Faith's Poetry
Don't Wanna Be "Me"
A camouflaged personality
Despaired feelings
And distorted images
Bound together into the physical form
And labeled “ME”
Told what to feel and what not to feel
Bombarded with
“You should be more...”
“You’d look better if...”
Don’t Wanna Be “Me”
The reflection in all forms is disappointing
Sight is cruel
“I” is unstable
Feelings of insecurity, jealousy, insignificance
Are kept close to heart
Living beneath the world
Separation from society
Yet craving for a similar creature
Don’t Wanna Be “Me”
Hurt lives within
Depression’s outside the door
Disappointment lays in the future
Optimism does not show through
The outer shell
Features of disfigured
Emotions transformed
Don’t Wanna Be “Me”
Looking at an unsatisfied figure
A shadow in a dark depression
An inademant object on display
Classified as average
Yet worlds apart
From being “alive’
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From Hope To Hate
Every night as you shed your clothes
Can you feel me thinking of you?
Wishing so hard for our memories that died
To come back alive
Every night before you lay your head upon your pillow
Can you feel me calling you?
Asking for you to bring you love back to me
I'll never turn it away, can't you see?
Every night before you fall asleep
Can you feel me dreaming of you?
Bringing love and laughter to your face
And hiding our painful mistakes
Every morning before you awake
Can you feel me holding you?
Look into my eyes
Can you hear my cries?
Every morning before the sun kisses the sky
Can you hear my praying for you?
Open your heart to let me in
Love like this could never be a sin
Every evening before the moon opens her eyes
Can you feel me judging you?
Acussing you for my hurt and pain
Watching it sink and rise again
Every evening before the darkness arrives
Can you see me replacing you?
The only way to relieve my confusion
This is my only solution
Every night as you dream
Can you hear me dying?
My tortured spirit I wish to heal
With your touch I will no longer feel.
These Are Your Consequences
Everything has been all lies hasn't it?
Endless pieces of writing
Containing nothing more than words
No meaning behind them
Written to whom you thought you loved
But you have just lied to yourself to cover your true feelings
That you are too scared to share
For they might give you an imperfection
To ruin your perception of a perfect exterior
You like to see others suffer
Since you give no offer of a rescue
The pain you induce
Creates no feelings amongst yourself
Cause you are too involved in yourself
No one can figure you out
Cause you haven't figured yourself out
I reccomend that you do so quickly
Cause you have lost too many spirits already
That you will never retreive
They are gone with a piece of your soul
That you have not cared to keep
You are insensitive
No feelings towards others
Let's just sit and watch them fly by you might say
You think of me as your doll that you can toy with
You can pull your little strings
But watch as the strings to your little doll are cut lose
Never again will they be in your clutches
That doesn't matter to you, does it?
That's the way you want it
Be alone in your little world
Close the door to communication
And the outside world
Cause no one wants you out here anyway
No one wants to be involved in your games
No one wants to be your little toy anymore
No one wants to be wolvened in your web of insensitivity
Tie the knot of opportunities
Watch them walk down your driveway
Too late to stop them
Watch your once eventful life twist in to a life of loneliness
Watch your once fulfilled heart empty in to a hole of depression
Cause that is what you've always wanted
Well now you can have it
You have achieved what you have dreamed
(inspired by a break-up)
Lack Of Respect
Why don't you just walk all over me
Cause I am too powerless to stop you
Your aggression overpowers my feelings
As they have done for so long
My heart has shrunk now
Beyond the gate of recovery
Time to release myself
Time for me to fly away
Time for me to do no more
Stop the shadows
That are my painful memories
Let go of the sadness
That has gripped me from eternity
Let the tears of depression
Fall to the ground again
And stain a new path
For me follow
I must move from my past to my future
A journey that will lead me
Through the fields of loneliness
To the skies of happiness
See everyone, how far I've come
And how I will never return
To the misery of being so small
No matter how big I am.
To you, I will always be a failure
No matter how hard I try to succeed
The likeliness of my falls
Triggers you satisfaction
I don't want to make you happy
I don't want to make you proud of me
It has all been made up of my failured time
But my failured time, is your enjoyed time
Not any longer
All time has run up for me
The sand in the hour glass is speaking to me
"You'll always be stupid
No matter how smart you become."
Lost Hope
She was angry and sad,
with a touch of fear.
She sat alone and lonely,
with a book on the pier.
No reason to live,
not a dream or a goal,
So deeply depressed,
with emptiness in her soul.
She thought about her childhood,
how lonely and abused,
Not happy, nor excited,
and not less amused.
Surrounded with anger,
frustration, and despair,
Alone in her own world,
without a single care.
She stared at the ocean,
so blue and clear,
She thought to herself,
could the end be near?
She thought about her future,
and saw nothing in sight.
This thought hit her,
with a sudden wave of fright.
With nothing in her future,
just emptiness in her past,
This fearful day now,
will soon be her last.
She stood up straight
and wished her family good-bye.
She lept to her death,
with a long mournful cry.
Release Your Restraints
Every night as I lay in bed
I hope that I will have
a dream of you
To bring a blanket of comfort as it floats
To gently caress my feelings
for you
You wipe away
the thoughts of sadness
That may have once plagued
your soul
As they have lost
their presence of reality
Your shadow of depression
is now replaced
By the light of joy
Block out the sounds
of misery
And listen to the voice
that is your soul
Unlock your hopes
and dreams
And let them guide
your heart
Release the ties
That have grounded you
for so long
Let your spirit follow
mine
As we fly towards love
together and forever
Separation From Your Soul
My heart is hurting beyond words
The pain is tearing up my soul
These days have seen my spirit die
My life propelled out of control
My wounds like naked to the world
My depth of suffering exposed
This damaged past I wish to heal
Until this nightmarish book is closed
My heart is hurting beyond words
The pain is tearing up my soul
Please tell me how I can retrieve
The life that all this sadness holds
I never dreamed that we'd be distanced this way
How could it come to past this aweful twist of fate
This disappointment can't be so...
My heart is hurting beyond words
The pain is tearing up my soul
I never dreamed that these barriers could rise
Or that I could see the hurt in your eyes
If we could turn again to love
We'll leave this sadness far behind
And we'll grow stronger side by side
We'll be safe, cause love will be our guide
Apparent Contradiction
As you stand there
I say I love you
As you walk away
I say I hate you
My internal heart that cries
For our secret love that lies
For what I say to your face
I realize I do not belong with the human race
For our desitinies are drawn apart
I illusion the hole in your heart
For the fate that doth us binds
Our souls are without our minds
The golden thread of life
We cannot deny our lives of strife
For which our love and anguish turn
The truth will live and will not burn
My stomach churns and ties in knots
With our empty and misguided thoughts
Is our physical attraction making us weak?
The actuality of our thoughts will leak
My soul misgives an endearing glare
I can feel your sympathetic stare
These relations you strive to hold
For the reason that your determination is bold
When we're together
We share this bond
When we're apart
The hope for our future lives on
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