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4/16/2001

I arrive at school in the morning
I get the occasional “hi’s”
But that’s it-nothing big
I don’t have any friends
No one knows where I’m coming from or how I think

Everyone leads perfect lives
No depression or self-injury
I highly doubt anyone here thinks of suicide-
Heaven forbid that would be a sin!
It’s running through my mind all the time

But yet I don’t want to be around people
I want be withdrawn-by myself
Do I like feeling suicidal-I guess I do
I guess I like feeling hopeless and alone
I guess it’s because I’m so used to it
Seeing all these suicidal plans running through my mind
Do I like it or hate it? -I don’t know