Okay, no more formal disclaimers. I don't own GW, SO BACK OFF! The song is mine, as usual.
When The Walls Came Crashing Down
By: Jana
Email:hmjkpiotrowsky@prodigy.net
Website: http://www.lunarpages.com/trp/index2.html
These walls they won't stand up much longer
They've been through everything with me
These walls they cannot stay
Holding back everything I want to say
That day was the hardest day ever.
They came in and told me that you'd gone, and I just sat there, numb because of it. They tried to comfort me, to get me to accept the fact that you weren't coming back, but I refused all of them.
These walls they will not yield
They will not break for me
There's got to be something that I can do
Just to get out what I need to say to you
I began to go slowly crazy. I would just lock myself in my room, staring at a solitary blank wall for hours, all because you had to go and get yourself killed. It's what you wanted, wasn't it? You damn perfect soldier. You always had to complete the mission, even though it would kill you to do it.
And they say
The walls come crashing down
Letting loose a flood inside me
And these walls they cannot yield
They must fall and let me be
I can't believe you're not coming back, even when they held that little memorial service for you. I just stood, I couldn't cry, because somewhere in the back of my mind there was your voice, nagging me not to show emotion. You know what? Screw you, Heero. It's because of you that I have no control over my life. Every single minute of it is planned, practically down to the times I have to pee. All because of you and your freaking mission. I hate you for that, Heero.
They're just a wall
Blocking a path through my soul
A wall that won't come down
But needs to hit the ground
And then I don't hate you.
You were one of the only friends I've ever had, you were like my brother. And then you were gone, and you just left the world in chaos, like my mind. I think I may be crazy now, because you and your damn practical self aren't here to balance me out.
And the walls must come crashing down
They have to hit the ground
This fortress it's gotta go
'Cause I can't take it no more
I just want to scream and yell and throw a fit, but your stupid nagging voice that you left in my head won't let me do that. But I want to. I want to find a way around these barriers that you've somehow built in my brain.
Crashing down hit the ground
Don't need no more of this
Crashing down around me
Breaking apart and letting me out
Yeah, I tried to kill myself. Suicidal Duo, just like Mr. Suicidal Mission Boy Heero. They stopped me though, wrestled the little knife away from me before I was halfway done. Still have the half-scar on my wrist because of you. I'm really the God of Death, aren't I? Only the good guys can get what they want
And they don't have to worry about these walls that won't go away
These walls they refuse to leave
They have to come crashing down sometime
Everyone tells me to stop blaming myself for you. I mean, it couldn't possibly be my fault that I let one of the enemy get past me and to you. Of course not. Right. I could've destroyed it in an instant. Then you would still be here, still nagging me about my incessant stupidity. You would still be my best friend, and I'd still be teasing you about Relena. You know she's absolutely devastated, right? That's what you get. Serves you right. But you just had to complete the mission.
The walls are as still as they were yesterday
And they won't go away I can't get past them
Up, over, around, anywhere
They won't leave me be
Just stand there in my mind
And not let me cry
It's all about the mission, isn't it, Heero? Huh? I can't hear you. Oh, I know why! Because you're dead. Dead, dead, dead. And I was the one that let them kill you. They lied, you know. They told us that you would make it. Bastards. You died anyway. You should have fought, Heero. You should've, but you didn't, and just gave into death, like you told us not to do so many times. But here I am, and I'm giving into death, Yuy. I'm going to go right up to the devil and meet him face to face. I deserve it, Heero. You died because of me.
And these walls come crashing down
Leaving me in this wall of sound
Shattering all around me
What can I do now I finally got these walls to come down
Breaking all around
And all because of you
A faint click that any Gundam pilot would know anywhere. The sound of a gun being taken off its safety.
Crashing down
All because of you
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