This is kind of a sequel to Relena's Thoughts. I don't think it's as good but it's something. Just like the first one, I wrote this when I was upset and changed it to fit Relena's life a little bit more.
Disclaimer: I don’t own Gundam Wing although I wish I did... But then again, don’t we all?
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I hate this world so much. I don't understand why some people can't see the things I do. I don't understand how they can have such closed-minds. How can they not see things in different ways? Why can't they see past what something really is? Why can't they change their perspectives just for one time in their lives? Or am I the only one who sees past the pain? Past the grief. Past the limitations of reality...
I just wanna run away. Run so far and fast. I won't even look back. I'll run till my legs scream with pain. Run till my lungs burn for air. Run till every muscle in my body is engulfed with pain so horrible I won't be able to even stand. Any pain would be better than the pain I have now. Anything...
Why does everything depend on me? Every step. Every word. Every breath... Why can't I have a life like any other girl? Just because I was born to my parents doesn't mean I need to follow in their footsteps. Doesn't mean I have to share their beliefs. Doesn't mean I like to bear the weight of the world on my shoulders...
Sometimes I get so lonely and cold I just wanna be held. Just want someone to hold me. But there is no one to meet my embrace. No one to make me feel loved. No one to run to...
I long to hear only 3 little words. That would be all I ever asked for. They would change my life forever. Then may-be I won't run anymore. Then may-be I'll feel like I have a real home. A place where people cherish me and every second we have together. A place where I can feel truly safe. A place that no one could ever hurt me again. All I would need is those 3 little words. Those three special little words. The words:"I love you."
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