After, in the dark

Chapter Four

By Devon Masterson

AN: Can’t Let Go by Mariah Carey, on repeat, is good for this story. I made a crazy music vid with that song to Perfect Blue, the song is psycho. You wouldn’t believe what I listened to when I did this story.

"I want my life back," Relena screamed as she hit Heero across the mouth with butt of the gun.

Heero spit out the blood that accumulated in his mouth from the blow and looked at her coldly. He shook his head. "You’re the one who killed everyone."

"Impressed?" she asked as she stared at him with intense blue eyes. "I wanted to take away everyone that you loved or would help you. Now you feel as helpless as I did."

"What did you do to Quatre?" he asked.

"Oh, he’s been dead for the past two months. He figured out the pattern a little too quickly for my taste and came to protect me. Would you believe that he was in love with me, but never said anything out of respect for you?"

Heero glared at her in his grief. "You’re not my Relena."

"I won’t be after I kill you that is," she retorted. She placed a strip of plastic laced with circuits over her throat. "With your death will come my freedom. As for Quatre, out of respect for his feelings for me, I only slit his throat and buried him then took his identity. Technology is amazing these days," she said in Quatre’s voice then removed the strip.

"You’re a monster," he snapped as he tried to lunge at her. He nearly teetered forward in his chair. His bonds were tied expertly and he knew it would take some doing to get out.

"No!" she exclaimed. "I’m a desperate woman and I’m not afraid of you anymore, Heero. You can’t hurt me anymore."

"What are you talking about?" he asked. "You left me."

"You raped me, but in the end I guess it doesn’t matter," she argued. Her voice raised an octave from the stress. "I want you to be mine always. Mine and only mine."

Heero’s eyes widened and he paled as his memory focused. He remembered everything vividly. He had been drunk and thought he had already passed out. He forced himself on her. He betrayed the trust of his angel and made her a demon. "Everything I touch really does turn to shit." No wonder she hated him. "Why didn’t you just kill me?"

She moved close to him so that their noses touched. "I wanted to hurt you. I wanted you to lose control and see that the one you loved most destroyed you and didn’t care. " She pushed him forcefully causing him to fall back in the chair. She stared at his feet in the air for a moment. She walked to the side and stood over him with the gun raised to his head. She released the clip and emptied out the bullets onto the floor. She picked one up and kissed it gently before putting it back into the clip. "With this kiss I set myself free." She pulled the trigger.

Heero jerked from force of the bullet. His breath grew shallow as he looked up at Relena standing over him. He could feel his blood flowing from him slowly and his body grew cold. He opened his mouth to speak, but his tongue was too heavy to move. Darkness.

"Relena!" a voice called out muffled. "Relena!"

Relena took off the wig cap and messed up her hair. She quickly untied Heero and pulled the chair from under his corpse. Tears sprang into her eyes. She ran down the hall and started beating on a door and pulling on it. She could hear a chair scraping against the floor and someone struggling. On the other side of the door furniture started being thrown around. Within moments the door, opened and Quatre stumbled out. "Did he hurt you?" he asked. He looked her over carefully. She had fresh bruises and a cut on her forehead, most likely from sort of blow.

Relena nodded and fell to her knees as tears streamed down her face. "I…I…shot him," she said as she broke down and let him hold her. "He just wouldn’t stop."

Quatre looked towards Heero’s body disappointed and disgusted. If Heero hadn’t held him for the past few months himself, he would not have believed it. Fortunately the last time Heero was there, he didn’t tie his bonds as tightly. He still hadn’t able to come to in time to stop his one time friend. There was nothing he could do now. Everyone was gone. "It’s okay. I’m here now."

"I want to go away," Relena cried. "I never thought…he’s crazy. He told me he had been dressing up as you and…he killed the nurse. I never thought…he tried to…"

"I’m going to take you away," he soothed as he lifted her into his arms. "I’ll take care of you."

"You’re the only one I trust, Quatre," she sobbed while he carried her down the hall. She glanced back at the past four years of her life bleeding on the floor. She snuggled closer to Quatre basking in his security. He would never hurt her and she would be able to start over. Time to start a new life.

"I tried so hard, and got so far…I had to fall, and lose it all, but in the end it doesn’t even matter…"-Linkin Park "In the End"

Fin

AN: There is lighter alternate ending at the after this note. I like both of them personally.

She moved close to him so that their noses touched. "I wanted to hurt you. I wanted you to lose control and see that the one you loved most destroyed you and didn’t care. " She pushed forcefully him causing him to fall back in the chair. She stared at his feet in the air for a moment. "You should have been honest with yourself." She walked to the side and stood over him with the gun raised to his head. She released the clip and emptied out the bullets onto the floor. She picked one up and kissed it gently before putting it back into the clip. "With this kiss I set myself free." She pulled the trigger.

Heero jerked his eyes open suddenly and quickly looked at his surroundings. He was in Wing Zero’s cockpit covered with wires. Trowa’s face appeared on the screen immediately accompanied by knocking. "Heero, are you okay?" he asked. "We’re trying to get you out of there now."

The hatch opened and Duo and Quatre looked at their friend with worry apparent on their faces. "Why did you push yourself so far on that damned system?" Duo scolded. "I knew it was nothing but trouble."

"I agree with Duo," Quatre replied. "We’ve been monitoring your life signs and at one point you went into cardiac arrest."

Heero ripped the wires from him. "Where’s Relena?" he asked.

"She’s on her way to the shuttle port for the summit meeting in Versailles," Duo commented. "Are you really okay?"

Heero nodded. "I want that system deleted from Wing Zero," he said adamantly. "Will you take care of that for me? I have a shuttle to catch." He jumped out of the cockpit.

"I understand now, Zero."

"We’ll catch up with you later then," Duo said. "We could go to O’Mally’s or something."

"I don’t drink anymore," he declared as he ran off.

Duo raised an eyebrow curiously, but he had no problem with it. He looked at Quatre and the two pilots smiled at each other. They didn’t know what happened but apparently it was a good thing. They would get the details out of him later.

"Where’s he going off to in such a hurry?" Trowa asked as he and Wufei came up.

"He has a shuttle to catch," Quatre answered with a smile.

"Yep, I think Heero finally came to his senses," Duo commented. "Well let’s get this damned system out. Heero wants it junked and I don’t blame him. It makes you see weird stuff sometimes."

The others nodded and started to assist the mechanic.

Relena walked slowly up the shuttle steps accompanied by Lucrezia. "Another meeting," she sighed.

"Relena," a voice called.

Relena turned her head and saw Heero running up to her private shuttle. She started down the stairs perhaps he would see her off after all. "Heero!"

Heero hugged her as she met him half way. He looked over her wrists and saw no cuts and her eyes were as warm as in his dreams. "It was all an hallucination."

"What was?" she asked surprised by his obvious feelings towards her. "Is there something wrong?"

"I thought I lost you," he admitted.

"Heero," she said in shock.

Heero kissed her deeply. "I noticed."

"Noticed what?" she asked in surprise. She blinked at him trying to figure out if she was the one hallucinating. She put her hand to his head. "No fever."

"Your feelings," he answered.

Relena blushed. "I guess I haven’t made it much of a secret, but I always thought…"

"I love you," he said shyly. He was not going to let things go to hell in a hand basket the way they did in the hallucination.

"I…Heero," she stuttered in surprise at this sudden honesty. "I love you, too, but why sudden change."

"Zero showed me something I didn’t like and that was my life without you," he answered. "I make my own destiny, but I can’t do it by myself. I have the others and I have you."

Relena hugged him and smiled. "I’m glad that I’m in there somewhere."

"I just want to be yours and only yours," he sighed as he enjoyed the closeness and warmth from her. As they stood there, he felt a burden lift from his shoulders. The darkness was over.

The End

Another Bond Girl Production

We all know who belongs to who, Gundam Wing belongs a whole bunch of rich influential people and I just have some concepts. Don’t sue me, hire me instead ;p