He kept following me with his eyes, as i soaped him. Then i realized what he was so embarressed about, he has an erection. I surprised myself when i came down and soap right under his belly button and through the thin patch of hair. Then i crept down and lightly touched his erection with the soap. I put my hand under it and got suds on it, then i started to move my hand up and down to get the suds all over it. I heard him moan, then i realized i was jerking him off, i didn't even mean to be doing this! I stopped, and then washed his legs and everything else "down under". Last, i went up to his face. He smiled weakly at me, i could tell he was in pain. His erection was rageing, and wanting to explode. I wasn't going to jerk him off anymore, or have sex with him.
I kissed him on the lips and slid the soap on and around his nose, forehead, cheeks, chin. Then he stepped under the water, and rinsed off. He looked so handsome like that, i wanted to grab him and kiss him again. But we do need space, were in the shower.
"Thank you." He said as he turned to me.
"Anytime." I replied with a provocative tone in my voice.
He continuted and washed his long blonde/brown hair. I sat back and watched him, i love to watch him.
Shawn:
I dropped Diggins off by the studio, what i really wanted to do is keep her here, convince her to stay with me and leave Zac. I want her so much, i need her. Why does Zac need her, he could really litterly have anyone he wanted. Then theres me, who is searching for the one perfect for me, i found her...Diggins, and shes taken. She belongs to someone else, and can never see me the way i want her too.
Last night i wanted to tell her to stay, to tell her i need her, or i'm going to die. I feel like dieing now. I could just take those very expensive hits of acid and then die slowly as i think of Diggins. Then i could die thinking of her, and maybe she would come to my funeral. But i must live for the day that she will see me, through eyes stained by love.
Diggins:
"Okay don't be nervous you guys. We are going to ROCK this place!" Nat told us all as we shook in our boots. It was the short time before we go on stage, that seems like years. I hate the time! I hate it with heart.
"BOO!" I excalimed at Kim.
"AHHHH!"
"HAHA"
"darn"
"So were going by this play list right, right, RIGHT?" Kate kept nagging us.
"Yes." I answered. Out of all of us, Kate got the most nervous. Then once we got on stage, she was the leader and was great, her voice always steady, strong. She kind of amazed me like that. Well tecnically i am the leader, because i asked Nat if she wanted to start a band then came Kim and then Kate.
Zac leaned over and kissed me, "I know you'll be great."
I loved it when he held me close and kissed me like that. I know he knows how i feel, and i'm glad he's here with me. I wrapped my arms around him and breathed him in, and squeezed tight. We stood there in the midst of all the choas, and were in love. I love this businsness.
"Two minutes girls." The sound man told us.
"WAHHHHH!" Kate groaned.
"Dude, calm down. It's going to be fine. We are going to be fine." I said to her.
"okay." She squeeked.
We all sat breathless back stage, our guitars and crap with us and our amps. and other crap on stage. I broke away from Zac, and looked him in the eye. I have to remind the band that i wanna dedicate "Everything i do, i do it for you" to Zac. Of course it really isn't slow we turned it punk. It's the thought.
I rushed over and pulled evryone into a huddle, "remember I'm dedicating the song to Zac so let me say it Kate."
"Okay man, we have to go on now." Nat said.
We all went off into the unknown once again, and faced our crowd.
We have been playing for about forty minutes, this is like a real concert for us. But we have to get off in an hour. Two hours straight through, theres nothing like it.
The time had come to dedicate the song to Zac. I looked straight at him on the side of the stage. He was stareing at me. We ended the song we were currently playing.
"Everybody, i want to dedicate this song to some one very special," I started, and the crowd screamed, "this song is called 'Every thing i do, i do it for you' and i want to dedicate it to my boyfriend, Zac. I love you." I introduced the song that was specially for Zac. I know my wording made it sound corney and slushy, but i wanted to make him feel speical.
I looked at Zac as i played the notes that began the song and then started to sing, "Look into my eyes, and you will see, what you mean to me, search your heart, search your soul and when you find me there you'll search no more..."
He was smileing at me. I even got to sing it because it was my song to him. Kate jumped around and waveing her arms. She was jumping around in the crowd and dancing on stage in the fast parts. I was getting kind of pissed because she was ruining the moment of the song, but the crowd didn't mind so...i kept playing.
"You know it's true, everything i do, i do it for you...theres no love like your love, and no other could give more love, theres no where unless your there, all the time, all the way" then I broke into my solo.
I quickly looked around and glanced at Zac who had a faraway look, then i went into my own little world as i finished my solo.
"I'd fight for you, i'd die for you, walk the line for you, yeah i'd die for you. You know it's true everything i do, ohh, i do it for you." and the slow guitar picking ended the song and the crowd clapped and howled.
I sigh and looked at Zac, who was walking straight at me. The crowd busted out screaming. Zac caught me in a hug and then kissed me, i mean a real real real kiss...ON STAGE! He broke away and whipsered in my ear, "I love you too." then got back off stage.
I looked at Kim, my best friend, that was across stage from me. She smiled at me, like she was doing the childish "Na na na na na!" I laughed and Kate got on the microphone.
"Well what was that?" She asked the crowed.
Some of the guys in the crowd yelled, "Marry me Diggins" which i thought was funny, it's only our second gig. Who would want to marry me except Zac. I'm not too sure about him though.
"Well that was my hansome and not to mention buff boyfriend." I laughed.
"I've seen him before, though...but where." Kate was playing with my mind. I'm going to kill her if she says anything. It will ruin me.
I stepped away from the mic., "Look you say anything Kate i will stick my foot up your butt!"
"I won't say anything, i wouldn't tell that your boyfriend is ZAC HANSON!" I heard the crowd let out boo's. She was too close to the mic. CRAP! I'll kill her.
I looked over at Zac, he had a worried look on his face. He made a motion like, "what the freak is her problem?" I shrugged at him.
"And you point?" I said into the mic. Play it off.
The crowd soon dropped it and we got on with our show. I gave Kate evil looks the rest of the time.
When we went back stage i glared at her and felt the anger rise up.
"What the hell were you doing out there Kate?!" I demanded.
"Getting laughs." She gave me a smug look.
"You don't use your bandmates as material. Don't you ever make me feel ashamed of who i love! We were a band before you and we will be a band after you. Just keep that in mind next time you feel like 'getting laughs.'" I blowed up at her. Zac came up behind me putting his hands on my shoulds and gently massassgeing.
"Don't get all defensive. I didn't make you go fall for him. It was all you." She gave me that smug look, that i want to punch off her face.
"YOU SMUG BITCH!" I clenched my fist and hurtled it toward her face. It hit her in the right cheek.
It even surprised me, i have never hit anyone like that in my life. Zac then restrained me, while Kate held the apple of her cheek. Nat ran over and restrained Kate from hitting me in my restrained state. I would have kicked her ass, i was pumped up off adrenilin.
"I hope you know your boyfriends a FAGGG!" She yelled in vain.
"Stop taking your homosexuality desire out on me and Zac!" I can get quite defensive when something i love is being put on trial.
"You bitch!" She really reminded me of a prep when that one came out. She gave me that inmistakable prep look. I wanted to rip her face off.
"Takes one to know one. You PREP!" I yelled as Zac pulled me off to his car to calm down.
I heard her start to talk shit, i ignored it and tuned it out. We got in Zac's car, i was really pissed.
"Who the hell does she think she is?! SHE IS GONE, I WILL NOT PLAY IN A BAND WITH HER!" I yelled gibberish after that, i was really pissed.
"Dude, calm down. I know it was a jerky thing to do, but don't fight over me." He put his arm around me.
"No, she insulted me when she did that. You are a part of me Zac, and when she did that it was like she was dissing me too." I stared straight ahead, thinking of ways i could decapitate her.
Zacs arm squeezed me, and he kissed my cheek, "Try to talk to her?"
"Okay," I sigh, "I hope you know i'm helpless against you."
"i know"