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no such thing as easy living,no such thing would be rewarding anyway
life sucks and then you die! well as i've found thats true. it'll never be easy,but i suppose you could say i have it easy because for one i am on this computer ,and people that have computers,have it easy,well in one sense thats true,so i suppose if you're looking at tihs you must have it pretty easy too. but i meant this great difficulty in a different way than that.
i meant in that way that i feel estranged from the world and other people in general,and i go outside to see strip malls and pretty green lawns and all these people, that dont even question what they're doing it makes me feel weird,uncomfortable,it makes me feel awkward staring at the computer screen typing this,looking at my little black letters against this glowing white screen...i dont like it.
i dont like being resorted to living like this,but what can i do,i feel very apathetic,and even more lonely, because i cant seem to find a niche where i can belong and finally do the things i need to,and get a chance to truly be alive,i life that will challenge me,and not have modern convenince to serve my every whim. i only wish the apocalypse would come not to be chaotic ,but to make people realize the way they live is fucking stupid.i wish the apocolypse would come so i cold escape this world and rreally challenge myself. theirs no such thing as easy living,or better living to easy is not living.
but ok,supposing tomorow the great apocalypse came and i trly had to fend for myself and their was no modern convenience,what ould i eat,where would i sleep,what would i do? i dont rightly know,but i wouldnt be afraid of figuring it out.
i wish i could live in midieval times,where everyone had a specialized skill to trade,or better yet"barter" to gain the goods the needed,i imagine myself to be a weapon-smith,seeing as that is primarily what i do now. its just that nobody goes by the barter system nowadays,well i hope i can bring that back.instead of using $$$ to aquire what you want,aquire it with your wits! and if you want it bad enough you'll find a way. sorry thats not really true all the time.
i wish i could live on a comune and trade ideas with friends ,and live consuming as little as possible but creating a wealth of ideas and skills,feeding off of one anothers ingenuity to simply survive,enertianing ourselves without the boob tube,well i must admit the tv sucks me in alot,and i feel guilty for not being better than the tv. see i told you theirs no such thing as easy living,dont get me wrong i thoroughly enjoy life . when im with friends and people who are genuine,and have genuine ideas,and can have fun without worrying about filling their punk rock quotient.
fuck all those fashion kids that spend 3 hrs doing their hair,they're already fucking dead! fuck you and your colored hair and all your bondage crap,and your fucking docs & creepers ,and your bomber jackets,you're already dead,and you know it! i dont think i could ever thoroughly articulate my discontent for the mechanics of this world i live in.but i also dont think i articulate how much excitement i get from it,i mean ,when i meet someone ,whether they are into what im into or not i dont care,i look for people who are genuine,real people who wont put up a front,and i love these
people because their is no comunication barrier theirs no being shallow,and thats when you can feed off one another and create!!!!! creating and inventing. alot of my friends you could say are very eccentric,but they are REAL! and i love that. i get very lonely very easy,and wasted alot of my youth in voids with fake people,and now know better. i dont regret it though again,life sucks and then you die.
and getting to do cool shit like food not bombs,i loved it,it made me feel good,and to be the one to set it off,it wasnt difficult at all taking the initiative,taking the initiative,taking the initiative....life can be real easy once you realize that the will is all you need.
AXE MAN