All Over Again

Munky sat on the couch in KoRn's dressing room by himself, his left leg jiggling uncontrollably. He was nervous. Fucking nervous as Hell. How the fuck was he going to be able to do this? Stephanie was going to be here tonight. She was probably almost here, her car was probably minutes from the stadium. Soon she'll be here, she'll run into his arms, she'll kiss him over and over and he'll melt and fall in love with her all over again.

He exhaled a deep breath that he didn't even realize he'd been holding and ran a shaky hand through his thick dreadlocks. He licked his upper lip and tasted the thick sweat that coated it. Yep, he was nervous.

"Come on James... straighten yourself up... you gotta do this... you WANT to do this, remember?"

His little pep talk with himself did little to calm himself down and so, he lit a cigarette, hoping that would. He'd gone over in his head a thousand times what he was going to say to Stephanie, but it didn't help matters at all. It only made it more real to him.

Munky hadn't even told the other guys in the band, hadn't told anyone for that matter... No one knew what he was about to do, what he was about to say to Stephanie and that just made matters worse for him. Knowing he was suffering a near nervous breakdown alone.

Oh fuck, I don't know if I'm going to be able to do this...

"Hey Munk!" Came the voice of Caco from down the hall, snapping Munky back to reality. "Steph's here!"

Panic suddenly set in and Munky's heart thundered like a herd of horses... no, fuck the horses, more like elephants. A light sob escaped his lips as he realized how scared he was.

I'm not going to be able to do this... I'm not going to be able to do this...

But he loved her so much. No girl had ever caught him like Stephanie had.

Emotions he'd never before in his life felt over powered at the mere thought of her. Emotions, feelings that he wasn't used to, that scared him. She was so beautiful, so fucking beautiful... He fell in love with her all over again every time...

But still...

I'm not going to be able to do this... I'm not going to be able to do this...

"Hey baby!" Stephanie exclaimed as she entered the dressing room. She looked amazing. In form fitting jeans and that cream colored sweater he'd bought her for her birthday, she looked so fucking amazing. Like something sent straight from Heaven.

But still...

I'm not going to be able to do this... I'm not going to be able to do this...

She threw her arms around him in a loving hug and he hugged her back, falling in love with her all over again. He hugged her tightly, actually, too tightly. Almost needingly. She noticed right away.

"What's wrong, James?" she asked, still hugging him. She felt his body tense up and heard him sigh into her hair and she immediately pulled slightly away so she could look at him. He looked nervous.

"Baby? What's wrong?" she wanted to know, not liking his tense body language and how nervous he looked...

Oh God he loved her. When she'd hugged him, he'd fallen in love with her all over again. His knees had gone weak and his heart had melted.

But still...

I'm not going to be able to do this... I'm not going to be able to do this...

"James?" Her voice was now also nervous. He looked into her beautiful brown eyes, now filled with confusion.

I'm not going to be able to do this... I'm not going to be able to do this...

I HAVE to do this...

"Steph... baby, I have to tell you something..." Munky began.

Immediately, Stephanie noticed the severe nervousness in his wobbly voice and she instantly pulled away. Was he going to tell her that he'd cheated on her?

She held back a sob fighting its way up her throat, not wanting to believe it. She knew that it took strength to fight the urge deep within a horny man like James, with the never ending supply of pussy every night, but she'd wanted to believe it so badly that James wouldn't do that. She wanted so badly to believe that James loved her, that he loved her that much that he'd refuse it. She wanted to believe it so badly that she'd made herself blind and naive to what a man couldn't possibly resist; endless nights on a tour

being relieved by a one night stand and a cheap piece of ass.

Munky saw the fear in her eyes and his own eyes immediately filled with tears. "Steph, please, don't look at me like that... I love you Steph... I love you so much..."

Oh God, he HAS cheated on me... Stephanie thought. She closed her eyes as she prepared herself for the hurt.

"Baby, please, look at me..." Munky begged, his voice wobbly and filled with his tears.

She shook her head and remained in her darkness, not wanting to look at him when he confessed that he'd been unfaithful. When he hurt her.

But then, he cupped her chin with one hand and gently forced her head up to his. She opened her glistening eyes and her mouth dropped open as he held a ring before her. She looked into his tear filled eyes.

"Steph, I love you so much..." Munky confessed as tears cascaded down his beautiful, cinnamon colored face. "I love you so much... Will you let me love you forever, Steph? Will you let me marry you?"

Stephanie was speechless for a moment as tears slid down her cheeks. Then she let out a happy sob and threw her arms around him. "Yes, James, I will... I love you James, of course I will..."

And at that response, Munky broke down crying in gratitude and happiness and he fell in love with her all over again.

And that's it! I have done it again! Enjoy! Remember children: Munky is a GOD!