Title: The Curse of Immortality
By: Cheska-chan
Chapter 23 / Epilogue
E-Mail address: Minnashime@aol.com or NMakalinaw@aol.com
PG13

Disclaimer: *silence*
*wind blows*
No one wants to hear about any disclaimer! So why do I have say this?!
Gahh! It's my final chapter on these stories, you know! *glares hard*
*guns click* *gulp* Fine, fine! I'll talk, I'll talk!
*goes over a safe and starts fiddling with the combo and then it opens*
*takes out a piece of paper and faces the audience* Ahem!
I don't own Sailor Moon or Gundam Wing.
*puts the paper back in and sits down with a frown*
There. I said the disclaimer!

Author's Notes:
This will be partially a song fic! ^_^ Lyrics by 98 degrees. It's an old
CD one though. The song is called "If She Only Knew". I was looking at the
lyrics and thought that it would fit this chapter.
*sobs* My final chapter! And after this story, I won't
be writing for awhile. Not until next summer. Shame, isn't it? So any
possible sequals will be postponed till then. HINT: HINT!!
Now then, let's get this last and final chapter over with! *cracks knuckles
and begins typing*
{ } represents song lyrics, couldn't get italics to function for this thing.
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Heero was staring straight at the building where it ended. Where their
adventure stopped. Her last mission was in. Where he was about to say those
three words to her after all of it was done. The building where she died.
"Serena..."Heero whispered out that one word that he grew fond of.
{If she only knew}
{What I knew but couldn't say}
After everything that they've been through he hid away most of the things that
he couldn't let others see, especially his friends. But to her, she only got
glimpses of his other side but he guessed that it wasn't enough. Not enough to
let her know his true feelings for that girl.
{If she could just see}
{The part of me that I hid away}
Walking inside, it was now extra dark and barren. There were no inhabitants
within the building now. He walked over to the fourth floor and stood looking
at the cell where he held her. Held her while she cried out her anguished
feelings. Her true intentions over life; her life. Recalling past memories that
left her so sad and miserable. During that time, he felt like he should tell her
what he felt for her, but couldn't. Instead he stopped himself and let it be.
{If I could just hold her in my arms again}
{And just say I love you}
If only, if only he just said it to her right then and there. Then maybe, maybe
she wouldn't have done what she did and died. She would live and stay with him,
be with him and both of them could be finally happy.
{But she's gone away, maybe she'd stay}
{If she only knew}

Walking back outside he stared up at her Gundam, Arethusa, and attached it
to a carrier and told the hired men to carry it inside. In that short amount
of time that he knew Serena, he felt so many emotions that he didn't know he
was capable of. She opened him up, he conversed with her and she with him.
He, Heero Yuy, fell in love with Serena. The sixth Gundam Pilot.
*sigh*
Now that he thought about it...
"I never even got to know all there was to know about you...who your parents
were. Or if you even had any siblings at all..."Heero murmered to himself
as he got inside the plane and started it up.
Looking back one last time he took off into the air. As he stared
at the building, he felt an ache within his heart and he softened his
eyes as he thought about her.
(Serena, if you could..)Heero began but shook his head at the thought.
He shouldn't be saying those words, even if he was thinking about it.
(She's gone Yuy and it's too late for that. You didn't know she would
be going away. You didn't know her past or what her intentions were for
the future. Face it, you didn't even know her that well. Just a man who
didn't know or understand her, except for certain areas. Not enough
to make her stay...not enough to have her live.)his inner voice spoke up.

{If she could just feel}
{What I feel here in my heart}
{She'd know it was real}
{Pure and true right from the start}
{But I'm just a man who didn't understand}
{What she was going through}
{But she's gone away, maybe she'd stay
{If she only knew}

Making his way towards a snowy field in the Sanq Kingdom, he stopped
at the cliff. His eyes travelled along the snowy landscape. After their
mission everything just seemed to have gotten much slower and harder to
bare than before. Duo was more solemn and so were the others. The woman
named Pluto or Dr. M gathered them up inside Serena's old room and explained
the whole story to them but left a few things out. He guessed that it was too
important to tell and he and the others respected that.
From what he has heard about. Dr. M retreated from society and chose to
become the Guardian of Time once more and took up her spot watching over the
Time Gates for almost a full 24hrs. Hotaru and Duo were still together from
what he has noticed and still attends the Academy. Trowa went away, back to
the Colonies in outerspace and join up the circus and be with his sister. And
Wufei, well...he wasn't quite sure where he went to and didn't feel like tracking
him down. That was all that he knew about the others.
Aside from that, he now knows about her past and about her..'curse' as she put it.
This made it more understandable about her attitude towards things and her want of
death but still...still he shouldn't have let her die.

Chorus: {And how, how did I let her get away}
{'Cause love, love is so easy to feel}
{But the hardest thing to say}

Standing there, a gust of wind blew by and ruffled his unruly hair. He
closed his eyes and breathed in the cold, cool fresh air. Inside his eyes,
he saw past memories of her. The first time he met her to the time he
last saw her. Determination amongst that angelic face of hers. Her golden
hair and her crystalline blue eyes.
If it didn't end up the way it did, he would've imagined that their ending
would've gone more smoothly. He'd tell her his true feelings and then Heero
imagines himself and her receiving a happy ending.

{If she could just see}
{What I see when I close my eyes}
{All that I dream}
{Surely she would realize}

Shaking his head, he opened his prussian blue eyes and gazed solemnly towards
the Sanq Kingdom in the distance.
He recalled what Pluto told them. She trained her for many years and in the
end she became much colder towards humanity because of her loss. Ever since the
death of her beloved and most of her friends, she just seemed to have loss
a piece of herself and wouldn't recover.
After all that Serena has done as Sailor Moon and Neo-Queen Serenity, it ends
that way for her. To see death and feel the pain of the hardships that has
been weighed upon in her life.
"It must've been difficult for you, hasn't it?"Heero murmered to her, spiritually.
Only the howl of the wind was the response.
*Flashback*
"It's just that...the memories were too much for me to handle,"Serena bowed
her head in shame.
*End of Flashback*
(The look you gave me when you said those words...you were ashamed of
it and at the same time sad and in pain. Yes, it has been hard. You even
told me so yourself. You opened up to me when I hardly did so to
you...)Heero said to himself.

{But like a fool I waited much too long}
{To let her know the truth}

(I wonder...is it possible to love more than once? To find another
true love? You did love that Darien of yours, didn't you? After all..
you've stayed with that guy for so many centuries.)Heero wondered.

{She's gone away, maybe she'd stay}
{If she only knew}

"If it is possible or not, either way. I'll still love you. But
it's too late to find out if you would be able to feel the same
way for me..."Heero murmered to the chilly air.

{Tell me, tell me how}
{How did I let her get away (Tell me)}
{Cause I guess that love}
{Love is so easy to feel}
{But the hardest thing to say}

*Flashback*
"You're right. I do have a long life...one filled with so much pain and
sorrow. I've lived too long, Heero. Watched my parents die, my friends
live their life and pass away, seen those who I love die...too many deaths
for my liking..."Serena murmered, her eyes shining with unshed tears
and her voice filled with pain that would etch away your heart.
*End of Flashback*
"I was such a fool. To think that a person such as yourself would ever
be capable of feeling the same way towards me. You had to deal with so
much pain and suffering, that you wanted to finally be at rest. You've
watched your love die. And Hotaru said that you still care about him
and was tolerating the pain of your loss. You have experienced a lot,
haven't you?"Heero muttered, his eyes softening.
"I wonder...what would happen if you were here right now and heard
these words spoken from my mouth. It's something that others would
be shocked about..."Heero bent his head down at the thought.

{If she only knew}
{What I knew but could not say}
{If she could just see}
{The part of me that I hid away}

"Heero..."a calm voice called out from in back of him.
The wind chose to howl loudly at the time the voice spoke and for a
mere second Heero thought that his imagination was playing tricks with him.
Making him believe that it was Serena who came back and was calling his name
at that time. His eyes slightly widened and then lowered, he chose to turn
around to address the voice when his heart pained once more. For a mere second,
that mere second he truly believed that she was back. Made him hope but he was
wrong. Completely wrong and so his heart hardened a ten-fold.
"Heero. What are you doing out here? The blizzard will come soon, come
with me. We should go inside, where it's safe and warm,"Relena coaxed him, holding
out her hand towards him.
Her eyes lighted up with compassion towards him. Showing him that she cared
for Heero Yuy.
Heero shook his head at the offer and started to walk away from her.
"Heero, why? Where are you going?"Relena asked.
"Somewhere Relena. Just somewhere,"Heero said in his usual monotone.
(I love you Heero. Don't you know that? If only..if only I could just
hold you once again. Like that time, so long ago...)Relena wished, her eyes
growing misty.
*Flashback*
Heero fell and Relena held him in her arms.
"It's over Heero. It's finally over.."Relena said to him, soothingly.
*End of Flashback*
(((AN: *gack* I can't believe I wrote that part down. It made me want
to gag! Stay away from Heero, Relena!! Stay away!! *holds a gun towards
her*)))
The young pacifist watched the one she loves walk away from her once more. True,
she did want to follow him to wherever he went but ever since the death of
that girl named Serena or Usagi, the pilots including Heero seemed to have
felt a loss stir within them. And now she decided to respect his privacy
for awhile. To let them be alone because it may be just what they-he needed.
"I hope you'll be alright, Heero.."Relena murmered and the wind picked up
and ruffled her hair to the side.

{If I could just hold her in my arms again}
{And just say I love you}
Heero made way through the pile of snow and walked toward
an old base in a secluded area. Pluto left a small hint toward where
Serena was in her earlier days of this lifetime. After a lot of researching
he found it and was now inside the base where she trained under Dr. M's care.
The place was dusty and damp. With a lot of poking around he found her
room. It was plain and simple with a mattress and an old desk. Stepping out,
he just continued to look around and finally went outside.
*Flashback*
Sitting on the rooftop of the Sanq Academy staring out towards the
rest of the kingdom.
Seeing her dead body inside a room. Blood all around.
Her pale, cold face. Her eyes closed and seemed to be asleep when not.
Recognizing Serena as she came out of the Gundam Arethusa for the first time
since her death. Knowing that she was alive again.
Hugging the sobbing girl in his arms inside the cold cell.
Watching her run towards Makura and pushing her inside the
dangerous machine.
Noticing a single teardrop left of her existance within the machine.
Nothing else was left.
*End of Flashback*
The young boy, brushed his hair back and gazed at the sky. It was a bit
cloudy with a white background, no hint of blue whatsoever. Right there
and then, he pictured her. Her crystalline blue eyes staring down at him with
a genuinine smile on her face that would brighten up any day or night. Her golden
hair in its original style...a small smile lit upon his face and then he shook
his head.
"She won't come back..."Heero finally stated and took out something from his
pocket.
Bending down, he knelt on the snow right in front of the base. Right at the
entrance, he put down a single white rose with a piece of silky white string
attached to it. He stared at flower for a few seconds and then stood up.
"Rest in peace, Serena Tsukino. May you finally rest in peace,"Heero murmered
towards the rose lying on the snowy ground.
(Be happy. Wherever you are. I'll continue to live. Maybe, someday
we'll be together and I'll finally be able to say what I should've said to
you so long ago.)Heero noted as he turned away from the base and walked away with
his hands in his black leather jacket that billowed in back of him.
The rose sat there in the freezing snow. When a harsh wind started up, the
petals fell off one by one and drifted away into the sky. Away from the
lonely, secluded area to journey off somewhere else.
{She's gone away, maybe she'd stay}
{If she only knew, if she only knew}
Relena waited outside the double doors of the Academy. When she finally
spotted Heero, she wore a small smile upon her face. Heero noticed the
girl and didn't smile back but just stared at her. Not out of saddness or
of hatred, but just with an emotionless void.
(Serena...)Heero said inside his mind as he drew closer to the Academy.
"Heero,"Relena addressed him and met up with the soldier half-way.
Heero nodded to her and together they entered the building.
(I'll wait for you, no matter how long it takes.)Heero vowed.
With that vow, he retreated back to his original, Perfect Soldier form.
(We'll be together again.)Heero stated inside his mind.
And then, the snowflakes fell from the sky and soon there was a heavy snowfall
that came down on the Sanq Kingdom.

The End...
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For of all sad words of tongue or pen,
The saddest are these: "It might have been."
-Whittier, Maud Muller

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Okay, I officially declare this the most SUCKIEST ending from all that I've
written so far. I tried fitting everything in at once but it didn't appear to have
molded into a perfect ending that I'd read. But, that's what I have and so I'll
post it. If you're looking for a SEQUAL, well like I said earlier up there *points
upwards* it won't be out for awhile because I'm postponing any possible sequals
till a long vacation time. Meaning a possible winter vacation but most
definately a summer vacation time. And you all know that it won't be for a LONG
time yet.
Aya! I know, it's the actual first time I do this to you readers. Making
the main character die off and leave poor Heero alone without anyone...well he
sorta has Relena but *blows a raspberry at Relena-baka* she doesn't count.
Ano...gomen nasai. I felt like writing one of those kill-off-main character
type of fics. -_-;; sad excuse, isn't it. But hey! There's a possible
sequal, ya know? First time I'll write a crossover sequal. ^_^;;
And boy, warning you right now though. It'll be a massive messed up
multi-crossover type of thing. Because I've been watching several shows and
I've been picturing my main char in each of them and stuff.
Now then, got to go!
*dashes off from any angry reviewers at the way the ending went*
Cheska: Ayaa!! Gomen! Gomen!
*shooting bullets pass by and lightning bolts rain down*
Cheska: Yipes!!
*continues running*