“D-do you l-love me, Duo?”
“Yes, Heero I love you.”
“Why?”
“I like the smiles you give me when you’re happy. The way you look at everything. I want to protect you. I feel this overpowering urge to just hold you and never let go. I love watching you sleep and when you wake up. I love you.
“You do?”
“Yes, I do.”
“Okay. Can we have sex now?”
“What?”
“You said only people who love each other could have sex. I love you and you love me. So we can have sex.”
“No, let’s wait on that. But I can give you a kiss, if you like?”
“A kiss?”
“Yeah, here let me show you. Close your eyes and don’t move.”
Heero closed his eyes and waited. He felt Duo lean down and cup his face. He felt Duo’s breath on his lips and then they moved closer and touched. It was a short sweet chaste kiss but when Duo started to pull away Heero tried to follow. Heero kept his eyes closed and savored the feelings. After a few minutes, Heero opened his eyes and stared into purple eyes and smiled. Duo smiled back at him and stroked Heero’s cheek with his fingers.
“Did you like?”
“Hai. Can we do it again?”
“Yes we can. Now get some sleep.”
Heero nodded and snuggled up to Duo. He laid his head on Duo’s chest and put one arm around Duo. Duo smiled and leaned down to kiss his forehead. They fell asleep each dreaming of the other and the love they shared.
A few days later Dr. Khushrenada called to tell them the time to meet the tutor and psychologist. The two of them usually worked together and so they would meet them at Dr. Noin’s office. They met with them two days after the call. They arrived at Dr. Noin’s office, which happened to be close to the college.
When they went into the office they saw two people. One was a tall woman with dark black hair and really deep purple eyes. The other was a man with platinum blond hair and ice blue eyes. He was slightly taller than the woman. The woman was the first to speak.
“Hello my name is Dr. Noin but you can call me Noin. This is Zechs Merquise. And you must be Heero.”
Heero nodded his head and stood closer to Duo. He was slightly nervous about meeting them. He didn’t trust them yet but they seemed nice.
“Well it’s good to meet you. I heard a lot about you. Now the reason I am here is so you can tell me anything you want to. I’ll always be here to listen to whatever you want to tell me. I won’t tell anyone else what you tell me. It will be between us.”
“Like a secret?”
“Yes exactly.”
Heero was pleased with this and turned to Zechs Merquise waiting for him to say something. Zechs Merquise strode forward and stood in front of Heero. Heero backed away and closer to Duo. The man was really tall.
“Hello Heero, I’m going to be the one teaching you. I’m a hard teacher but from what I hear you are incredibly smart. So I expect you to be a good student. Okay?”
Heero nodded again. He didn’t know if he liked this man. Duo felt Heero tensing through the conversation and rubbed his back to calm him down. He liked these people and hoped they would help Heero more than he could.
“So Heero, do you like us? Do you want us to help you?”
Heero thought it over for a little bit. He looked to Duo for guidance but Duo just looked blankly at him. Duo wanted Heero to decide this for himself. He didn’t want to force Heero into something he didn’t like. Heero realized he had to make this decision himself and that Duo wasn’t going to help him. He looked back at the two people. He liked Noin but it was the other guy he wasn’t sure of. Zechs noticing that he was being judged just smiled friendly at Heero. That decided it for Heero, he would give them a try.
“Hai.”
Zechs and Noin smiled when they heard Heero answer. Heero felt relieved and a little happy. He had made a decision by himself that regarded him. He didn’t mind that Duo made some decisions for him but this one he did himself and he liked it.
“Okay good. Alright now for a schedule for him. Is every Wednesday at say three okay for him to see me?”
“Okay I think we can manage that.”
“Oh good, Zechs? How about you?”
“I think every Monday, Wednesday and Friday at 4 should work. What do you think?”
“But on Wednesday he has to see Noin.”
“I know. It’s a thing we do. Every Wednesday we work together to make sure he is doing okay.”
“I guess it would be okay.”
“Good. Well I’ll see you next Wednesday Heero.”
“And I’ll see you on Monday.”
They said goodbye and left. Heero was unsure if he should be nervous or excited about the upcoming Monday.
When Monday came Trowa drove them to Dr. Noin’s office. Zechs was there waiting. “Hi, if you could follow me. In our rush to get a schedule worked out for you we forgot to tell you where we are to meet. We will be meeting in my office which is two floors down.”
They finally reached Zechs office and sat down. Zechs got out some paper and a pencil and handed it to Heero.
“Okay first we are going to learn how to write. I know you know the alphabet but you don’t know how to write very well. We’ll fix that.”
Zechs walked over a chalkboard that was opposite his desk and started to write the alphabet. He instructed Heero how to write it down. By the end of the day Heero had learned how to write almost perfectly.
Unfortunately for Heero the rest of the day would not be so good. Later that night Duo got ready to go to work. He started again today. He explained it as much as he could to Heero but Heero wasn’t listening. Heero didn’t want Duo to leave he had gotten used to Duo sleeping in his bed.
“Duo you can’t leave.”
“But I have to Heero. I have to work. I won’t be gone long. I’ll be here when you wake up.”
“Please Duo don’t leave. I want you to stay here.”
“I can’t”
And with that he walked out the door. Heero tried to follow but Trowa held him back. He started to cry and scream for Duo to come back. Quatre and Trowa just looked sadly at each other and took him to bed. Heero stayed up most of the night clutching the teddy bear and sobbing Duo’s name. He eventually fell asleep. When Duo came back in the early morning he found Heero curled up on the bed with the teddy bear. Duo could see that he had been crying and probably cried himself to sleep. He got into the bed and spooned up to Heero. Heero sighed and snuggled up to the warmth around him but didn’t waken.
When he woke the next morning he was shocked but that turned to elation that Duo had come back. He hugged Duo harder than before. Duo woke up at the hard squeeze and saw Heero’s smiling face. Duo realized last night that he couldn’t work the night shift anymore.
“Heero, I won’t leave you at night ever again.”
“Really?”
“Yes, I now work at the same time you have your lessons.”
“Good.”
It had been a couple of months since Heero had started his lessons and sessions. Trowa, Quatre alternated taking Heero and Duo to the campus. Heero had learned so many new things. He also learned things out side of class because of Duo. Like sports, movies, and giving each other pet names. Heero called Duo his prince like in the fairy tales and Duo had taken to calling him either baby or angel. Heero liked those names and loved it when Duo said them. The only thing he didn’t like was that Duo had only kissed him. They never went any further and he wanted to. He decided to ask Noin about it.
“Noin, I want Duo and me to have sex. But whenever I bring it up he says later and kisses me. It’s not that I don’t like the kisses. It’s just that I want more.”
“Well maybe he is waiting for something. Personally I think you should both wait but I don’t think you would listen to me.”
“You’re right I won’t. What do you think he’s waiting for?”
“I don’t know Heero. Maybe you aren’t phrasing it right? What do you ask him?”
“I ask him if we can have sex and he says no and that we’ll do it sometime later.”
“What does Duo mean to you?”
“I love Duo. He’s my prince. I want him more than anything in the world.”
“Well I can see what the problem is but I can’t tell you. You have to figure it out by yourself. But I can give you hints.”
“Okay then give me some hints.”
“First, what does sex mean to you?”
“It’s where we one guy puts his penis…”
“I didn’t mean physically. I meant emotionally?”
“Emotionally? I-I don’t k-know.”
“Okay how about love? How does love make you feel?”
“It feels like flying. I get really happy and smile. Duo likes my smiles.”
“Okay so what is the difference between sex and love?’
“One’s an act and one’s an emotion?”
“Right. Can you see why Duo says to wait until later?”
Heero thought about her words. He knew love was an emotion and emotions are what make you feel.
“So Duo wants love not sex.”
“I can’t answer that. Why don’t you think about it? Then ask Duo.”
“Okay.”
Heero thought about that the rest of the day. He knew love and sex were different things but didn’t know the difference between the acts. He figured Duo wanted the love and not the sex but was wanting love the same as sex? That was the question that was plaguing him. He decided to take Noin’s advice and ask Duo.
“Duo is wanting love the same as sex?”
Duo, who had been drinking a soda, spit out the drink and looked at Heero. His jaw had dropped down and he didn’t know what to say. It took a few moments for him to gather himself to respond.
“Depends on what you mean about wanting love.”
“I mean is it like sex but with love.”
It took Duo a couple of minutes to realize what he was asking.
“Oh you mean making love. Then yeah but there is more emotion to making love than sex.”
Heero chewed on this information and suddenly it clicked. Duo wanted to make love and not have sex.
“Duo, can we make love?”
TBC
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