One way to improve love for yourself is to vividly experience your accomplishments. Realizing the successes that you have had, as well as the ones you are working on now, is very, very important. The feeling that you get when you focus on your successes, realized or dreamed of, past and present, contain creative energy.  All successes have positive power; and all are full of wonderful, creative vibrations.  The feeling success brings boost your confidence, and all visualizations of success contain energy that create your inner peace and contentment.

For this reason, I acknowledge and feel the thoughts of success that vibrate a positive feeling within me.

MY PERSONAL AFFIRMATION:

I acknowledge God and know He is here with me in trying times and in good times.  I know that I can create a life that is interesting, fulfilling and fun.  I am aware that I am constantly learning more about the positive side of life. When I look at the negatives, I may have to search for the hidden lessons, but know that there are always positives, even in the worst of times.  The value of the lessons is sometimes hidden, but good is always there.

I dedicate my life to learning, having fun, loving God and creating Love for all.

THEN:

In my youngest years, there were many personal tragedies and trying times.  At that stage of life, I had no knowledge of the positives that are always present, even in the most negative of events.   I felt as if was my mind was filled with a fog of shame and confusion, almost like a thick, gray smoke that I could not penetrate nor disperse. In my mind, I could not see clearly. I could only be there.  I seemed to be not exactly living, but just holding on, waiting for something better.

NOW:

I can see clearly now.  The fog and smoke are gone and I have discovered that it really is a bright sunshiny day.  At this point I know there is so much more to life if you do not dwell on the negatives, but focus instead on the positives that are ever present.  I did grow up around too much negative energy, but I find that it has made me strong.  Now that I recognize my strength, I can use it to discover the good in everything, and I have total FAITH in my ability to learn the lessons I am so lovingly given.  I am learning to Love all, no matter how negative things seem, as that is God’s way.

THEN:

I became hardened during my teenage years.  I hid my cries for help behind a hard exterior.  I was lost within, so I tried to maintain control from without.  I lived in sorrow, confused and not caring if I lived or died.  I felt like I was hiding this weak and negative side of myself  well.  I built a wall of aggression and tomboy toughness, although I was frightened because I had to reinforce my image by fighting. I believed strongly in God, but felt unworthy.  The gray cloud had become so thick that I realized there had to be a better way and although I determined to find it, I had no idea how.

NOW:

I know that those years were a difficult transition from the confusion of childhood to the necessary strength for adulthood. Although I felt abandoned and alone back then, even as I prayed, I understand now that God was there, always beside me through the hard times, making me stronger than many who had fewer negatives in their path.  I felt love for him all along, as I do today.  But now I actually feel Him, and I know He has always Loved me, no matter what stage of growth I was in.  Although God did not create the mess in my life,  He definitely used the problems of my childhood to prepare me for the life of the adult that I would eventually be. 

THEN:

For the next few years, I was very rebellious. I continued to hide behind my long-ago-self-created shell of anger and belligerence.  I protected myself from anything that might hurt, and held on to the hardness that I thought could keep me safe from pain.  I became the clown that didn't care.  Even though I was still young, I felt so awfully old.  There were great losses during this time, and I thought I carried those heavy burdens alone.  There were so many questions I needed the answers to, but I lived with a disbelief that blinded me to the answers.  I knew by now there was great strength inside me... my mother worked very hard to make me see it, but I still didn't know how to crack open the wall of self-protection and self-pity.

NOW:

I realize that God is True Love, and that His compassion and power are always mine to share. I feel deep inside me for the first time that my mind is clear and I am in control of my life.  It is so wonderfully obvious that I am here to live and learn and grow, and follow God. There is a great deal of  personal growth happening within me during this most amazing time in my life. 

THEN:

For the next few years I struggled alone.  My life was emotionally, physically and materially hard.  I had to learn how to save on everything and do without a lot.  I still knew God was there but felt that I hadn't done anything to be worthy of His Love or He would have saved me already. Having to move forward with so little understanding was hard, but inside I knew it must be done or I would be lost forever. I decided I had to find another path and so I developed a slightly selfish, totally self-centered drive for success. 

I set out to prove to myself and the world that I was not dumb, that I was worthy, and that being the insecure clown I was did not have to prevent me from completing my G.E.D. and the more elusive HSED. I changed my outer life.  I went to Massage Therapy school, got my State Certificate, became Nationally Certified and built this website. And even though it may seem at first glance that I have done it backwards, starting with the outside effort to influence the inside, the real beginning was the inner strength that I used to create the outer successes.   By doing something strong, I became strong. It has worked better than I could ever have imagined.  

 NOW:

The smoke is clearing and I can see both myself and God with extreme clarity and know that I have been full of the strength of love for all those apparently empty years.  I know that I am a good person with many talents I never saw before.  I know that I can still be a clown, because that brings laughter, but  I can also be a study geek, too, when necessary (lol). With greater ease than I would have imagined, considering the tremendous amount of dedication it takes, I have established a residence for my work, have been there for 7 months, and have been a benefit to many people in that time.   The successes slowly build up, and the energy of each one helps me experience a continuing INNER GROWTH.  Life is a learning process with great rewards.  I now will continue to improve   It is through God’s guidance, my desire and determination, and a real faith in God and Love for myself that I have become a valuable asset. I am still growing stronger and more successful because I practice seeing my successes.  I feel more confident and happy daily. 

A friend who is also a very smart man, said to me, "We should create our life, not react to it"...and I listened, and from here it makes perfect sense! (thank you Des).

So, now you know how important it is to become aware of your successes.  As you create the wondrous confidence and positive vibrations within yourself, be at peace, knowing your success is already real and all you have to do is recognize it. I deserve happiness and contentment. And so do you!

Because Love is such a dynamic energy, it can be shared between us to raise the vibration of the world.

And so, with the effortlessness of God, I fill myself with peace, and surround myself with Love.  I create within myself the positive vibration of success, and when the energy fills my chest to overflowing, I open my heart and send it out to all of you. 

Bask in the Love of God and absorb the compassion of the angels as you gather the powerful recognition of your own successes.

Thank you God.. Thank you All !!

                    Darby Lee Schlomer
                    September 19, 2001

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