag by the fireplace. I’ve packed well with provisions I picked up in Quito. I won’t be any bother. I promise to stay out of your way.”
“I don’t need your money,” he mused, “but perhaps you can do me a favor in return.”
“Yes, of course, anything,” I agreed quickly. “What is the favor?”
“I will send my brother over later – with a hot meal for you. He will explain. You will like him. He’s a lot like you.”
“Like me!” I exclaimed. “In what way?”
“A dreamer, a would-be man of the world. He longs for the big city and the better things in life – not the farming or planting like me.”
He stood up and brushed himself off before adding, “Make yourself at home, Rick. Mi casa, su casa,” he laughed. “And by the way, he’s also gay – like you.”
“What makes you think I’m gay?” I sputtered in indignation again. “Do I have a sign printed on my back or something?”
“You couldn’t keep your eyes off my crotch,” he grinned.
I turned a deep shade of pink as he disappeared around the corner of the building.
Night had fallen, bringing with it the chill of the Andes Mountains. I had scavenged the clearing for firewood and a few good pieces of rotted logs from an old woodpile at the edge of the clearing. My aluminum folding camp cot was set up close to the fireplace with a down filled sleeping bag spread over it. I wasn’t sleeping on the cold floor with all nature’s creepy crawlies for company. Not to mention the possibilities of snakes! I heard footsteps outside on the deck.
“I am Andres. “
The sound of a voice was coming from outside the glass window wall. Eduardo’s brother perhaps? I walked over and slid the glass door to the side.
“Wow!” I responded outloud without thinking. “Eduardo’s brother?”
“I have brought warm food from our house,” he said simply.
“Come in and get warm,” I invited. “Doesn’t anyone in your family ever wear a shirt?”
“You should eat before it gets cold,” he cautioned.
“Will you join me?”
“I ate with the family. It’s expected of me, like everything else they expect of me.”
I quickly noted his dissatisfaction and turned to another subject.
“Can you help me build a small fire? I don’t want to burn down the place, but it is getting a little chilly in here.”
He turned to my pile of sticks and started arranging them on the deep stone hearth. I turned to the warm bundle of food and unwrapped the containers inside. The first one held a chicken stew, very fragrant, with chunks of sweet potatoes. White rice and black beans were in the next two containers. A foil packet contained fried plantains, and the final container held a thick egg custard topped with caramel sauce.
“There’s enough food here for both of us. You sure you won’t join me?”
“My mother is a very good cook, but I had plenty to eat already.”
He turned back to the fireplace and soon had small flames licking up at the dried sticks I had collected in the clearing. The crackling sounds were soon replaced by a quiet hissing as the larger pieces began to burn.
“So, you eat and then we talk,” he stated firmly as he took a seat on the edge of the hearth with his back pressed against the stonework.
“You certainly are all business,” I replied, “and your mother is a great cook. I haven’t eaten this well since I left…”
The unfinished sentence dangled in the silence of the room as I struggled with my thoughts. I had nearly let slip too much information.
He didn’t even look up; he was lost in his own thoughts. I’d have to be very careful in my choice of words from this point on.
Sated with the delicious food and warmed by the cheerful fire, I was calmed and relaxed enough to pursue our conversation.
“And what will we talk about, Andres? What is on your mind?” I asked.
“When you leave here, where will you go next?”
I thought it over carefully, but decided there was no harm in revealing a very general direction for my trip.
“I will drive south from here, perhaps to Peru to visit a friend in Lima.”
“That is good. Then it is decided, I will go with you to Lima,” he vowed.
“Wait a minute, Andres,” I said in alarm. “I travel alone. This is a trip for quiet reflection and I don’t need any extra baggage with me.”
“I will pack very simply. There will be no extra baggage.”
“You misunderstand. I mean, he who travels alone travels best. I don’t want any company on my trip.”
“My brother said that you owe him a favor and I need to get out of here.”
He struggled to his feet and strode toward the glass doorway.
“I will be here tomorrow with your noon meal and we will make our plans.”
He stepped out into the chill of the night, leaving me with my mouth hanging open in shock and surprise.
The sounds of an ax splitting wood awakened me at dawn. . I glanced around the room, but everything appeared the same as last night when I fell asleep. The fire had burned out hours ago and the coolness of the night still prevailed. I shivered back down into the warmth of the bedroll and tried to drift off to sleep again. It wasn’t happening. Curiosity was drawing me back out into the world. Whatever could he be doing at this hour? I assumed it was Eduardo hard at work.
I shrugged into some jeans and a tee – decided on a jacket for good measure, and stepped out into warm sunlight on the rear deck. He was at the edge of the clearing, working on a pile of old fence rails. I stood gazing at the shirtless back, muscles rippling across his arms at each downward swing of the cutting tool. As he wiped the sweat from his brow, he noticed me staring.
“Thought you might like some fresh firewood for tonight,” he called out.
“Thanks. Can I help out?”
“You would just slow me down.”
Now where have I heard that statement before? Of course, my beloved Kim when we… I blanked him out of my mind. I didn’t need to shed any tears in front of this stranger. As I turned back toward the deck, he ambled across the yard toward me.
“Sorry, Rick. I didn’t mean to seem ungrateful, but this doesn’t look like your kind of work.”
“That’s okay. I’d rather watch you swing the ax than me,” I grinned. “Nothing ‘gay’ intended!”
He took his usual place on the edge of the step and motioned me down beside him.
“You and my brother talk about anything last night?”
“He’s very determined that I’m his ticket out of here. And very stubborn,” I added.
“He’s a good kid,” Eduardo said solemnly, “but he doesn’t belong here – in this kind of life.”
He looked carefully into my eyes, as if searching for some look of understanding.
“I think you are a good person, Rick, or I wouldn’t trust you with Andres.”
“But you don’t even know me.”
“I’m a pretty good judge of character. And now that I know you’re not a terrorist,” he smiled, “I wish you would do this one thing for me and for my brother.”
“Let me talk to him again,” I acquiesced, “but I have to lay out a few ground rules with him if we’re to travel together. I have my own problems to solve and I don’t need to take on any of his.”
“Thanks, Rick. Whatever you can do for him will be greatly appreciated by all of his family.”
He stood and stared across to the treeline at the far side of the clearing.
“I’d better get back to work on your firewood. Don’t want you to get into that old stack of logs again. Scorpions nest underneath.”
“Now you tell me!”
I spent the rest of the morning unpacking everything from my rental and bringing it all in to the house. Sorting and inventorying led me to believe there would have to be new provisions to get me through the week and through the rest of the trip to Lima. I had packed light on clothing and heavy on food, but there just wasn’t enough for two. The tap on the glass window interrupted my thoughts. Andres was back.
“I bring you dinner,” he announced as I slid the door open for him.
“But it’s only noon,” I protested. “I eat a light lunch.”
“In my culture we eat our main meal now and then the siesta after. It is better for your digestion.”
“Only if you join me. Then a walk by the river while I tell you of my plans for the journey. No siesta.”
I wasn’t going to let him get the upper hand and the last word like the previous evening.
“As you wish,” he agreed.
The usual black beans and rice, sweet plantains, and churasco, a well-seasoned fried skirt steak, was accompanied by great chunks of homemade bread and a cold sweet tea. This was not a light lunch and there was no room for dessert. We ate in silence and alone out on the deck. Eduardo had finished his stack of wood for my fireplace and departed hours ago.
“Let’s walk down by the river,” I suggested as the weight of all that food settled in.
“Why the river?” he questioned.
“It conjures up memories.”
“’Conjures’, what is the meaning of that word?”
“Brings back to life things that I experienced here on my previous visit.”
“Things you wish to remember because they were happy moments?”
“Not exactly – but things that set in motion the course my life took after I left here.”
I don’t think he had a clue as to what I was talking about. Perhaps it was just as well. Some things are too personal to share with a stranger. That is exactly why I wanted to make this journey alone. I needed to discover myself again in order not to repeat my mistakes of the past.
We crashed down through the underbrush on the overgrown trail leading to the river – Rio Pastaza, a tributary of the great Amazon River.
“There was a clearing upstream, close by the rocks that formed a swimming area,” I noted.
“Yes,” Andres said quietly, “a place my friend Tomás and I used to take the sun.”
“Tomás!” I exclaimed, “the great corrupter of children?”
Andres looked at me sharply before adding, “He was my best friend. He taught me everything.”
“Like, ‘how to please a man’?” I asked sarcastically. “He groomed you to be a male prostitute like my son Miguel?”
“Miguelito is your son?” he gasped.
“I adopted Miguel and took him with me to the States at his real father’s request. Sylvain had political goals that did not leave room for raising a child.”
“Tomás was more than my teacher, he was my lover. He promised to take me with him, but he left me behind.”
“Consider yourself very lucky!”
I turned quickly and headed back up the trail toward the house. I had ‘conjured’ up too many painful memories and let slip too much information to this stranger. My heart was aching at old wounds that suddenly opened up again. And now I knew why Andres was so anxious to get out of here, he was looking for Tomás.
CHAPTER TWO
The dawn of our departure. I was filled with dread and despair at the responsibility I had taken on – Andres! As I set my meager belongings out on the back deck. I heard the sound of voices coming from the front of the building. Eduardo and Andres soon appeared around the corner.
“He’s in your care now, Rick,” Eduardo began. “Look out for my little brother. If this is the life he wants, I wish the best for him – and you too.”
Andres appeared aloof and quiet as his eyes searched my face. He carried a small canvas bag in one hand.
“That’s all you’re taking with you?” I exclaimed in surprise.
“You said no extra baggage, remember?”
“Hmm, yes I did. I’m surprised you paid attention to anything I said.”
Eduardo gave me a quizzical look, not knowing that Andres and I had agreed to disagree on many matters over the past week of our discussions of the journey ahead.
“And what route will you travel, Rick?” Eduardo inquired.
“Back to Banos, turn southwest, and pick up Route 35 – the Pan American Highway. It will be the safest and the fastest way to the Peruvian border."
He nodded in understanding.
“Well, if you’re ready…” I glanced at Andres. “You can still change your mind.”
“My new life will begin today. We will go now.”
There were hugs to both of us from the now silent and remorseful looking Eduardo.
“I will miss you, little brother,” he said with wetness forming at the corners of his eyes.
“Take care of him, Rick!” he said solemnly as he turned and walked quickly back toward the edge of the clearing.
We drove away from the building that had been my shelter for the past week and made our way down the weed-filled rutted road to the gravel lane at the bottom.
As I began to turn right toward Banos, Andres grabbed my arm and said, “Izquierda.”
“What is wrong?” I asked in exasperation. “Remember I have only limited Spanish.”
“We go to Macas, not Banos. Turn left here,” he commanded.
“This is my car, my journey and you are just the passenger!” I replied with rising anger. “It is my way or the highway.”
“Not the highway 35,” he replied, innocent of my little play on words. “Rick, I have no documents. I can not cross through the border to Peru.”
“How do you expect to leave your country without some visa or passport? I hope you at least have an ID card!”
“Tomás will get everything I need when we reach Lima. He promised.”
“So why do we go to Macas?”
“There is a secret way to cross the border. I will show you as Tomás showed me.”
“I knew this was a bad idea when I woke up this morning. You’re going to get me in deep trouble and I have enough trouble already.”
“Please, Rick, do this for me. I will make love with you.”
“No, absolutely not!”
“You are not gay? You do not find me attractive?”
“That is not the point. You are a very hot looking guy, but I promised your brother to take care of you – and not in the sexual way.”
“Then you have a lover already?”
“Not anymore!”
He leaned against me, his hand on my thigh and kissed me passionately, murmuring, “I know how to please a man, you will see.”
I turned left, and not for the promise of sexual favors. The passion he imparted to me was having an effect, but I knew I had to keep it under control.
We drove on for miles and miles down partially paved roads toward Macas. The route was actually beginning to look familiar as I had passed this way once before with Miguel and Sylvain. As we drove through the populated areas and again hit the peaceful countryside south of Macas, Andres began to scan the forest along the left side of the road.
“There is a place we must find to turn off this road,” he explained. “I will show you.”
It began to sound very similar to my previous journey.
“There, the grassy lane through the trees.” he directed. “Turn left,” he smiled. “I will teach you more of my language later. Perhaps while we make love.”
Temptations, temptations – he was really working me over. I’d have to put a stop to it soon, but I wanted to see just how far he would go to get his own way.
We drove on for about a mile until the rutted lane turned right as we reached a small stream. I stopped the car.
“And now you are going to tell me to drive on through the water and up to that wall of impenetrable green foliage, right?” I asked mischievously.
“How you know this, Rick?” he asked startled.
“I’ve been here before.”
“You are knowing of the dissidents?”
“We had a brief ‘business deal’ and we stayed here for one night.”
He looked more puzzled then ever as he jumped down from the car and reached through the greenery to unlatch the hidden gate. As it swung inward, I pulled the vehicle through and waited for him to close us in – to this secret hideout of the terrorist group know as the … Better not to put it in words.
“Good thing you have four-wheel drive car, Rick.”
“Yes, I came prepared – for just about everything but you.”
“You will not be sorry, Rick. I am very grateful for your help, honestly."
We drove on down a twisted overgrown lane until reaching the small clearing in the woods. The chainlink fence gaped open where the gate used to be, but the small stone hut with the thatched roof still remained in the center of the open space.
Andres eagerly jumped out of the car and dashed over to the open doorway, peering inside.
“There is nothing left,” he exclaimed. “They have taken the sleeping cots, the machete, even the door!”
“Why am I not surprised!” I muttered.
“I will build a small fire and we will eat outside.”
“And where do you expect us to sleep?”
“You have a bedroll. I will sleep with you,” he grinned. “It will be very romantic here on the front porch. You will see.”
He bustled about retrieving small packets of food from his canvas bag while I scavenged the area for small sticks and broken branches for our modest cooking fire. We feasted on the warmed over empanadas and shared the flask of sweet tea.
“Tell me of your previous visit here, Rick.”
“It was a long time ago and I’ll spare you the details, but my friend Sylvain continued on to Lima and his son Miguel returned to Quito with me, and then on to Miami. I raised him as my stepson while his real father continued his political activism in Peru.”
I left out the part about Sylvain transporting the dead thug back to El Presidente in exchange for Miguels’ diplomatic passport to leave the country. Some things are too complicated to explain and need not be shared with strangers unfamiliar with the circumstances of the time.
“What about you?” I asked quickly to divert the conversation. “How did you ever find this place?”
“Tomás brought me here. It was our last chance to be together,” he said with a note of sadness. “His friends had gone ahead to Lima. He was to send for me later.”
He looked off into the darkened trees, his eyes clouded with uncertainty. I maintained a respectful silence. We each had our secrets.
Suddenly he stood up, drawing his shirt over his head and leaned against the corner of the hut.
“We go to bed now, Rick. We must begin early manana.”
He unrolled my sleeping bag and stretched out across the top.
“Take off your clothes,” he ordered, “I will make you very warm.”
“Of course we will have to sleep together. I only have one bedroll, but that is it – no sex!” I admonished. “You love Tomás and I … don’t love anyone right now,” I finished lamely.
I stripped down to tee shirt and briefs before joining him. His body lay very close to mine as we nestled down under the covers. The stress of the driving got the upperhand as I slowly began to drift off to sleep. Andres' arm slid around my chest as he pulled himself closer to me for added warmth. I could feel his hand slowly work its way down, bringing an immediate response from me.
“I think you need my attention, Rick,” he murmured as his head went under the covers following his hand. This time I didn’t protest.
The early morning light found us wrapped in each other’s arms. I carefully slipped out of Andres’ embrace and set about rekindling our little campfire. I felt remorse and shame for allowing Andres to have his own way, but I had enjoyed his company and his attention.
“Rick, you should have awakened me early. We must go soon if my plan is to work.”
“Sorry, Andres, I just woke a few minutes ago. We had a big day and then a big night,” I grinned. “But,” I cautioned, “we can’t let it happen again.”
He looked quizzically at me as he responded, “You did not like my hot body bringing you pleasure?”
“Do you truly love this Tomás?”
“This is not about my lover, this is about you and me having sex. Love is a different matter.”
“Then let’s keep our relationship on a more businesslike level.”
I turned to stir the fire.
We broke camp within the hour and headed out of the compound toward the main road south of Macas.
“The next part of our journey is in your hands, Andres, just keep me out of trouble,” I warned.
“I will show you the way, but we will need the help of a friend. You have money with you, Rick?”
“I knew it would come to this,” I muttered in exasperation. “For a bribe?”
“A little gift of American dollars will make our way into Peru more smooth,” he answered with a smile. “Just leave everything to me.”
We drove on in silence.
“How do you know where to find Tomás when we get to Lima,” I asked suddenly, my mind having skipped ahead to the end of our trip. “I can’t just let you out on the street all alone.”
“I will email him from a cyber cafe. They are everywhere. That is how we keep together after all these long months.”
“Does he know you are coming now?” I pursued.
“I wrote him this week from Puyo café. He not have time to answer. It will be a great surprise when I see him.”
He looked thoughtful for a moment, then turned to me with, “You will stay with your friend?”
“No, he doesn’t know I’m even in South American. I will check into a hotel then give him a call.”
“They will require your passport with proper stamp of entering Peru,” he warned.
His words hit me like a dash of cold water – actually a deluge of icy cold water! I pulled over on the side of the road, my heart pounding with fear and uncertainty.
“Don’t worry, Rick,” Andres said calmly taking my hand in his, “I have a solution.”
As he explained his variation on our original plan, I marveled at how intelligent and insightful he really was. I would never have believed that beneath that beautiful boyish face lurked a mind like – Kim! Now why did I have to bring that up?
The rest of the drive to Zamora was uneventful, other than the sideways glances I gave to Andres’ sleeping form nestled against me. I was growing attached to this young man. Big mistake!
We reached our destination in Zamora at dusk, and found our coconspirator in a small café at the edge of town. Andres introduced me to his friend Macio. Doesn’t anyone wear a shirt in Ecuador? Too much testosterone! I would go on alone from this point back to the Pan Am Highway and travel into Peru alone. Andres friend would drive him across the border through some wooded areas and we would meet up at a small hostel in Sullana, Peru. I would check in and wait, as long as it would take. Of course, my American money was welcomed by Andres friend.
“Now I owe you big time!” Andres grinned as he kissed me goodbye.
A knock on the door of my hotel room awakened me early the next morning. It was Andres.
“My friend and I come to welcome you to our country,” Andres announced. “We hope your stay in Peru will be all that you hoped for,” he winked in complicity.
He slipped through the door and closed it firmly behind him. A quick glance at the rumpled sheets on the bed and he seemed satisfied.
“You rested well and alone?” he inquired with a look of innocence.
“Yes, alone! Why do you care? Are you jealous?”
“I rely on you only for travel. I don’t care what you do,” he answered sharply. “You can have sex with that cute guy at the front desk, I’m sure you know who I mean.”
“I’m not getting it on with anybody, so take it easy,” I replied with equal firmness.
“Except me!” he said, slumping down on the bed.
I could see the tears forming at the corners of his eyes.
“Sorry, Rick, I don’t know what is my problem. I think I am lost in this big world. Hold me please,” he begged.
I consoled him the best way I could, holding him tightly to me and allowing him to tremble and cry until he got it out in the open.
“I am not the tough guy I act,” he confessed. “I have feelings and needs inside that I try to cover up. My family can’t help me on these matters. They know nothing of love between two guys.”
“We will be together for many days ahead,” I said quietly. “I will listen to everything you tell me. I will share a part of my own life with you. Perhaps you can learn from some of my mistakes how to guide your own future.”
“Thank you, Rick,” he breathed, as he kissed my lips. “I know you are a good person and I will try to be an eager student.”
After a quick shower and change of clothes I was ready to continue this odyssey of self-discovery. If I could open up to Andres perhaps I would solve my own problems as well.
We bid Macio a safe journey back to his home – along with a little extra cash donation on my part, and hit the Highway 1, southbound toward Lima.
CHAPTER THREE
I was very lucky to have such an agreeable traveling companion as Andres, in spite of our rocky beginnings. Someone who knew the language was invaluable, and someone who would listen to my stories was priceless. The miles of highway passed quickly as I shared a part of my life with him.
“You had how many relationships?” he cried out.
“Four, if you only count the committed ones. The affairs for sex and companionship do not matter in the long term.”
“And how old are you?”
“Somewhere ‘between thirty and death’,” I grinned. “Not an exact quote, but more like a paraphrase to fit the occasion.”
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