Copyright © 1997-1999. Astrid
~*~Dark Rain~*~
I put my tears into a bottle
Place my sorrows on a shelf
Hid behind a broken mirror
Anger grew inside myself
I felt the pain inside me
Cry out through my veins
Saw the hurt wash through me
Burning hard like Dark Rain
I heard all my violence
Crawl out through my mind
I touched all my depression
With my heart each time
Gave into the aching
I dealt with all the pain
I dwelled in my suffering
Cried the tears of Dark Rain
~*~Violent Goddess~*~
I'm a violent goddess
Soon to self destruct
I'm poisonous envy
Soon I will corrupt
My thoughts are too violent
I'm just a girl in pain
My ego is exploited
I'm living life in vain
Don't let down your guard
I'm not an angel in disguise
Don't give into me
I'm so full dangerous lies
I'm a sleeping beauty
Living life in sins
I'm a violent goddess
Living hell within
~*~Tortured~*~
Drain my soul
It's burning thin
Tearing down
The walls within
Blurring thoughts
Ring in my mind
Torture in pain
Melt and bind
Piercing scars
Bleed inside
Burning flames
Where ashes ride
Falling over
Twisting sins
Mangled walls
Tearing up within
~*~GooDbyE~*~
I held your dreams in my hands
But I let them slip away
I watched you as you cried
But I could not stay
I walked away from you
And slowly I began to disappear
I couldn't watch you hurt
So brushed away my tears
I heard the pain in your voice
When you said goodbye
I lowered my head
So you wouldn't see me cry
I turned around once more
To see you wave your hand
The tears slipped in streams
I did nothing more but stand
I stood there alone
You watched me as I cried
I felt the pain in my heart
As we said goodbye
~*~SixFeeT~*~
In a casket six feet under
Sometimes it makes me wonder
Why I'm here, why I live
I have nothing more to give
Nothing more I can do
No more I love yous
Just get it over with and kill me
I no longer want to be
If I die right now
It would feel good somehow
I've lost all hope in life
You stabbed me deep with a knife
I wish I could just walk away
To hide somewhere in another place
It doesn't matter how I feel
The pain you stabbed is real
It no longer matters what I am
Soon enough I am damned
I hate who I am today
I don't care what you say
Just make it short and sweet
Burry me deep, under, six feet
~*~My PoiSon~*~
I'm lost now can't you see
Nothing matters anymore to me
All I am is bitterness
Taste the venom from my kiss
The poison seeps in you
And no longer am I true
Turning up or turning down
Poison in me as I drown
A wounded heart a wonded soul
Dieing dreams taking control
I can't see I can't think
Slowly I begin to sink
Deeper in I fall apart
Standing here holding my heart
It melts away and slips through
Standing here alone without you
Dieing dreams a poisoned mind
I'll rip it up all in time
Forgive me now for all my sins
Wash away the pain within
I don't know the pain I feel
But for me it makes it real
I'm not sure if it will end
But if it does, it will be again
It's only a matter of time
Before it crashes all in my mind
Keep the pain away from me
Set me free of dieing dreams
~*~ShaDoweD~*~
Shawdowed in the dark
A hollow shaped heart
A box of shattered dreams
Tears of endless streams
Hovered in a corner spot
Death tonight is what I got
Empty from my insides out
My eyes are deep in drought
I'm slit from end to end
My back for you I bend
Craddle this persisting burn
From you my heart has learned
Never will it love again
Sorrow is my new found friend
Death, may it be on my mind
To late now to turn back time
~*~Tommorow~*~
If tommorow
I am gone
Know today
I left alone
Alone I cry
Alone I sleep
Alone I die
Alone I weep
If tommorow
I should die
know today
how hard I tried
Alone today
Alone I'll be
Alone forever
Alone with me
If tommorow
I stand with you
Know today
This love is true
Alone I am
Alone with you
Alone right now
Alone us two
If tommorow
Slips away
Know today
The love we made
~*~Love Stares Away~*~
Walked out and listened to words you did not say
Stood from a distance and watched you slip away
A world left emptied, shadowed, forgetten in your past
Our love's like a window made of broken glass
Scared to let it all escape from my hands
An echo from the past to where I stand
A dark cloud hangs low around my head
The noise from the silence surfaces instead
I Watched and I waited as it caved in
As a shelter, it waited to fall down again
A storm of day dream memories of love
A star fell and landed, shattered from above
From the darkness the light tends to fade
Lingering for wishes and dreams never made
Torn down, carved out from a distant ray
I sink in deeper into nothing, more for each day
A solid bed of nails where I lay
Softly the pain from you stares away
My eyes saddened by the pale moon
As rain drops on my soul too soon
Sitting by the dark trembling walls shake
Trust your eyes to your hearache
Hide youself behind your eyes
Reach for me as my heart cries
A misty dampness blankets my soul
The door slams silently burning me cold
From the darkness a light tends to fade
Lingering for wishes and dreams made
Torn down, carved out from a distant ray
I sink in deeper into nothing, more for each day
A fire burns and melts the rain
Hide me deeper from this pain
Run a replay of the days that passed
Wishing a dream to far from your grasp
~*~Weak~*~
my eyes are sore
and i am weak
a dieing soul
from where i speak
I'm torn apart
and pushed away
afraid of your love
and the games we play
take me now
I can't go on
Hold me close
I feel alone
cause the hurt
that cries like rain
close your eyes
inflict my pain
pushed away
a tear again
brush my lips,
the kiss of sin
hide me now
burry me deep
a dieing soul
left dieing weak
~*~Rain Of Pain*~
Feel the rain of pain that falls
As I turn away from love again
Cry your eyes full of tears
Just waiting for the end
Look into my weakness
A broken heart you'll find
Search deeper now please
Is this all in my mind
If I just shut it out
Shut down all the pain right now
Will it all just go away
If so then how
Will it hurt again
As the knife of love stabs deep
Will the world feel my aching
Make the tears stop falling as I weep
Shelter me and love in vain
Hide me from the weakness here
Bury me deep in this love
Give me nothing more to fear
The last goodbye locked me up
It took so much away from me
The reality stands still
Turning me into nothing
~*~Another Forever~*~
Forever I'm alone
Sitting in the dark
Hiding all the pain
Vivid in my heart
Feeling death around me
Just below my viens
Tears you see me cry
Flooding like the rain
Another forever comes and goes
And forever I'm alone
Sitting, staring into blankness
My depression now fullblown
My mind now all so blury
I'm sinking further in my cell
Sitting alone here I stare
In my creation of hell
I smile a mask so plainly
My pain you can not see
Another forever, I'm alone
My depression took over me
~*~The Dark Side~*~
Lurking in the shadows,
the dark side of me
No lights visible
the dark is what you see
It takes you in deeper
hiding in the fear
Forming around you
shadows getting near
You sit so unnoticed
waiting to be just seen
Only to see the darkness
from the dark side of me
Fondly as the light
grows dimmer in time
Whispering evil
plays inside my mind
You could never know
What it is you see
the visions of the devil
burning with the dark side of me
It's not to be explained
from words that I speak
Sitting alone in the dark
emotionless and weak
Time is getting short
The shadow draws to thee
no lights visual to the eye
for the dark side of me
Weakness it plays upon
dancing mystically
brainwashing thoughts
into the dark side of me
~*~Alone~*~
I see you standing
In a distance
To far to reach out
I hold out my hand
To only reach for
Something that isn't there
The pieces have fallen
Around as the walls caved in
Then I saw you standing
Alone
And I watched
As you cried
I watched as you
Slowly faded away
I should have
Reached out farther
To you....
And now.....
I am
Alone........
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