My darling Joe;

You left me my dear one and put a hole in my heart.  I know
you only wanted peace for your busy mind.  But, now I have
none for my wandering mind. I hope that you always felt
loved by me and the rest of our family.  That is my biggest
worry that you did not feel loved.  I don't know what else I
could have done.

I miss you so much.  I have been through your writings, at
least the ones I have found and I somewhat understand
some of your trouble.  I only hope I have interpreted
them the way you intended them to be.  Some have brought me
comfort and the rest have brought me only turmoil.  But,
not as much as you must have been in.  Even though I am
angry at you for doing this horrible thing, I can in some way
understand it and accept it since I have no choice.
I do forgive you and I forgive myself for anything that
I might have done over the years that precipated this choice.
But I shall never forget and I shall make sure you will be
remembered.  I make you this promise Joey,(I know you prefer
Joe, but this is my letter), I will do my best to get your
writings published and possibly even recorded. I still have
not been able to listen to your playing of your music, since
you never would play for me, I shall be able to listen to
your tapes someday.

Joey I have given very few of your things away and I will
keep them with me as long as I need them to be there.
However, there will come a day when I shall have to release
some parts of you and I hope you will understand.

You were a glowing, bright ray of sunshine when you were
born, somewhere down the road of life it dimmed and now it
no longer shines and my life has a shadow in all the time.
 I shall keep you in my heart forever and hope that when
we meet again with God that the sun will again become
whole for you and I.

Mom
Your greatest and oldest fan.