| Someone long ago told me that a soldier could be rejuvenated when he finds someone to protect. She had been right, but of course, I hadn’t thought about it at the beginning. I had been alone; protecting the colonies was enough.
Then I met him. Actually, I met him again. He had already surrendered to me during our first battle, offered me friendship and even a place to stay. At first I had felt him insignificant, I couldn’t believe that he piloted a Gundam. Then I saw him in pain, I mean really in pain, practically dying and these words, of finding someone to protect, hit me. At first I think I wanted to protect him because he had been the first person that had been kind to me in a long time. And he seemed so innocent (seemed of course) that it would have been an appalling thing to have that innocence corrupted. But as time went on and we continued to fight and slowly became friends, it reached something more. I loved him. I needed and wanted to keep him safe from all the pain and death, anything that would make him sad or unhappy. If he was sad or unhappy then I would find myself to be too and though I had never really been happy before him, I had grown used to these feelings that only he seemed to conjure. I had grown to love it and want it, perhaps I even needed it, needed him. Needing someone wasn’t something I was familiar with, but it was something I soon became accustomed to and it was a part of my everyday life. No, we weren’t together everyday, not on a physical level anyway. He had become a part of me, a big part of me and because of that we could survive any distance. And here I am gushing away about him and I haven’t even spoken his name. Quatre. Almost angelic, ne? Don’t be fooled, he’s anything but blameless. He’s killed so many and done things he regrets. He has his own nightmares of unseen demons just like the rest of us. It’s funny, she had been right all along. The one who had told me that about finding someone to protect. I do feel different now, whole perhaps. My soul is complete and I have accepted it. I love him more than life, and have vowed to forever protect him. And I will. ~Owari~ |
