Documentation of my existence

September 2, 2001 8:01 PM

Gosh I’m tired. I have so much homework that I don’t want to do but know I should. I’m mad that tomorrow I can’t go to Amanda’s house. Her mom says she hasn’t been being nice enough to her sister or something like that. Today I went to church at 6 with my dad like I always do. Every Sunday I wake up at 4 in the morning to get donuts and go to church. Its near impossible to go to sleep early on Saturday night, so I usually just stay up all night and go to sleep after church. I did that today. I’m not really in a writing mood now I guess.

September 3, 2001 3:34 PM

Ugh! I’m supposed to be working on my milestones, but I just can’t seem to find the work ethic I need. I figure if I write a journal now at least I’m getting something done. I also need to do my map and touch up my literary analysis.

Oh hey, Samantha just told me she got hacked – by Phuc! Ha, that’s sort of funny.

September 5, 2001 1:00 AM

So tired, I’m so tired. I’m seriously struggling to keep my eyelids open. I really need to do my homework ahead of time. Same lesson I learned last week, right? Right. Except this time I’m going to take it to heart, right? Right. Well I’ve had an eventful night. I got home, went to the doctor’s office, came home again at 5 and started working on homework. Here I am at 1 AM just finishing up. Finishing up and harassing Phuc on aim. Yes, he’s on now too. No, I don’t know why. Usually he’s a lot more on top of things. But I’m still happy he’s on, because he’s fun to mess around with. He’s getting a bit mad at me now because I’m bothering him while he’s trying to work, but really, if he didn’t want to be disturbed he’d turn aim off or at least put up an away message. I look around my kitchen and the first thing I notice is how incredibly dark it is outside. I just heard a funny noise coming from the direction of my bedroom. Today at the doctor I saw Amanda’s mom and sister. They walked right by my without even noticing me until I went up and said “hi”. It was sort of funny. I’m really starting to hate doctor’s office visits because they’re 99% waiting and 1% actually seeing the doctor. Today I waited for about an hour only to see the doctor for about 2 minutes. He told me I was ok. I left. What a huge waste of time. Time I could have been writing my journal, or doing my other homework.

How about my German class? Its going alright, considering. Today we got back a worksheet on which we were supposed to draw a picture of our teacher and check some boxes that had adjectives next to them in German. They were supposed to describe our teacher. I chose the words “unfreundlich” and “gemein”. I don’t even know why. It was just for fun. I drew a picture of a mean yelling guy. I guess I’m just mad at the class in general; I like Frau Gogel, its not her. The problem is that I keep getting really bad grades and I feel like there’s nothing I can do to stop or change it. I barely understand anything we read in class, and then we’re sent home to do homework assignments based on what we read that I didn’t understand. It’s no fun at all. Sometimes she expects us to do the worksheets during class right after we’ve “gone over” them. That’s really bad. Also, she has us evaluate ourselves at the end of each day, giving ourselves 1-4 in participation and communication. This is another terrible part of the class; I have no idea what to give myself. I mean, I probably deserve about thirty of forty points every week, but that’s like, a C, so I’m sort of reluctant to give myself that. The first week I gave myself 30 points, and the second I gave myself 35 points. I might have deserved it but probably not. Silly, very silly, all of it is. I really miss German at my home school where we wouldn’t learn much but at least I’d be 100% sure of getting an “A”. No, no, grades are not more important than learning. At least most of the time they aren’t. In anything that I’m planning to use after I get out of school they are not, but I’m fairly sure I’m not going to be using much German after I graduate college, and even if I am, I’ll probably forget it all by then. With German now, I just want a good grade and a credit and I’d be fine.

We had our first Chemistry test today. I think I passed. Heh, I think I got an “A” pretty easily. The only thing that worries me is I think I might have slightly screwed up the concept map we were supposed to draw on our last problem. Maybe I didn’t; I’m not sure. Even if I did I’m pretty sure it won’t cost me my “A”.

I think I’m driving pretty soon in Drivers Ed! That will be a lot of fun.

It’s 1:37 now; I’m tired and thinking slowly and trying to collect my thoughts to keep writing. I hear a shrill piercing whistle in my ears. “Sleeeeeeeeeeep… sleeeep…” say the locusts outside in their insect language. Gosh, who would have thought bugs could be so smart. It’s my nappy time and I’m gonna go get my blankie and snuggle up with my lil’ bunny (that Amanda gave me, by the way) and go sleep-sleep.