My dearest Robert,
I miss you more than there are words. I can't for the life of me
understand why you had to leave all of us. Still, I'm not mad at you
or disappointed. My love for you overcomes all of those emotions.
I just wish I had listened a little closer and noticed a little
more. Maybe, just maybe, I could've helped. I hope some day I
can understand all this mess. I will never forget what you told mom
that afternoon that I cut your hair. And if that's the reason
you are gone thank you. Thank you for giving me a little more time
with my mom. I believe your death did give mom another year to
spend with her family that she wasn't ready to leave. I just wish
you hadn't traded your life for such a short time for her. I wish
you were here to give me one of your wet kisses. I'd give anything
to be able to cook for you again. Nobody loves my cheeseburger pie
the way you did not even your uncle Billy. I promise this year
I will cook till I'm blue in the face, in your memory. And 
Christmas is going to be better too. I know you would want it
that way. I hope now you see that I loved you as much as if you
were my own.
Till we meet again.
Love
"uncle" Carrie