The Author of this web sites name is Tommy He is 18 and lives in Utah he goes to Holloday Baptist Church. Loves to do any work for God.
Hello I am glad you have came to my site I hope it helped you in some way. I thank God for all the people it mite touch. I wish that some would help me throw the hard times of my life. Right now I am living with my Grandma and my Dad. My Mom and dad broke up and my mom was always on the phone and I could not use it so I showed her how to use ICQ so I could be on the phone and she could be on the net. Little did I now she was going to use it to fined a boyfriend. When she did that he moved in with use (The Mother that helped teach me everything I now of God the Bible and reasen I was in Church) He did not like me or my brothers so one by one we left. I seeked help with a life long friend and his pernts. The helped me a great deal I loved each of them, But Because of a roomer at church that I was hanging out with some kids and doing drugs. Well I was staying with my Brother that they were going to kick me out. My Best friend told me of this before I went to there place. My life long friend had started to hate me and told me Best friend all this trash that was not to nice. So I moved out of there place and in to my best friends place it was ok we had some times that we werew mad at each outher but nothing that big. But the time came that I had to go so that is hhow I ended up living with my grandma she gets meen sometimes but thats grandmas. Now I am living with my grandma and most all of my church friends yes the Good Christians the childern of God. the church to come when you need someone you would think you could cont on them right? yeah right. One needed a brake from me and the rest well I have no clue as to why the will not so much as talk to me. My best friend when to the east coest fo 3 weeks and I only knew one more person at church He is a nice guy but we started somking weed with all these new friends I am making people that would not hate me just because the are more christian them most of the people at my church. I think I gave up on my self long ago I could only live for God but now I am afrade that I am giving up on him I know that is not good he is the only one that can help me but I dont think I can live like this any more I know Gods will will be done so if I took some blood presher peels as the mass of them go down my throt into my stomk and as the posen pors into my blood streem geting cared to my hart the very thing it was made to help. As it starts to slow down tell it is not betting nomore time for Gods will to be done well he want me to stay here and live this way or will I be at his feet. well a merical hapen. Or If I sice my ristes and all my blood has dranded out of my body will he put more in to me, and let me live with a will only to serve the one that saved me from death? Or if I throw myself from the cliffes of a Utah canen as my body fols ganing more and more speed till it is crushed at the bodem like my spert, as has been the gifted God Gave me I tore apart with all my sines like spiting in his face the face that breathed life in to me. will he put all my broken peaces back to gether so that I my live and know all the more the love he has for me? To live is Christ to die is gane? To live with no chirstian friends I know that God should be enofe but I know that you must have fellow Christians that can help you. It is so hard to live with no christ like role moble as a friend. I ask that you will pray for me that I my make the right disishin. God Bless I Hope you can fined refuge onder the wings of God. May peace bewith you. |