Losing a whole year I remember you and me used to spend The whole goddamned day in bed Losing a whole year Lying in your room we'd lay like dogs The phone would ring like a joke that's left unsaid Losing a whole year Rich daddy left you with a parachute Your voice sound like money and your face is cute But your daddy left you with no love You touch everything with a velvet glove and Now you want to try a life of sin You want to be down with the down and in Always copping my truths I kind of get the feeling like I'm being used And now I realize you never heard One goddamned word I ever said Losing a whole year Losing a whole year I took your stuff and put it in the basement When I found out what the smile on your face meant I've seen you pop that check Craning your neck at my car wreck and It always seems the juice used to flow In the car, in the kitchen you were good to go Now we're stuck with the tube A sink full of dishes and some aqualube And I remember you and me used to Spend the whole goddamned day in bed Losing a whole year And if it's not the defense then you're on the attack When you start talking I hear the Prozac Convinced you've found your place With the pierced queer teens in Cyberspace When you were yourself it tasted sweet But it sours into a routine deceit Well this drama is a bore And I don't want to play no more Losing a whole year I remember you and me used to Spend the whole goddamned day in bed Losing a whole year
I'm on a train, but there's no one at the helm And there's a demon in my brain Who starts to overwhelm whelm whelm whelm whelm And there it goes, my last chance for peace You lay me down, but I get no release And I say I, I try to keep awake I try to swim beneath I try to keep awake But I, I can feel this narcolepsy slide Into another nightmare And there's a demon in my head who starts to play A nightmare tape loop of what went wrong yesterday And I hold my breath till it's more than I can take And I close my eyes and dream that I'm awake I try to keep awake I try to keep awake I try to keep awake But I, I can feel this narcolepsy slide Into another nightmare I read dead Russian authors volumes at a time I write everything down except what's on my mind Cause my greatest fear is that sucking sound And then I know that I'll never get back out And there's a bone in my hand that connects to a drink In a crowded room where the glasses clink And I'll buy you a beer and we'll drink it deep Because that keeps me from falling asleep I said How'd you like to be alone and drowning How'd you like to be alone and drowning How'd you like to be alone and drowning How'd you like to be alone and drowning Still I find this narcolepsy slide slide Into another nightmare Keep awake, keep awake, keep awake And I can feel this narcolepsy slide
Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo... I'm packed and I'm holding I'm smiling She living she golden and she lives for me Says she lives for me Ovation her own motivation She comes round and she goes down on me And I make her smile Like a drug for you Do ever what you want to do Coming over you Keep on smiling what we go through One stop to the rhythm that divides you And I speak to you like the chorus to the verse Chop another line like a coda with a curse Come on like a freak show takes the stage We give them the games we play She said I want something else To get me through this Semi-charmed kind of life baby baby I want something else I'm not listening when you say Good-bye Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo... The sky was gold, it was rose I was taking sips of it to my nose And I wish I could get back there Some place back there Smiling in the pictures you would take Doing crystal myth Will lift you up until you break It won't stop, I won't come down, I keep stock With a tick tock rhythm and a bump for the drop And then I bumped up I took the hit I was given Then I bumped again And then I bumped again she said How do I get back there to The place where I fell asleep inside you How do I get myself back to The place where you said I want something else to get me through this Semi-charmed kind of life baby baby I want something else I'm not listening when you say Good-bye I believe in the sand beneath my toes The beach gives a feeling an earthy feeling I believe in the faith that grows And the four right chords can make me cry When I'm with you I feel like I could die And that would be all right, all right [the following part was cut out of the radio edit] When the plane came in She said she was crashing The velvet it rips in the city we tripped On the urge to feel alive but now I'm struggling to survive Those days you were wearing that velvet dress You're the priestess I must confess Those little red panties they pass the test Slides up around the belly Face down on the mattress One, and you hold me and we're broken Still it's all that I want to do just a little now Feel myself heavy as the ground I'm scared but I'm not coming down no no And I won't run for my life She's got her jaws now locked down in a smile But nothing is all right, all right [end of part that was edited out] I want something else To get me through this life baby I want something else Not listening when you say Good-bye Good-bye Good-bye Good-bye Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo... The sky was gold it was rose I was taking sips of it to my nose And I wish I could get back there someplace Back there in the place we used to Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo... I want something else
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in And if you do not want to see me again I would understand I would understand The angry boy a bit too insane Icing over a secret pain You know you don't belong You're the first to fight You're way too loud You're the flash of light on a burial shroud I know something's wrong Well everyone I know has got a reason To say put the past away I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in And if you do not want to see me again I would understand I would understand Well he's on the table and he's gone to code And I do not think anyone knows What they're doing here And your friends have left you You've been dismissed I never thought it would come to this And I, I want you to know Everyone's got to face down the demons Maybe today You could put the past away I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in And if you do not want to see me again I would understand I would understand I would understand I would understand I would understand I would understand Understand Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah Can you put the past away I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend I would understand I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend I would understand I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend And I would understand I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend I would understand I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend I would understand
Can I graduate Can I look in faces that I meet Can I get my punk ass off the street I've been living on for so long Can I graduate To the bastard talking down to me Your whipping boy calamity Cross your fingers, I'm going to knock it all down Can I graduate Echo fading we can't let go She goes walking by in slow mo' Sell your heart out for a buck Go on fade out before I get stuck Talking to somebody like you Do you live the days you go through Will this song live on long after we do Can I graduate Can I look in faces that I meet Can I get my punk ass off the street Won't die on the vine I want to knock it all down Can I graduate Echo fading, candle blow Did you flash out long ago Cross my fingers, I don't know Someone poked you down below Can I graduate Can I graduate Can I graduate Can I graduate Can I graduate Can I get my punk ass off the street Can I look in faces that I meet I'm not waiting here for you to die Will this song live on long after we do
I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore Before you take a swing I wonder what are we fighting for When I say out loud I want to get out of this I wonder is there anything I'm going to miss I wonder how it's going to be When you don't know me How's it going to be When you're sure I'm not there How's it going to be When there's no one there to talk to Between you and me Cause I don't care How's it going to be How's it going to be Where we used to laugh There's a shouting match Sharp as a thumbnail scratch A silence I can't ignore Like the hammock by the Doorway we spent time in swings empty Don't see lightning like last fall When it was always about to hit me I wonder how's it going to be When it goes down How's it going to be When you're not around How's it going to be When you found out there was nothing Between you and me Cause I don't care How's it going to be And how's it going to be When you don't know me anymore And how's it going to be Want to get myself back in again The soft dive of oblivion I want to taste the salt of your skin The soft dive of oblivion oblivion How's it going to be When you don't know me anymore How's it going to be How's it going to be How's it going to be
It's all in your mind she said The darkness and the light The clock it bleeds for you But you never got the time in right I woke you up And I slit the throat of your confidence And we laughed in the night And I felt all right All hands on deck boys Cause this ship was made to sink Your swabber salutes you now But I know what he's thinking I woke you up And I slit the throat of your confidence And we laughed in the night And I felt all right Thanks a lot Thanks a lot Thanks a lot The clothes she wears mis-fit And she's nervous when she speaks Her zombie mom and dad Live in a separate house of freaks I woke you up And I slit the throat of your confidence And we laughed in the night And I felt all right Thanks a lot Thanks a lot Thanks a lot I'm the one for you Cause I know all the dirty things you'd like to do I'm the fear in your eyes I'm the fire in your flies I'm the sound that's buzzing around your head Thanks a lot Thanks a lot Thanks a lot Thanks a lot
The rise and fall of my sloppy love The smatterings, and splatterings They'll get you I'm not the one you were thinking of Maybe you thought I'd call Instead of crashing down your hall Hold me down, I wanna find out You know you will never get what you need Blue Diamond strike 'em anywhere First we caffeinate then incinerate We'll get you And sparks will fly in the summer air Did you pull out of your stall Maybe I'll see you after all Hold me down, I wanna find out We say no, cause I live my life like a burning man Like a burning man, a burning man Like a burning man And I won't get enough until my legs are broken The stars they shine in an empty void Life is not to fear, life is to enjoy He'll get you Oh, Mr. Death catches all someday Baby I thought you'd call Or leave a light on in the hall Hold me down but I'll find out We say no, cause I live my life like a burning man Like a burning man, a burning man Like a burning man Hold me down, I wanna find out We say no, cause I live my life like a burning man Like a burning man, a burning man Like a burning man And I won't get enough, until my legs are broken
Hey will you stay awhile My smile will not mislead you Cause I've been alone My faith turned to stone Still there's something in you I believe in Close to the pierce I go wild and fierce Still I let you be, I feel you next to me Cause inside I feel a wind that starts to blow I'm taken in your undertow Everything is fine, I'm lonely all the time Cause all I want to do is be there For the things that you're going through Well, is it good for you is it good for you Cause you haunt my nights when I don't know where my life should go Well, is it good for you, is it good for you Hey child please stay a while My smile will not mislead you Cause I've been without I go wild with doubt I grab at you I can't stop grabbing at you Cause I feel you cross my mind In disarray, intoxicated ricochet There's nothing wrong just don't take too long Cause all I want to do is be there For the things that you're going through Well, is it good for you is it good for you Cause you haunt my nights when I don't know where my life should go Well, is it good for you Well, is it good for you All I want to do is be there For the things that you're going through Well is it good for you Well is it good for you Cause you haunt my nights when I don't know where my life should go Well is it good for you Well is it good for you
Through the satellites, I fight with you That loca l brew is spillin' I know just how you spend your time I want to get my hands on him Somebody's party in a London flat You're where it's at and I know You want to see me lose my mind I'm tired of chasing after you The residue is jealous See me on the d ark side of your mind I want to get my hands on him To a club that's pounding in the London rain The world could end we wouldn't hear it I know just what's on your mind I see the way your face has changed We're no good for each other You tricked me into coming here So let go, I don't want to go to London I told you I don't care I don't want to go to London To live there I don't want to go to London All your friends afflicted I don't want to go to London She's addicted I saw you with h im I know where you've been That nose is broken wide open Your way has got me out of line I want to get my hands on him You so... to make me Prove it takes a fight to move you I know just what's on your mind It's been this way a thousand years We torture each other So why the hell'd you call me here When you know I don't want to go to London I told you I don't care I don't want to go to London Live there I don't want to go to London All your friends afflicted I don't want to go to London She's addicted I don't want to go to London I told you I don't care I don't want to go to London Cause you're not there I don't want to go to London Even when I see you Somewhere else in London I don't want to go to London
The sucker s loose themselves In the games they learn to play Children love to sing but Then their voices slowly fade away People always take a step away From what is true That's why I like you around I want you Oh you do you do... You make me want you An open invitation to the dance Happenstance set the vibe that we are in No apology because my urge is genuine And the mystery of your rhythm is so feminine Here I am and I want to take a hit Of your sent cause it bit so deep into my soul I want you Yeah, you do you do... You make me want you Oh you do you do... Send me all your vampires I want you And I can't get enough, oh I can't get enough And I can't get enough The village church yard is filled with Bones weeping in the grave The silver lining of clouds Shines on people Jesus couldn't save You want to know how deeply my soul goes Deeper than bones Deeper than bones And I can't get enough Oh, I can't get enough Oh, I can't get enough Oh, I can't get enough After we did it by the window sill Smoke rings drift into the midnight sky Presently in the quilt that your mother made A candle burns to fight off the gloom I said to live in this way is not for the meek And like a jazz DJ you talk me into sleep I said there'll be no regrets when the worms come And they will surely come You do you do... Make me want you Send me a ll your vampires Yeah you do... Make me want you Send me all your vampires I want you Send me all your vampires I want you Send me all your vampires Send me all your vampires There will be no regrets when the worms come Send me all your vampires
Everything is quiet since you're not around And I live in the numbness now In the background I do the things we did before I walk Haight Street to the store And they say where's that crazy girl You don't get drunk on red wine and fight no more I don't see you anymore since the hospital The plans I make still have you in them Cause you come swimming into view And I'm hanging on your words Like I always used to do The words they use so lightly I only feel for you I only know because I carry you around In the background I'm in the background Words they come and memories all repeat I lift your head while they change the hospital sheets And I would never lie to you no I would never lie to you no I felt you long after we were through, we were through The plans I make still have you in them Cause you come swimming into view And I'm hanging on your words Like I always used to do The words they use so lightly I only feel for you I only know because I carry you around In the background Cause I felt you long after we were through Well you come swimming into view And I'm hanging on your words Like I always used to do The words they use so lightly I only feel to you I only know because I'm way I'm way in the background I'm in the background
Summer time and the wind is blowing outside In lower Chelsea and I don't know What I'm doing in this city The sun is always in my eyes It crashes through the windows And I'm sleeping on the couch When I came to visit you That's when I knew I could never have you I knew that before you did Still I'm the one who's stupid And there's this burning Like there's always been I never been so alone And I've never bee n so alive Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by The cigarette ash flies in your eyes And you don't mind, you smile And say the world doesn't fit with you I don't believe you, you're so serene Careening through the universe Your axis on a tilt , you're guiltless and free I hope you take a piece of me with you And there's things I'd like to do That you don't believe in I would like to build something But you never see it happen And there's this burning Like there's always been I've ne ver been so alone And I've, I've never been so alive And there's this burning There is this burning Where's the soul I want to know New York City is evil The surface is everything but I could never do that Someone would see through that And this is our last time We'll be friends again I'll get over you, you'll wonder who I am And there's this burning Just like there's always been I've never been so alone alone And I've, and I've never been so alive So alive I go home to the coast It starts to rain I paddle out on the water Alone Taste the salt and taste the pain I'm not thinking of you again Summer dies and swells rise The sun goes down in my eyes See this rolling wave Darkly coming to take me Home And I've never been so alone And I've never been so alive
Every thought that I repent There's another chip you haven't spent And you're cashing them all in Where do we begin to get clean again Can we get clean again I walk home alone with you And the mood you're born into Sometimes you let me in And I take it on the chin I can't get clean again I want to know can we get clean again The God of Wine comes crashing through The head lights of a car that took you farther Than you thought you'd ever want to go We can't get back again We can't get back again She takes a drink and then she waits The alcohol it permeates And soon the cells give way, and cancels out the day I can't keep it all together I know I know I know... I can't keep it all together And the siren's song that is your madness Holds a truth I can't erase All alone on your face Every glamorous sunrise Throws the planets out of line A star sign out of whack, a fraudulent zodiac And the God of Wine is crouched down in my room You let me down, I said it, now I'm going down And you're not even around And I said no no no... I can't keep it all together I know I know I know... I can't keep it all together And there's a memory of a window Looking through I see you Searching for something I could never give you And there's someone who understands You more than I do A sadness I can't erase All alone on your face
Losing A Whole Year