You never knew, did you?
never knew my life was filled with spiteful laughter and mockery.

You never knew, did you?
never knew it was his fault I’m so messed up today.

You never knew, did you?
never knew how much I blamed him for my anger.

You never knew, did you?
never knew that all I wanted was a big brother or sister who cared.

You never knew, did you?
never knew I hated him and he hated me too with equal distaste.

You never knew, did you?
never knew what I heard after all the yelling and fighting stopped.

You never knew, did you?
never knew just how much a storybook brother would mean to me.

You never knew, did you?
never knew every waking moment was pure hell with him around.

You never knew, did you? 
never knew about the way he treated my friends and I with so little respect.

You never knew, did you?
never knew deep down, we really were not related at all.

You never knew, did you?
never knew the loathing we held for one another.

You never knew, did you?
Never knew of the marks I was left with after the bruises and hand slaps faded.

You never knew, did you?

No, because it hurt to much to say...

It hurt to realize he was ashamed of me.

It hurt to admit he enjoyed my torment.

It hurt to say he felt disgusted with everything about me.

It hurt to notice he went out of his way to cause me dismay.

It hurt to see the pain on his face whenever he looked at me.

It hurt to accept defeat.

But, you never knew that, did you? No, because I was coward. And I couldn’t 
tell you. It hurt me to finally know the truth...













































so, you never knew how much it hurt....