Well my name is Jessica and i'm 20 turning 21 in November. Even though there are pics up of me they're not the most recent pics. Actually i've grown a bit since those photo's were taken so yeah..I now have short black/blonde hair which i'm growing. And also in case you hadn't worked it out i'm a lesbian and have been for about two years now. Want to know more read my coming out story. Anyways i LOVE writing poetry as you can tell, i also LOVE to read. I find reading helps me relax and also helps me take my mind of all the crap things that are happening during my life. It's one of my ways of escaping reality. I once went to a group and i said that and i got told that doing that was no good but it's what helps me and i've been doing it ever since. Do whatever you feel comfortable with.
I love to play basketball...it's
something physical and helps me get rid of some unwanted, pent up anger.
Since i moved to South Australia i haven't been able to find a team but hopefully i will soon.
I also like going to the movies
and to the beach. *sigh* The beach...WoW! That brings back a few memories
and not all good but that's a long story. Savin' it for another day.
Speaking of the beach, since i moved to South Australia my girlfriend has helped me a lot with dealing with beaches and memories. I don't think she realises it but going to the beach with her has helped me so much to deal with my memories. I now have new and better memories. *hugs* Thanks Hun.
OKay....what else do i like doing?? Oh yeah..listening to music! Helps me write actually. My fave band is the Smashing Pumpkins *I have all their albums* LIVE and Metallica are alright. I use to be a HUGE Madonna fan but not so much anymore but i still love her work. Her words are so heart felt, i love them.I also LOVE HOLE!!, Rob Zombie, White Zombie, KoRn and many more :) I'm also in dance music too.
I'm really into astrology and tarot
cards. As you may have guessed i'm a Scorpio since my birthday is November
4. When i tured 18 i got my star sign tatooed on my back :) And i also
have my tongue pierced :) I think my star sign really suits me...i love astrology. I once had
my tarot read....and MYGOD!! It's came true...it's totally freaky...i'm
going to get it read again soon. I'm just hoping that the cards will say
my life is going to pick up. *crosses her fingers*
Well i haven't got my tarot read yet but my life is picking up anyways. Everything is slowly falling into place.
Well I orginally started this page to help me realise my feelings and thoughts...i got the idea to call it "The Shadow World" coz i feel that a lot of my time is speant in the shadows. I like it there...no one can see you and therefore not hurt you.
Anyways....ummmm....well onto something else...My Family. I have 3 brothers and 1 sister. I was going to say i have a step brother but as far as i'm concerned my step father never really exsisted.(I wrote this and the more i think about it the more i regret writing this although i will leave it here.) My mum and step dad are now offically divorced. She has a new boyfriend which is making her happy so therefor i'm happy.
I'm the second eldest. I have two
beautiful dogs. I've had them for years...they're so loveable and adorable.
I LOVE them so much...but they're getting old and i don't think they'll
be here for too much longer :( *sad face* In fact one of them is blind :(
However just over a year ago my girlfriend and i went and bought a Rotty. Her name is Storm and she's gorgeous. :)
Well in 1998 i finished High School at
Pembroke Secondary, it's a hole in the middle of the Earth *lol* Well i'm not doing what i had planned on doing, i quit TAFE and moved and am now employed at a 5 star hotel cleaning. It's funny how over time things and people change..i for one has changed. Not many people cam actually see that but i have..i feel in my heart and soul i have and i just hope it's all for something and someone.
I've had the net for nearly 6 years
and over those years i've met some really excellent and understanding friends....*this
are not in any order okay*Katrina
*haven't heard from you in a while but i hope things are getting better*.....my
adopted Auntie Debbie *smiles* She's really nice and understanding Thankx
ya DAG *hug*....Hung....he's one special guy....Clint..he's so sweet *hug*....Kelly aka DaZeD..she's one of my bestfriends and whether or not she knows it she's helped me through so many tough times, i just hope she knows how much she means to me. Kel ya a gun and thanks for sticking by me...and then there's Ben...*you're
not just normal, you're a sweet, caring guy*...Ryan *We've just met but he's really nice. *hug*
...Marigold *hugz*
Nearly forgot you *grins* Thankx for being a special friend..Take Care
lil sis *s* Then there's my other adopted Auntie Clara aka Spring * Thank
you so much for your words of wisdom, they've helped no end.How can i ever
thank you enough* @-)-)--- And then there's Katie aka Jules *WoW!! What
can i say you're a special friend. Thankx for listening* *hug* Melisa
I'm sorry i wasn't there for you. I'm sorry...please Take Care! *hug* And Sam
aka Baby doll...she's a great friend...thankx for being there *hug*
Recently i have met some really
special people that have made one hell of a differnce in my life...and
these people MUST be metioned. First is my girlfriend Sandra aka Mysterious Oceans. We meet over the net and since we lived in different States we talked a lot over the phone...actually we talked basically non-stop. *s* I have phone bills to prove that *lol* Anyways..since we hadn't physcially met all we did was talk and get to know each other better which i found to be quite refreshing. After a while i realised i had fallen in love with her. I remember the first time i told her i loved her...i had just gotten off the phone to her and i knew i had to ring her back and tell her or i'd never say it...i rang her back and i was so nervous but i said it and she said Thank you. It was beautiful. Sandra i don't think you know just how much i do love you and how much you do mean to me. I know i can stuff up sometimes and say the wrong thing but that's me..you're constantly helping me work through issues of mine, some i'm guessing you don't even relaise *s* but Thank You Hun...I Love You. Next is Luke. I met him through
a friend of mine. Luke is also a poet and is so totally sweet. His heart
is as big as the ocean and his soul as free as the birds. He's one of a
kind..Luke thank you for your sweet words...they mean a lot. *hugz and
wishes*
Ummm...what else to write??? My
mum and Dad got divorced a very long time ago and i haven't seen him in
'bout 9 or so years but that's another story for another time.
Well i think that's 'bout it for
now.
Thankx for reading this all if you
actually made it down this far. *hug*
Luke also lives with some really
nice girls *smiles* I think they all deserve a mention :) OKay first is
Tara. She is so nice and has one of the warmest personalities i've
ever met. *hug* Hope to talk to you soon :)
Next is Kuda...she has a cool sense
of humor. She always something witty to say and likes telling blonde jokes
even though she's a blonde herself *laughs*
Ummm...next is Raz...i haven't
really talked to her but she seems cool.
And last is Peaches....she's so damn nice.
She has one GREAT personality and is very warm and loving *hug* I can
now see why Luke likes her *s*
And that's 'bout it for my friends.
Take Care
