A B O U T - M E

original pic I'm originally from Nigeria, but grew up here in GEORGIA since the
age of 2 or 3. I grew up in the small southern town of FORT VALLEY,
Georgia....... PEACH COUNTY HIGH SCHOOL CLASS OF '1984....
and the son of a COLLEGE PROFESSOR.

I first attended "IOWA STATE UNIVERSITY" in Ames, Iowa [1984-1987] as an
Electrical Engineering and Computer Science major. Later when my father refused to fund my
continued education any further. I dropped out and moved to the Maryland,
Washington D.C., Virginia area where I worked to pay off an a student loan
which I had taken out from "Iowa State University" to continue my education
with.
In the process of working, I burned myself out physically and down to a
pulp where I couldn't even function from day to day. I was later diagnosed
with depression and schizophrenia for which I have been taking medication
ever since until today. As the saying goes, a man's got to know his
limitations and I had to learn that the hard way unfortunately but life goes on.

In 1989 I moved back to Georgia, and after paying off my initial
student loan, transferred to "SOUTHERN POLYTECHNIC STATE UNIVERSITY" car pic 1

in Marietta, Georgia... (now KENNESAW STATE UNIVERSITY)... where I pursued a degree in "Computer Science" and "Electrical Engineering"....

I dropped out in 1997 and later transferred to "DEVRY UNIVERSITY " in Decatur, Georgia
in 2006 where I completed a degree in "Computer Science" and "Technical Management" in 2007.

I am currently on Social Security Disability - on and off - since 1990 to current.

.....I am both Multi-lingual and Multi-talented....

58 years old, black male, 5'11", about 200 lbs, salt and pepper hair with strands of
white/gray here and there, a self-described Computer Hacker, and slightly nerdy....
I am Slim build and can still pass for a High School student sometimes, and yes I do get "CARDED".
Believe it or not i am a "Senior Citizen" now and have
been for a few years so far and I have to keep
reminding myself to act and live my age because
it is really sinking in mentally because i never gave
it any thought before until i saw my age...

Y E S, I U S E T O D R I V E A "Z" - A N I S S A N 3 0 0 Z X

E M P L O Y M E N T - H I S T O R Y

Computer Programmer, Computer Operator, PC Technician,

Laser Printer Tech, Electronic Technician, Telecom Technician, Network Technician.

Voip telephony tech, Point of sale equipment tech
My resume is available in a separate part of my webpage as well as occupational
info, and other information about myself.

I N T E R E S T S

I like New Age stuff, Reiki, movies, Mp3's, Sy-Fy, gadgets, electronics,
exotic cars, sports cars, and in my spare time, and as a hobby, I build, repair,
and upgrade computers and laptops - as well as tinkering with various types of
Electronic Gadgets here and there, network projects and some home improvement.

For those of you wondering about my personal life,

The "Powers That Be" said i did something wrong
--- sure if they say so ---
so i don't mind going home to an Older woman at all
I think i've more than paid for my sins by now
Human nature saids you're only attracted to someone
who accepts you, not someone who is mean to you
i only have eyes for an Older Woman -
A "Real Wilma" for those of you who understand what the term means....in an older woman or sbbw...

White, foreign...Asian, indian, korean, etc -

female Older mature granny Sbbw, or sugar mamma - who can tolerate or put up with me i guess -

i'm just old fashion that's all, i'm used to dating older women and grannies - i do not chase any more, my chasing days are over, you must make the first move otherwise i don't know you are there.

And no, I usually will never never approach you that way - or jump on you -

respect, respect, respect goes a long long way and also you have be a gentleman - yes yes yes -

they can even seduce like an older woman does... yes, yes, just that simple - like an older woman picking up a younger man today -

that's really all i understand - especially when you reach out with you hand - and let me know you want me to approach -

that's just the old fashion way for those whose who have been around the block before - that's the old way you take someone home or pick someone up -

it's just understood body language - it's either a yes or no, no questions asked and you approach or walk away if it's not what you wanted - Only real adults play this way - no children permitted - i'm not here to train or teach or take care of anyone -

i usually know what that means but anything else is really just a usual tease to me - and i don't have time to question anything, so you have to come correctly or else i don't respond at all -

yes, i've had younger fast ladies before but no - i'm not going to run or chase after you, i'll just walk away from you at that time -

i've even stayed late a couple of times before when they hinted it was getting late but no invite or invitation to stay or join them in another room or even move closer to them -

so it was very easily understood - and i would just proceed to leave and no - they usually wouldn't stop you - there's only one way to come correctly, otherwise i'm walking away - if you were really true, try try again -

no golddiggers please, i can see you coming a mile away -

Anyway, i'm able to scratch your ITCH or a particular

one and maybe others as well and it only took me one

try to verify the first time thru that i did get it get it right -

i knew I could do it because I experienced it once with

my last girlfriend when were intimate with her eyes

closed in a state of estacy exclaiming - while in each

others arms - right there right there honey - and kept

saying those words - that can only mean one

thing - i could actually satisfy someone or had been

the whole time thru and she had been lying to me and

that was

just before she went into the hospital - never to be

together again that way - spirit doesn't lie -

- it had to finally come out -

and before or after that moment at a point of dispair

she closed her eyes and looked up and held my tool

and yes the magic moment did happen - so why did

she have to keep me for 20 years while seeing other

people at the same time without my knowledge -

i only visited her and any of my past girlfriends - weeks

at time - and yes - she was an older woman -

in all that time, i only remember bringing a woman

home maybe twice and actually being intimate out of

all those relationships.

most of all my girlfriends never came home with me or

knew where i lived - sometimes i made it a Surprise -

But it would always be their place -

i never brought my last girlfriend home either but a

couple of random hotel visits or her place as usual and

was planning to bring her home finally as a Surprise

but she denied my last gifts

- she said she wanted something different - which i

said I couldn't afford -

and Yes. - I walked away again - like usual - I didn't

Complain Argue or Fight - i let another guy take her -

and Yes a few motel stays and what a Surprise when i

actually brought one home - different attitude but too

late - I already knew - because i did wine and dine

already back then when i was able to -

So like the other women before my last - mostly BLACK -

who just looked at

me and said - CHILD SUPPORT - no questions asked

and that was it - it was over before it started -

wouldn't even touch or approach me - Denied me on

the

spot - so no I've never been BLACK or anything else

- So it's not at all like BBC - nothing close - so no

worries -

i don't give any pain, not even a scar to remember but

pure pleasure that you do remember during the

different type of treatment(s)

- you only fight the treatment because it feels that

good

could be considered a form of INTIMACY or FOREPLAY

similar to what most of you never experienced before

- REIKI is love - Hands of light - Hands of love -

- i just may even be able to stop your running -

and other problems or issues -

- would finally be a relief for you wouldn't it ??

you would finally be able to leave your house again

and not be tied to your stool among other things

No guarantees at all of course and results may not be

immediate - if any at all -

Sometimes, may even be -

- PERMANENT -
For those interested you know how to reach me -

i might add in conclusion, my same hands that

provide the LIGHTNING to others also gives me permanent

relief when i stroke my own self and require no

additional attention whatsoever.

No, i don't have to ever go anyway else to get relief.

or ever require a female companion.

i have no worries to content with, yes this is the life.

In the end, the urge TOTALLY - disappears -

and cures many other diseases as well, yes, yes, yes -

and yes diagnosed with an "Enlarged Prostate" -

over a year ago now -

also non-existant now -

hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah

it was just my Magic Hands of REIKI-

How long does it really really take on top if you were only Interested in something else ??

And you know that's probably the last time you'll ever ever get to see that pretty lady's face because she probably doesn't ever ever want to see you or your face again - She nailed you and she got what she came for - and going to get paid -

I never made or left a baby anywhere past and present - you know the government would never ever let you walk or get away with something like that -

Maybe that's really what first impressions are really all about and if you really wanted someone and really gave them a chance the whole darn time or was it just a lie and or a joke to shame someone - so none of it really ever happened ???

you know the government will always have the last word with a paternity test and you know what follows -

yes yes yes verified and forced payments for child support- ----hallelujah---hallelujah---hallelujah and yes everyone will know and can find out -

no I don't have to pay for someone else's baby or one that doesn't even exist - I can hold my own - and no I still don't pay any child support at all at all at all - But on occasions i have taken care of someone elses child before, a couple of times actually so i know what it's like and i know what child support means - so you don't have to teach me -

that stunning gorgeous pretty lady wasn't worth all of this pain and suffering and running the whole darn time was she ??

she has probably just moved on to the next guy and the next - that's probably the only thing she ever does - and always gets handsomely rewarded -

so if a pretty smiling lady meets you and leaves you very quickly and never returns your calls you probably know why- especially if she sends or gives you your note or things back - it's pretty obvious -

Just keep walking away, you'll live - I promise you -

they say there really really really is someone for everyone so never ever have to settle for what someone gives you or leftovers from a party -

Just keep walking - someone may actually find you and hide you away forever -

Most of my life I've been labeled as gay, faggot, trans, queer, ugly, sissy, unwanted, outcast, etc. and so forth and carry an

invisible woman's purse for everyone to see. All you have to do is mention my name or show my picture and

everyone knew who i was - oh !! That's that guy !! - I'm probably pretty famous by now - the one that took the

shame and all the crap and still refused to impregnate anyone and pay their precious child support and be led

by a woman by dog collar or collar and chain especially a black woman who will put you down no matter who

you are - I wouldn't play their game and be black. Even my fellow Nigerian's disowned and ridiculed me

saying that I didn't identify as one of their kind. I was basically a nobody or trash and didn't mind being that at all

as opposed to yielding - I already have one dog collar on me and more would be company - hahahaha

besides they need someone to make an example of - A willing scapegoat or fall guy is hard to find in these

times - The show must go on people !!!! Show us your tickets at the door -

nobody will teach me so this is how I learn - Otherwise they want me to beg beg beg for sex like an animal -

I explore reiki with my hands as well as using it to stimulate instead of oral - Started out as research - I am a Reiki Master -
and yes i do use my fingers to see how you feel down there and make up for oral just like other guys do.
but women have actually turned me away before they saw how it felt. They pointed to the door and said
don't pick up anyone on the way home, and laughed at me - yeah, i've been there before and that was just
barely first base - it was already over before it began and i went home early - another one bit the dust - no i wasn't really BLACK like what they were used too
nor do i ever plan to be - I'm not from around here -

- yes I have a few health problems and a older mature granny is the best that I can do - i specifically have a speech problem or impediment among other things and i've had it all thru life and growing up and even now it has gone noticed by medical professionals except for a few instances by friends and relatives - i look, act and speak normal most of the time - i'm also impotent and there are many different types of that condition as well for those of you not aware and that too could go undetected - many many more health problems, guess i'm pretty loaded with them -

in my whole life I never knew what luck or a 2nd chance was even if it hit me right in the face, and yes I lived a very sheltered life -

and still considered to do so, so I still keep doing the same darn thing and same mistakes as you call them -

nothing else to do what common sense and logic tells me - as I observe in everyday life - thats all I've ever known

from those who actually made it or made it to the top - or still alive at least -

A very very sheltered life indeed, I remember raiding the local garbage dumpster scavenging for electronics discarded by our

seemingly rich or well to do neighborhoods - yes our toys came from there and mine still come from almost the same place

today - discount places and bargain basements - They said we were rich but actually grew up very poor or like the poor -

in the end i have to add, i was an abused child and yes those memories are slowly coming back - i remember having to step up to the plate hoping that i would take the brunt of the punishment so my other brothers and sister would get off easy -

sometimes i was actually the only one that would get punished almond like someone had something against me - i guess you know where i got my speech problem after constantly being beaten to an inch of my life.

i would always be wondering when the abuse would end, all the way thru high school i think its probably when it would come to an end or just subside.

Guess now you can understand why i don't talk after growing up with that kind of life and my father constantly promising to help me with my speech problem after being the actual cause of it.

i speak only because i had to speak going thru school as i was growing up and even then there was always some type of hesitation as i stood up in class facing everyone.

i did make it thru and almost no one had a clue but some of my insructors wanted me to follow in my father's footsteps but i would kindly grin and said it wasn't for me.

his college education was mostly in psychology and he used that to control his family so you could almost imagine what he was like - after high school i was ready to get as far away from there as possible, even if it meant the other side of the world.

yes, this was my "Coming to America" - yes it was.. and i guess those memories were buried for a reason. so when i said we lived like we were poor, now you can see exactly why - almost like prisoners of war - by i should have turned long long time ago after living thru something like that or not even supposed to be alive today - many many times -

Almost 18+ years of living hell and then the remainder of my adult life, and then a pretty lady suddenly wants to have my child - ? HELL - NO - !!! after all my pain and suffering - I'm never going to take care of anyone else but myself - Even a fool, trans gay, faggot, trans, queer, ugly, sissy, unwanted, outcast, etc. have learned their lesson quite well by then - hope you can see why i'll be popping pills for the rest of my remaining life just from the voices that i used to hear if nothing else -

Yes i remember the incidents very well from my days of dating when i was called every profanity under the sun - when they exclaimed - you are looking for what ??? - or the famous quote - you are ugly - yep - and only offered child support instead - or ended the standoff - yes, a lot of women did walk away from me during those instances and i'm glad they did - story of my life -

So when the moment comes and I get a no no because my equipment is either too short or too small or just plain inadequate - only good enough for child support - that's my cue to walk away again -
No hard feelings - not my first rodeo - so I guess I'm not good enough to handle any kind of woman at all without having to pay
- point well taken - now everyone knows what I can handle and to stay far away
Now I don't have to worry about taking care of anyone else but myself and spending my money on just me - don't have to keep blowing it on someone else and believing in fairy tales.
Such a joyous ending since I already figured that out which I why I just kept walking away -
I just play my part and walk away, or the other outcome where they look away, or look down or just
cough, telling me I'm just too ugly, I get the same message after 40+ year, and I should have built a little resistance by now, still playing the part and walking away -
Don't know what I supposed to feel anymore but I still recognize the same cue's from the females which never changes so there's nothing new to learn -
I got the message loud and clear, it's just a show and I just keep playing the same part, nothing hard about that, and just waiting for my time to come like everyone
else as long as it takes - No I don't believe in fairy tales, why would I both after having a life that's been forever ruined with no hope whatsoever.
I know the difference between reality and dreaming, and what's actually possible -
A peaceful and graceful end it will be, why would I complain - I was actually enjoying it -
But then i get looks of disgust and disappointment, isn't this what everyone wanted - for me to put on a this same particular show
everytime - falling back on a sofa or chair mouth wide open gagging or choking on something with someone on top of me - while everyone applauds - sorry but I
didn't get the joke - am I doing something wrong ? - I'm just playing the part you asked me to play - maybe
when it's all over I might just actually understand - but until then as the traveler would say - I'm just passing thru - just passing thru - just passing thru

Believe me, nobody cares what you do behind closed
doors in the comfort of your own home - but paying child
support payments for 18 years are a whole nother
story compared to the price of a simple "Rain Coat" !!!

Yes - Yes - You have to pay the magical "Child Support" for 18 long - long - Years !!!!

That's why it's so magical and Women love it !!!!
They actually get "PAID" !!!! -

And if you don't pay - You can go straight to jail and
don't stop to collect $200 -
Until you can Pay Pay Pay !!!!

??? Capeesh ???

. The magic behind ""Child Support" -

No thanks, i'll pass and keep walking away -

- That's one magic trick i'll try never never never try to perform -

Trust me I'm not afraid to wear a "Rain Coat" -
One of my Co-worker back in MARYLAND where i use
to work In the late 80's
pull me off to the side and gave me that piece of
advice and i knew exactly what he meant -
- He was a BLACK guy but Everyone would say
he had - JESUS - in his eyes -
??? if you know what that meant ???
- And yes, you could tell a part of him was DIFFERENT -

For those of you who don't fully understand the picture: Any man, whether "Straight", "Gay", "Bi", or whatever orientation they are can
make a "BABY", but it doesn't make you any "STRAIGHTER" than anybody
else, nor does it get you anymore respect than you would normally have-
They just made a "BABY" and that's all it is to them, other than the
fact that they will be taking care of that "BABY" for the next 18 years
- one way or another...in the form of "CHILD- SUPPORT".
So, before you get up to the "Altar" and say "I DO", you better make
sure you aren't doing it because of any of the above reasons - because
there's no reward down the road. If somebody saids
the "BABY IS YOURS" or "I LOVE YOU"
- verify it with a test. If you still want to say "I DO", then consider
a "PRE-NUPTIAL WEDDING AGREEMENT" in case you are "WRONG" -
There's no shame in accepting what and who you know you are, rather
than what others would like you to think you are -

- The bottom line secret is that a BABY is made out
of pure fear for a - G A Y - M A N - that's it - either
the male and/or female "finally" has an orgasm out of
fear of death or something else or their partner
causing them bodily harm or something else and the
woman suddenly gets pregnant -
You know you never hear from that poor woman again because now she has a label just like the rest of us
welcome home, welcome home, is someone loving you ?
i've met a few of them and never knew why they kept a low profile, small world indeed - i feel your pain - and
i don't mind if need someone to share it with - now you know who i am - am i not good enough for you compared to person who did this to you ???

One of my WHITE bosses in the mid 90's told me the
same thing in so many words about a couple that he
knew - that the woman would finally get pregnant out
of just plain fear -

--- Psychology - MOTHER - NATURE - always finds a way - Psychology ---

i have male indian friend who asked me for a screw driver once and knew you could just buy one at the store.
Anyway, many years later after he moved to another house i rode with him in his car and right before we got to his house - he passed gas in the car - and basically
went nuts.... he turned red and slammed down the accelerator pedal. we were at his house in seconds... .... usually when you do this, you say excuse me and
say roll down the windows and we laugh about it... We got to his house and we were out of his car and in
the house. He walked to the bathroom and pointed at the door hinting that I needed to use the
bathroom like he was commanding me or something and just kept pointing at the bathroom door.
Sure, i went in and urinated and came right back out and the guy was gone...
Months later he now works out of the basement and keeps asking me to come over fix something and
then his indian wife would call as well to get his home camera system fixed...
After several visits i just quit going over since he just likes cheating people and has robbed me of things
before by substituting the wrong items for me to take as payment which were basically worthless or antique.
i haven't seen the guy in months except taking me out gor pizza and disappearing for hours
i waited for him sitting in the pizza parlor with a crowd of people. i went outside from time to time and
walked around thinking maybe he was in the somewhere on his phone.
I finally just sat down and waited...and he eventually showed up with no explanation and paid for the pizza
and we went back to his house where his wife, kids and parents were. We ate pizza and then i drove
home. Haven't seen that guy in many months and he is Always asking me to come over and I always know he
and his family wants free computer work done as usual which usually takes 4 or 5 hours....
just an example of someone who doesn't think you know as well as his family.

American black women are famous for this type of behavior by threatening men with child support.

it has been going on for as long as i've been living and i've talked to some of them on the phone who were cheating on their soon to be mates from out of the country in this same matter by hiding their mail, green cards, etc - in hopes of forcing them into child support.

i listened as they were laughing about it on their end -

yes, this actually happened and it was eye opening -

so be careful who you date or associate with because it could actually end up costing you - avoid these

type of women like the plague because after all these years they still have not changed -

They appear to have a monopoly on this type of behavior.... and yes i've dated a few of them and lived to tell about it -

Even my first girlfriend, an older black woman with a husband working out of town tried to pull the same stunt back in 1989-90 or so

Never told me they were still together, and we actually dated for several years - yep - first girlfriend ever and first close call -

A little birdie told me after all these years, i never had a clue - or reason to doubt her -

She left an identifying mark on me the whole time we were together just like my last girlfriend (she was even white) did also
as i found out when she bragged about it in front of me at the rehab center where i visited her every month - saying - i was never going to leave her or find anyone else - and said i was cheating on her -

Been about 7 years or so since we've been apart at that time just months ago - and nope - no one else - and the nurses there would "TEASE" me about

visitation rights just like a prison - and laugh - yep.. mostly all black American women -

Her sister called a few weeks later and said she had passed after being in a rehab center and that i should come and see her $1500 urn that was supposedly made of GOLD -

I started to go several times but just didn't feel right since my health was not that good. One time or maybe the last time her sister called, we

talked a little while and suddenly i heard my presumed decease girlfriend in the background yelling "DEVIL - DEVIL - DEVIL" - repeatedly -

and the sister started calling her name and yelling as well - soon there was a click and the sister hung up the phone - i was laughing myself - my presumed
dead girlfriend was alive and just got turned and was taken by the devil - just months ago - lol - lol -

I should add that her and her recently deceased brother had a really special relationship but her
sister as well but seemed the only one who would occasionally say No and not get involved leaving things between my girlfriend and her brother.
Guess i just interrupted something and finally one night after watching tv there and turning out the
lights and i was showing myself out and my girlfriend said no, this way, pointing to her room and i started
staying over, which is why i guess i was there with them unknowingly 20 years or so.
i knew there was some reason the brother would keep staring and never left the house.

Before my girlfriend supposedly got sick both her and her sister sat down in front of tv with me once and
discussed their sex lives in front of me since her sister were was always interrupting us when we were in bed
together.. just opened the door and looked right in... saying she wanted me to take her to the store...
On occasion i did actually take her to the store and she flipped up her dressed at least once....and
wearing nothing much underneath and laughing of course...
Anyway, my girlfriend had a big smile on her face as i looked back and forth between the 2 of them and
the sister was angry and wanted to join in pretty much since they shared their men - and my girlfriend
agreed and let her speak while we were in the room together -
Nothing happened since my girlfriend got sick and ended up in the hospital and rehab not too long afterwards -
i then overheard that my girlfriend had finally given the sister permission to be with me since I hadn't
made a move...and it only took a few phone calls to figure it out since the sister finally started answering the phone for my girlfriend -
Anyway, before all of this when she first moved there after she got out of prison and i gave her a ride to her new home taking care of a disabled lady.
i drove up one day and she was making cake and ice cream for the local taxi drive who was a black fellow she told me about.
she was mesmerized by his equipment so had to get a taste and see what it was like.
They were actually involved for years since i lived out of town from her and she failed to mention this of course.
Probably still dating the same guy now so once again i was just extra extra extra - she just needed
someone to use like always - never good enough the whole time and couldn't compete -
So who was actually cheating and who was true ?
There are other stories there which is why I eventually left but im not saying anything else -

i had other prior relationships where both sisters or mothers and daughters propositioned me so this wasn't the first time or my first rodeo -
Especially a different one that kept asking me, if it was cold ?, one 2 different occasions and yes we were alone and this was a girlfriend's sister -
Of course different mother's and daughter's as well ,that's all i'll say -
Also had an older black woman who was one of my computer clients who had an older adult son who
was sick and live out of town. She would tease me all the time when i was there swinging her thing back and forth and giggling but of course i just did my job.
One day and maybe another time she had me to pump her clogged toilet stool and even asked if it was fixed when i was done and paid me $100 for my time.
She called me several months back and i guess she wanted the same thing done again, not the first time i fixed somebody's toilet since i grew up in the
country and we usually learn to fix our own things.
People always surprised for some reason when i fix their broken toilets and other things, i just never got it but glad i could be of assistance..
We had no money and so we fix things ourself in the country where i grew up. We learned from our
parents instead of going out to play with the other kids in the neighborhood.
There are many ways to get TURNED - this was one of them - there's a section about my personal spiritual experiences in another part of my website -

Actually met my first girlfriend on an internet swingers site back then so i thought it was safe -

Yep, she taught me quite a bit but then decided to take me for a ride that i would never forget -

She ended dying in her sleep from a "heart attack" - but i wasnt there though - one of her children found her the next morning before i called her -

And yes, i was the one that took care of both of their kids - as well as others -

and here i am today, still walking away -

so in the end, I still don't believe in fairy tales unless you can actually prove yourself to me -

i will never never ever delude myself or believe in a

dream -

even then, nothing is ever ever guaranteed and you

know that as well - so watch where you step -

because this could still just end up being a simple

meet and greet - nothing more - story of my life

as well - which is why I never mind leaving empty handed - or going home alone -

---you know people may start talking if they catch us

together since I don't mind being out in public -

so the ball will always be in your court if you can

actually take the heat and still concentrate on me -

---some things you just learn to get use to -

....that's the kind of life I learned to accept -

where everything is either forbidden or out of reach -

- i only believe in what is real or could be real -

respectable means just that, something you just can't

fake - even if you someone else already made a name

for you or you have one yourself -

For those wanting to reach me, email addresses and contact links are off the main page of my website that saids

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