AUTHOR’S NOTE: I am an idiot. The idea of Janai being a Skateboard Champion belongs to Shinigami’s Rapture. The idea was based on a Jai/Quatre ficlet that she wrote. Sorry bud for not mentioning it earlier. ^_^
On to chapter 2
ANOTHER MAN’S WIFE
THE BREAKDOWN OF A PERFECT SOLDIER
BY ORACLE AT DELPHI
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He pushed deeper into her reveling in her warmth and wetness. He loved to be with her. He loved making love to her. He in general loved her but he couldn’t bring himself to tell her, so he kept his love for her his little secret. Yes she had told him before but to tell her was a different story. She cried out his name pulling him from his thoughts. He closed his eyes as he neared his own release but feeling her tighten around him sent him over the edge causing him to spill his seed into her. He then lay gently on top of her nuzzling his head into her neck kissing her gently. Suddenly he jumped up, "Damn it Kellee I did it again."
"What is it Trowa?" She asked then thought about it, "Oops, Oh well you can’t get pregnant twice."
Trowa rolled over and looked up at the ceiling his eyes trying to hide the disbelief, ‘No she didn’t just say what I think she did, did she?’
"Trowa? Are you Ok?" Kellee asked grinning.
Trowa continued to stare into space blinking in a daze.
"Trowa" Kellee said laughing as she sat up in the bed and started shaking him by his shoulders.
"I said you’re going to be a father."
Trowa looked at Kellee with a vacant expression in his eyes. There was no joy, happiness or excitement. Kellee’s smile vanished.
"Trowa? What’s wrong? Aren’t you happy?"
"How did this happen? I was so careful." He said bewildered.
Kellee put her hands on her hips, "What the hell do you mean, "I was so careful". I can name quite a few times when you weren’t "so careful" Trowa Barton. For that matter we can start with tonight if you want to start counting back. I guess that’s "how it happened" ", she stated sarcastically.
Trowa looked accusingly at her, "You tricked me!"
"Tricked you? Trowa have you gone daft? When have I ever tricked you into getting into bed with me or making sure you invite me into yours? I’ve heard of men being caught off guard when they find out that they’re going to be a father but damn it Trowa this is ridiculous." Kellee spat.
Trowa jumped up from the bed, "Well damn it I made a mistake! I never meant to get you pregnant." He raged.
Kellee stared at him, her heart breaking, "I’m sorry." She half whispered already knowing that it was too late. She thought he loved her but he was only using her and it was very obvious that she was on her own.
Trowa grabbed his clothes and hastily dressed, "I’m not ready to be a father." He groaned. His mind was swimming with thoughts, how could he be so stupid, he knew what protection was why didn’t he use it. He was a gundam pilot they never mess up.
He stormed over to the door and slammed it on his way out. Kellee slowly got up from the bed and put on her robe.
"Well Trowa Barton, you don’t have to worry. This is one mistake you won’t have to live with."
~*~*~
Quatre took off his sweat, drenched shirt and tossed it on the back of a nearby chair. Visions of the one night he shared with Jai haunted his dreams as well as the guilt associated with it. He found it hard to look Duo in the eye’s knowing that he betrayed the trust between them. He was ashamed that he had slept with his best friends wife and continued to dream of her every night. His conscience hated him for giving in to the sweet temptation named Janai Maxwell but his heart could no longer deny it.
As much as it hurt him, he must cut all ties to Jai. He didn’t like hurting or deceiving Duo and to be honest with himself, he could not guarantee it wouldn’t happen again. He was in too deep and if he didn’t leave soon, he’d never be able to dig himself out. Even though Jai and Duo’s marriage was already in shambles before he slept with her, Quatre felt like a home wrecker and he hated it.
Quatre walked over to the closet, grabbed his suitcase and flung it on the bed. He began to hastily pack his clothes. As he began to pack there was a knock on his door.
‘Please don’t let this be Jai or Duo.’
"Come in." Quatre said not looking up.
He looked up briefly to see Duo standing in his doorway, ‘Shit’.
"Sorry to bother ya, Quatre but I noticed that your light was on. Leavin’ so soon." Duo asked as he entered the room noticing Quatre was packing in a hurry.
"Yeah." Quatre answered as he walked back to his closet.
"In the middle of the night?"
"Yeah." Quatre replied as he tossed his pants into the suitcase.
"Why?"
"Duo, what the hell do you want?" Quatre snapped.
"Damn you’re cranky. Ya know what you need Quatre…to get laid."
Quatre stopped and looked at Duo over his shoulder, "Duo, why are you here?" he asked through clenched teeth.
"I came to see if ya’ve seen Jai? I figured she may have come to talk to ya."
Quatre resumed stuffing his clothes in his suitcase, "Duo, you’re spending an awful lot of time looking for your wife lately."
Duo crossed his arms, "What the hell is that suppose to mean?"
Quatre was returning from the closet with the last of his clothes and stopped to look at Duo, "What the hell did you do this time. Get her confused with Hilde while making love to her…AGAIN." He stated angrily causing Duo’s eyes to narrow.
Quatre turned his back to Duo and threw his remaining shirts into the suitcase. Duo uncrossed arms and stared at Quatre’s back wondering how he knew such intimate details of his marriage. He titled his head to the side as he noticed long scratches on Quatre’s back. He knew for a fact Quatre wasn’t seeing anyone, he didn’t sleep with prostitutes and the only women he’d been around were Kellee and Jai.
Duo closed his eyes, "Quatre…why?" he asked as he bawled his fists.
Quatre stopped trying to close his suitcase. He knew what Duo was talking about.
"Duo…" Quatre began as he turned to face the man.
"Quatre. Don’t tell me how sorry you are. Don’t tell me it should have never happened. Don’t even tell me it won’t happen again. Just tell me…WHY YOU SLEPT WITH MY WIFE!" Duo yelled.
"BECAUSE I LOVE HER!"
The two men stared at each other.
"JAI IS MY WIFE! NOT YOURS!" Duo stated moving toward Quatre with fire in the amethyst eyes that were glowing.
"SHE SHOULD BE MY WIFE!"
Duo’s eyes grew large with Quatre’s bold statement and before Quatre knew it Duo punched him knocking him to the floor.
"I deserved that Duo but you deserve one as well for doing the things you have done to her."
Hearing Quatre fall onto the floor brought the pilots out of hiding. Trowa was the first to arrive. Duo would swing at Quatre who would dodge his punches. He may have slept with his wife but fighting him he could not do. Duo hit him in groin, which proved to only piss Quatre off and make him retaliate by punching Duo back trying to get him away from him. Heero, Wufei, and Jase arrived and tried to help as Trowa jumped in trying to get Duo to stop but it only caused Trowa to get punched in the mean time. He pushed Duo into Heero and Jase who grabbed him.
"Ya guys better watch out for Quatre, he loves to fuck other men’s wives!"
"Not every man’s wife Duo, just yours."
Sally, Catherine, Relena and Hilde looked at each other shocked. They turned and stared at the two men. Hilde’s shock turned to anger and she slipped out unnoticed. Quatre and Duo continued to exchange angry words.
"At least when I made love to her, I made love to HER. I didn’t pretend she was someone else. Can you say the same?"
Duo broke free of Heero’s and Jase’s hold and grabbed Quatre by the throat.
~*~*~
Dressed in a black tank top with black jeans, Jai put her hair up in a high ponytail. She needed to get away and she was taking only the essentials. She put her wallet in her front jean pocket and her gun in the lower part of her back. She gently folded the picture Lil’ Lena drew for her and placed it in her back pocket. Slinging her denim jacket over her shoulders she opened the door. As soon as Jai opened the door, Hilde’s hand connected with Jai’s face with a loud smacking sound.
"You bitch! How dare you betray Duo! And with his best friend! Sleeping with Quatre only proves that not only are you a bitch but a whore too! You don’t deserve to be married to Duo!"
Jai blankly stared at the raven-haired woman. Then something in Jai’s psyche snapped. The perfect soldier façade she hid her feelings behind, her emotional shield of armor crumbled. All of the pain and hurt that tormented her soul came to the forefront. Jai let out a primal scream and unleashed all of her fury on her unknown nemesis.
~*~*~
Heero and Jase were trying to pry Duo off of Quatre when they heard the most god-awful scream. Duo and Quatre immediately stopped fighting. All of a sudden they heard crashing noises coming form the hallway. Sally, Catherine and Relena were the first to enter the hallway and see Hilde slam Jai into the wall and Jai slam Hilde into the opposite wall.
"I WAS NEVER MARRIED TO DUO! YOU WERE!" Jai yelled as she slammed Hilde into the wall.
"ARE YOU NUTS?" Hilde shouted back as she slammed Jai into the opposite wall.
"HAVING YOUR HUSBAND CALL YOU HILDE EVERYTIME HE MAKES LOVE TO YOU IS ENOUGH TO DRIVE ANY WIFE NUTS!" Jai yelled slamming Hilde into another wall.
"WHAT!" Hilde yelled slamming Jai into another wall.
"YOU’RE RIGHT HILDE. I AM A WHORE. BUT NOT QUATRE’S WHORE…DUO’S WHORE!"
"LOOK OUT!" Relena yelled.
Jai and Hilde didn’t notice that they were at the top of the stairs. They both missed the top step and went tumbling down the stairs. Everyone ran down the stairs after them. Jai recovered first and proceeded to bang Hilde’s head against the floor.
"HILDE WAS IN MY KITCHEN! HILDE WAS IN MY LIVING ROOM! HILDE WAS EVEN IN MY BEDROOM! EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE IT WAS HILDE…HILDE…HILDE!"
Heero and Trowa pulled Jai kicking and screaming off Hilde. Wufei and Jase helped Hilde up from the floor.
Jai glared at Hilde, "You think you know all about me don’t you? Don’t you! You think I’m a bitch and a whore. Well you ain’t heard shit yet."
Jai broke free of Heero and Trowa, tackled Hilde causing Wufei and Jase to fall. The four of them slide across the floor and into the living room. Jai quickly got up and leveled her gun at Hilde’s head. Hilde moved just in time to feel the breeze and heat of the bullet as it whizzed by her ear.
"You know Hilde, shooting you would be a whole lot easier if you stop moving!" Jai yelled as she took aim and pulled the trigger once again.
Duo grabbed Jai’s arm just in time and the bullet went wide missing Hilde.
"What the hell are you doing? You could have killed her!" Duo shouted as he tired to wrestle the gun from Jai.
Jai elbowed him in his ribs and broke free of his grasp. Duo looked at his wife. She had a crazy look in her eyes that he’d never seen before. She looked like she was completely insane.
Jai let out a maniacal laugh, "Yeah. Right. God forbid that something should happen to your precious little Hilde. But you know Duo you have a good point. Why should I waste a valuable bullet by putting it in Hilde’s brain when it would serve a much better purpose imbedded in mine."
Jai put the gun to her head and pulled the trigger as screams echoed around the room.
The priceless Japanese vase shattered into a million pieces. Jai hung her head while Heero stood behind her with the gun in his hand. Everyone looked at the pair wide eyed. For the first time since he was a kid Duo was scared but his fear quickly turned to anger.
"What the hell…why did you just try to kill yourself!" Duo shouted as he took a step towards her.
Jai broke away from Heero grip and stood in front of her husband, "Tell me Duo, what reason do I have to keep living? What the fuck do I have to live for? I don’t have a husband anymore but to be completely honest I never had one. My marriage and my baby are both dead. So why should I keep living? I would have saved myself and everyone else a lot of grief if I had just used the gun the first time I tried to kill myself. It would have been messy but at least it would have gotten the job done."
Duo didn’t hear anything after the word "baby". He stood there in a daze. Then he felt his heart fall into his stomach when he remembered the word "dead". Duo began to breath deeply the revelation that his wife was pregnant knocked the wind out of him.
"Babe, I…I didn’t know...when?" Duo asked bewildered.
Jai shook her head, raised her hand and smacked Duo as hard as she could.
"Duo, you’re the only man I know that can sleep next to a four month pregnant woman and not know it. I bet if I were Hilde you would have noticed. As if it makes a difference now, I was pregnant about a year and a half ago. Not long after I figured out that my husband was in love with another woman." She replied looking Duo directly in his eyes.
Duo flinched under her scrutiny. The pain in her eyes combined with the knowledge that she knew of the secret he tried so hard to hide from her tore at his very soul.
"Being the sore loser that I am I decided I was going to win my husbands love back. In order to do that I would have to give him something he has always wanted…a family to call his own. But in all of my infinite wisdom, I failed to realize at the time that I never had his love in the first place."
"That’s not true. I have always loved you and I still love you." Duo replied defiantly.
"How dare you look me dead in my face and lie to me after all that I now know?" Jai seethed though her teeth.
"You don’t know as much as you think you do." Duo seethed back.
Jai titled her head to the side, "I know this, you are not IN LOVE with me and we both…no I take that back…we ALL know that to be a fact."
"Jai what happened to the baby?" Heero asked from behind her.
"I lost the baby in the stadium explosion. I was following Duo and Hilde to see if they were actually going to patrol a stadium full of dignitaries or going elsewhere. I was on the east side of the stadium when the bomb when off. The last I saw was debris flying everywhere and everything went black." She replied looking at Heero over her shoulder.
Turning back to Duo, "So while you were on one side of the hospital nursing Hilde’s poor little broken ankle I was on the other losing our child." Jai spat.
Duo squeezed his eyes shut to will back the tears that threaten to fall. The pain he felt was over whelming. First finding out that his child died but knowing that she went through that all by herself was almost too much to take. Suddenly Duo opened his eyes anger flashing in them. He stalked over to his brother. Duo saw the guilt in Jase’s eyes as they stared at each other. Duo balled his fist and punched Jase in his stomach and he double over falling to his knees.
"You bastard! You were there that night! How come you didn’t tell me my wife was there? I know you knew!" Duo shouted at Jase.
Still holding his stomach, Jase looked up at his reflection, "Duo…I…"
"Don’t get made at Jase. I told him not to tell you. Since you didn’t bother to notice in the first place, why tell you? Besides I left the hospital, beat you home and you never knew anything was amiss. What amazes me is how you can notice little things about Hilde like her hair growing two inches but not notice that your own WIFE was PREGNANT!"
Jai shrugged her shoulders, "Go fig."
"Jai. What did you mean when you said, "if I had just used the gun the first time I tried to kill myself." When did you try to kill yourself?" Catherine asked as she knelt next to Jase draping her arm around him.
"I was wondering about that myself." Heero said with anger laced in his usual monotone voice.
Relena could feel the belaying anger coming from her husband and slowly made her way over towards him. He may not show it but Heero held a few people close to his heart and his sister was one of those people. He would do anything and everything to protect her even if it’s from herself.
Jai walked over to the window and stared out of it, "You know…I was raised to be a perfect warrior, a perfect fighter…a perfect soldier. A perfect soldier raised by the creed that to live a good life one must live by their emotions. The concept being that a perfect soldier is in control of everything around them including their emotions. But what happens when a perfect soldier loses control over everything around them including their emotions. Do you know what it’s called? I do. It’s called the breakdown of a perfect soldier. A soldier breaks down when they lose faith in others…in life…in themselves. When a soldier loses faith, they lose the will to fight…to live."
Jai turned from the window and looked at everyone in the room, "I no longer have the will to fight. I no longer have the will to live. These past few months I feel like the walking dead…alive but not living."
"When?" Duo commanded.
"When I was with Kellee a few months ago, I wasn’t really on vacation. I was locked away in that damn desert fortress drying out. And let me tell you that is no easy feat." Jai stated.
"Drying out?" Heero said as he took a step closer to his sister.
"The reason Quatre ordered me the Virgin Strawberry Daiquiri is because I am a recovering alcoholic. I’m not allowed to have any alcohol period." Jai replied looking away from Heero.
Everyone gasped in surprise. Duo looked at Jai with wide eyes.
"What the hell do you mean?" Heero said in an angry monotone voice.
Jai turned her back to Heero, "Well losing the baby and knowing that I lost my husband, I became depressed. So" she said taking a deep breath "I threw my self into my competitions, staying on the road all the time. I couldn’t sleep at night so I started taking sleeping pills so I could get to sleep at night. Well I did get to sleep at night but I started having nightmares of the baby dying. So then I turned to alcohol to dull the pain."
Jai turned to look at Heero, "As time when on the sleeping pills stopped putting me to sleep and the alcohol stopped numbing the pain. So I started taking them bother together."
Jai looked down at the floor unable to face Duo or Heero, "One day I decided that I would set Duo free so he could be Hilde and free myself from my emotional turmoil in just one blow. So I took all of the sleeping pills and drank all the alcohol I could until I passed out."
Duo felt as though he’d been kicked in the gut for the second time that night. How could he have missed what was happening to her? He should have noticed something was wrong with her. She was his wife after all how could he not see her suffering.
Heero stared at Duo furious his fists clenching and unclenching. Duo promised to take care of one of the most precious people to him. He looked at the woman that stood before him. She was no longer the strong, determined woman he handed over to Duo’s care three years prior. This woman was a mere shell of the person that she once was. This woman looked like his sister, talked like his sister but this woman had no spirit, no soul. What many years of training, wasn’t able to accomplish, Duo managed to do in mere months. By breaking her heart, he destroyed her spirit, her soul.
Jai looked at the ceiling avoiding the gazes of everyone in the room as she continued, "Unfortunately for me I picked the wrong colony to commit suicide on. I was at the Xgames Qualifying rounds, which were being held on L4. When I didn’t show up Kellee, Trowa and Quatre came looking for me and when they did I was already dead. But they worked together and brought me back. When I finally woke up I was surrounded by desert sand."
"You knew!" Duo shouted accusingly at Quatre and Trowa.
Heero glared at the two men, "Why didn’t you tell me?"
"Well I know why Quatre didn’t tell me but Trowa what about you?"
Quatre glared at Duo, "Actually I didn’t tell you cause she didn’t want me to tell you or Heero. You know Duo this is all your fault!"
"This is all your fault! You’re the one that slept with her!" Duo shouted.
"You’re the one that rejected her by pretending she was someone else!" Quatre shouted back.
"Shut up!" Jai screamed startling everyone in the room.
Jai was visibly trembling. Duo took a step towards his wife.
"Don’t touch me, Duo!" she shouted.
She took a few deep breaths attempting to calm down.
"While I was drying out the nightmares came back. Quatre was always there when I started screaming. I would beg him to give me sleeping pills, alcohol anything to help get rid of the nightmares and pain. And do you know what he said to me. He said the only thing I can offer you is a sympathic ear."
Jai snorted, "I thought that was the craziest shit to say to an alcoholic."
"Anyway" she continued "I searched every inch of that damn place and I never found one single solitary pill or drop of alcohol. Every time he tried to get me to open up, I pushed him away. That same routine continued for about 3 weeks until one night I snapped and tried to stab Quatre with a steak knife. When I realized what I did, for the first time in years, I broke down and cried. I told him everything right then and there at the dining room table. So you should thank him instead of blaming him. It’s because of him that I’m still here."
"Thank him! Thank him! I should make sure he’s the last Winner heir!" Duo snapped as he glared at Quatre.
"Tell me this Jai, do you love him?" Duo asked as he stepped towards his wife.
Jai looked away from Duo only to end up looking at Quatre.
"Damn it! Answer me!" Duo shouted as he shook her by her shoulders.
"Yes! I love him and I love you, too!" she replied looking into Duo’s eyes.
Her words made Duo flinch. Duo closed his eyes and reopened them.
"Is that why you slept with him?" Duo asked.
"Yes" she quietly replied.
Duo didn’t hide the pain that he felt from her. He felt betrayed and disillusioned. Duo let go of her shoulders and backed away from her.
Jai took a step forward, "Duo, you have no idea how hurt and betrayed I feel."
Duo’s eye narrowed in anger, "You feel hurt and betrayed! I have never, ever slept with another woman since I laid eyes on you! But you, you go fall in love and sleep with someone I considered my best friend!"
Duo turned towards Quatre, "I trusted you and you have broken that trust. I will never, ever forgive you, Quatre." He vehemently said.
"Well you know what Duo at least he didn’t pretend I was Hilde when he held me in his arms. He didn’t pretend I was Hilde when he kissed me. He didn’t pretend I was Hilde when he made love to me. I bet you can’t even remember the last time you actually made love to me. Can you Duo? I bet you don’t even know how many times you called her name while making love to my body because you sure enough wasn’t loving me." Jai said as she got directly in Duo’s face.
Duo and Jai entered into a staring match.
"Do you want to know how many times you called me Hilde in the throws of passion? Huh? 17 times. 18 when you include tonight. You could have saved me a lot of grief if you would have just slept with Hilde to begin with. At least I’d still have my pride and my dignity. You striped me of all my self-worth until I was nothing but your worthless, inadequate whore. You were using my body and replacing my face with hers. I was nothing but a damn Hilde stand in because you were too damn scared to admit the truth and I was too damn stupid to let you go."
"Wait a minute? How in the hell…When did I…What in the hell is going on?" Hilde said speaking for the first time since Jai tried to shoot her.
Jai looked at Hilde incredulously, "Don’t even tell me you don’t know? Everyone in this room knew since day one and you don’t know? I find that hard to believe."
Hilde continued to look bewildered.
"Tell me something Hilde. Why did you let Duo and I get married?"
"What?"
"When the preacher said, "Does anyone object to this union" why didn’t you say anything? Hell, why didn’t any of you say anything?" Jai said as she looked into all the faces in the room.
"You all knew! And nobody bothered to tell me! You all let me walk down that isle knowing full well that it should have been Hilde in that dress not me!"
"Jai you’re not making any sense." Hilde said.
"Yes I am. I’m making perfect sense. You just think that I don’t know how you feel but I do. I know that you have always been in love with Duo and so does everyone else."
Hilde looked at Jai wide-eyed and for the first time she realized why Jai was so cold towards her. When Duo first met Jai she thought that Jai was just another notch in his bedpost. But Duo began to get really serious about Jai and when he asked Jai to marry him her heart broke into a million different pieces that has yet to mend. She tried so hard to be happy for Duo even going as far as being a bridesmaid in the wedding. When she saw Duo and Jai standing at the alter, pledging their love to one another, what other people thought were tears of joy were actually tears of despair. How could he after all the years they knew each other love another woman? How could he not know that he was more than "a best friend" to her?
Jai smiled sadly, "Do you know that while Heero and I were standing at the entrance door waiting to walk down the isle and he turn to me and said, "Its not too late if you don’t want to go through with this." I always wondered why he never wanted me to date and even marry Duo but now I know why."
"Duo why don’t you tell Hilde your little secret?" Jai said as she looked at Duo.
Hilde looked from Jai to Duo. Duo said nothing and continued to stare at Jai.
"Duo. Tell her." Jai said.
Duo reached out and pulled Jai into his arms, crushing her to him.
"I’m so sorry babe, I’m so so sorry." Duo said as he buried his face in her shoulder.
"Duo. Tell her." Jai said.
Duo said nothing and just held on to Jai tighter.
"Duo! Tell her!"
Duo lifted his head from her shoulder and looked into Hilde’s cornflower eyes.
"Hilde, I am in love with you."
Hilde’s jaw dropped as tears ran down her face. Jai closed her eyes and let the tears fall.
Jai smiled sadly, "You see Hilde. I told you so. The ugly thing about it is everyone in this room knew that Duo was marrying the wrong woman except me."
Duo and Hilde starred at each other. Jai removed her wedding ring. She extracted her self from Duo and walked up to Hilde.
She placed the ring in Hilde’s hand, "This belongs to you." She said as she closed her fingers around it.
"It should have never been mine." She said smiling through her tears.
Jai turned and faced Duo. She placed one hand on each side of his face. Looking into his violet eyes said, " I free you. Go and be with Hilde."
Jai kissed him softly on the lips. She smiled at him and walked toward the front door.
"Jai. Where are you going?" Heero asked as he blocked her path.
"I’m going to reclaim my identity. Somewhere between Janai Yuy and Janai Maxwell I lost the essence of who I was."
"You’re not going anywhere. You’re in no condition to go anywhere. You’re going to stay right here where I can help you and take care of you." Heero stated firmly.
Jai kissed Heero on the cheek, "There are something’s that you can’t help and or take care of. This is one of those things. I have to reclaim my identity, dignity and self-respect by myself. Don’t worry I’ll be in touch. I promise."
Without looking back she opened the door and walked out into the pouring rain.
Heero watched as the door closed with a soft click and his sister disappeared from his life for the second time. Heero hid the torment he felt behind his cold gaze. The first time his sister disappeared they were eight years old and he didn’t see her again until they were seventeen. After nine years of separation, Heero vowed that he would never let her go away again. Yet she did and it was all Duos’ fault. Heero walked over to Duo and stared accusingly at him. Duo couldn’t hide the guilt he was feeling and he knew Heero was blaming him for all that had happened. Heero punched Duo in the stomach causing him to gasp for breath and his eyes to water.
"That’s for breaking her heart." He said in his monotone voice.
Heero then gave Duo an upper cut which set him flying back and into a near by chair.
"And that’s for chasing her away."
Heero looked for the other cause of the problem, "Where’s Quatre?"
A Silver Mercedes pulled up. Before Jai could open the door, she was grabbed from behind and spun around to face …Quatre. His lips came crashing down on her in desperate, passionate kiss in which she returned. Jai broke the kiss and ran her fingers through his drenched bangs.
"I love you." He said as she held her close to him.
"I love you too. But loving you is wrong. You are Duo’s best friend and I will not destroy that relationship any more than I already have." Jai looked away from him, "Quatre we can never be together."
Quatre placed his hand on her face and turned her head to face him. Looking into her eyes said, "Nai Nai, you don’t have to do this. We can go anywhere in the world. We can go to the villa on the Mediterranean."
Jai looked back into his pained filled eyes, "Quatre, didn’t you hear what I told Heero. No one can help me. Don’t make this any harder than it already is. Good bye, Quatre."
Jai hurriedly got into the Mercedes and it immediately sped off. Quatre followed the car with his eyes until it disappeared in the pouring rain. With his head hung and his heart broken he turned and slowly made his way back to the mansion.
Jai turned tear-filled eyes toward her traveling companion.
"Are you sure you want to do this Kel?"
Kellee turned determined watery eyes toward Jai, "I refuse to let my child grow up thinking he or she was a mistake."
The women got lost in their own thoughts as the vehicle speed toward their uncertain future.
Quatre entered the mansion slowly closing the door behind him. He headed straight for the stairs wet from standing in the rain. The only woman he’d ever loved was gone and the only thing he could do was wait for her to return. Hopefully when she returned they’d be able to start anew putting the past behind them.
"Quatre!"
Heero’s voice brought Quatre out of his musings.
"You’re not entirely blameless in this whole mess either." Heero stated taking a threatening step forward.
"Heero" Relena said as she put a restraining hand on her husband.
Relena gasped at the blank, empty expression Quatre had on his face as he spoke, "I never said I was. I know it was because of me too that she left. The only comforting thing is knowing that she is not alone, Kellee went with her."
Trowa stared up at Quatre as the information hit him. Kellee left. Kellee left…him. Trowa sprinted up the stairs and down the hall to the bedroom that he and Kellee shared. He threw open the closet. All of her things were gone. He stared into the empty closet in disbelief. He sank down onto the floor and buried his face in his hands as the realization of why she left hit him full force. He was an idiot. He let the best thing that ever walk into his life walk right out without a fight. All because he was too scared to tell her that he loved her and that he was afraid of becoming a father. Now she was gone with his child and his heart.
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