A few days went by and Ike’s funeral was to be that day, which was the day that I left the hospital, with JL.
"Ya ready, Ang?" Jay asked me.
"Yes." I replied handing Jay the baby, I walked out to her car where I saw Libby. "Hey, Libby.” I said sadly, she hugged me and we headed for the funeral home.
When we got there I saw my mom for the first time in five days she hugged me and asked, "Why didn't you tell me?" Motioning to the baby.
I shrugged and walked up to the coffin. When I saw Ike’s body lying there I started to cry.
Lucy walked up to me and said, "Come on and sit down now."
I did what I was told.
Through out the service I was holding my baby and I could feel myself getting weaker and weaker. Occasionally I would look at Diana and she would give me a weak grin, she looked like she had aged ten years as a result of not sleeping.
Tay and Zac were holding up quite well considering the circumstances.
"Ashes to ashes dust to dust..." I heard the pastor say.
I looked down at JL, who was sleeping peacefully oblivious as to what was going on. I started to cry; I felt a warm hand on my shoulder and then soft words says, "It’s okay Ang." I think it was Jay but I'm not sure.
Tay and Zac sang "With You In Your Dreams," and in the middle of the song I cried out "NO!!!!!!!!! You can't sing this without IKE!!!!" Then I ran off.
"Tay?" Zac questioned.
"Yes?"
"Am I gonna lose Lucy?" Zac asked sadly.
Taylor took his little brother in his arms. "Zac, don't talk like that!" Tay said softly. "Ike’s death has gotten us all a bit messed up, but Zac, anyone can die at any given time."
Just about that time, I knocked on the door.
"Come in." Tay called. "What’s wrong, Ang?"
I guess he noticed I had been crying. "Here… read this."
Dear Taylor and Zac,
I wasn't planning on this but I think that it is time that I quit the band. I know "Hanson" means a lot to you, and it does me too, but I wanna marry Angel and go to college. Maybe after I get out of school we can have a Hanson reunion, ya know like kiss did? Well by the time you find this Angel and I will be in Los Vegas so tell mom and dad hi for me.
See ya soon.
P.S. I'll carry you always in my heart.
I stood there playing with the ring that I found with the note when Taylor spoke up. “Hey Angel, this was dated the night of the accident."