Went for a long drive the other day....
helps you think...
found a beautiful place...
saw ugly things....
met beautiful people....
sadness dwells here....
miss you....
learning...
now I must pay...
everything has a price to me....
I'm paying for it now...
::::::dearly:::::
4/17/97
Welcome to hell...
Satans dream....
our nightmares...
only one thing is everywhere...
controls us...
Rules our living deaths...
What do you want to know...?
ask me...go ahead....
I wont lie to you....
I speak of only truth....
love is...
7 liars...
who knows of this?
Tell me if you know...
Infernal spirits come to me....
and tell me these things...
some things I don't understand...
Hell....
4/17/97
Words of hopelessness...
sadness speaks of truth...
Sorrow is in everyone...
you will see....
we will all...
I need stringth to tell you...
Here I am if you want me....
come and get me....
I wont leave you...
I'm everywhere....
you don't know what its like to be me....
Take me.....I'm yours...
Cut me into little peices....
wash away blood pain....
Everyone can have a peice of me...
eat my soul...
I'm inside you...
You'll never let me go....
::::::Immortality:::::::
11/26/97
I love you here...
neir to me...
to feel the heat of your body next to me...
this sand has shown its test of time..
If you would let me I'd hold you night and day...
To never spend a day away...
To forever be and feel this way...
12/4/97
Don't know what to think...
Don't know what to say...
Everything I seam to loose...
a little bit more every day...
Not sure if I'm gonna gain...
what I need to servive...
But I'm feeling kinda...
numb inside...
So its easy to hide...
the fear...
I'm kinda feeling inside...
Afraid it will grow...
I don't fucking know...
what to do...
Lost Control...
10/26/97
I am the moon...
I've always felt I was...
This aching in my chest...
is crying out for you...
Your touch...
I close my eyes and dream of you...
A soft hand of comfort grazes my face...
Why must I feel this way?...
So much...so hard...so deep...
My love....for you...for life...
For the people who are a part of me...
I wont let go...don't ask me why...
My flesh yearns to feel your touch...
I don't want anyone to leave...
for when you do, you always take a peice of me...
My heart...
I love so many...if none stay I fear I will...
Disentergrate...
10/22/97
Who ever knew I'd be here with you...
It feels like I emagined...
Dreamed it would be...
What does this mean?
We try and talk but its no use...
All I can think of is kissing you...
Feeling the magnatisem...
You feel the same...
Trying to resist I continue...
Our words like jello...
shakey and weak...
Trying not to pull you close to me...
We have no future...
Just this dream, breathing in remarkable sweet reallity...
I give in and pull you neir...
for I see...
We only have this moment...
past thoughts crash in...
While we drown in our disires...
Of longing to be in this moment with you...
I've gone so far...
Precious moment...
Never forget this moment...
It is burned into my mind...
for all eternity...
4/14/98
Please...I say...asking you to see me...
There...to show that you care...
Do you love?
Very close...to you...
I yearn to be...its been so long...
sence you've been next to me...
Our smiles fill the room...
In each others sights...
We remember...
The feelings we felt..in that night...
My heart you stole...like a theif in the night...
Please..I say...make me feel that way...
make me happy..fill my heart with joy...
even if for this moment...
you an be...
my only one...
Because life means nothing...
Without it...
