Life goes on
As it never ends
Eyes of stone
Observe the trends
They never say
Forever gaze
If only
--"Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely"
Backstreet Boys

This morning I get woken up by my pen pal, Dixie, at 8am. She's calling to tell me her great-grandmother had passed away last night. So I make a mental note to go out and buy her a sympathy card. I got back to sleep and after a few more miscellaneous phone calls, I finally get up at 11am only to find a fowarded email from my mother. My best friend, Heather's dad died on Christmas of all days.

So I get dressed and head out to Target to buy two sympathy cards now. As I'm getting in the car to go home, I turn on Mix 96.1 out of Sacramento and "SHOW ME THE MEANING OF BEING LONELY" by BACKSTREET BOYS is playing. This is the first BACKSTREET BOYS song I heard all day and it fits, espeically starting at KEVIN's part which is where I came in.

It also fits that it's raining today.

Things like this make me reflect on my life. Have I told everyone that I love them? Do they all know that I care just in case there is no tomorrow?

It's similar to how the events of September 11th made me feel. Did I remember to tell my mom and dad that I loved them? Does my girlfriend know that I will always be there for her? Do my friends realize I care about them as much as I do?

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