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Mantra

most days i feel like this

MY LIFE IS SHIT
I HATE MY LIFE
MY LIFE SUCKS

its a mantra

MY LIFE IS SHIT
I HATE MY LIFE
MY LIFE SUCKS

i could be smiling and having a good time
deep down inside i know

MY LIFE IS SHIT
I HATE MY LIFE
MY LIFE SUCKS

its a 50 pound weight of black steel placed on my chest heavy makes my
breathing funny
i cant breath
its blue yarn strung around my heart and liver around ventricles and organs
     its blood soaking into yarn and drying turning black a coarse yarn like
     raffia or hemp thick hemp rope tightening around organs soaked with
     blood
this is my muse
strangulation and suicide
this the side i hide
this is what it feels inside
i feel my heart pounding
it hurts
every time it beats on my chest
it's the stretch of muscle pounding on cavity walls
it's the stretch of muscle escaping
trying to escape
my heart would rather leave
it's the stretch of muscle expressing distaste rage
it's a mantra
boom... MY LIFE IS SHIT
boom... I HATE MY LIFE
boom... MY LIFE SUCKS

boom... MY LIFE IS SHIT
boom... I HATE MY LIFE
boom... MY LIFE SUCKS

boom... MY LIFE IS SHIT
boom... I HATE MY LIFE
boom... MY LIFE SUCKS

sometimes it's just little things
i forget to pay a bill-
-my phone is turned off
i try to pick up something- it keeps dropping
i touch something pretty and it cracks
murphy's law
everything that can go wrong
is already
-Shut-up Shelley

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