*sunday, april 7
Ow. Brutal morning-after still-drunkness. I hate waking up drunk. These days I'm drunk all the time... and for so goddamn long. Sara used to think the woman in "hey hey what can i do" was her... But we're all starting to agree that it's me. FUCKING CHRIST- this same ani song has killed me 4 days in a row. FOUR DAYS when ... i'm messed up. These past four days have been ultimately strange. I feel drunk all the time, and like I'm breathing strange things and the headache that wouldn't go away. It finally did yesterday when I broke down and took the tylenol. Drugs are stupid (can you hear me, e-rock? jeez). So Sara's making me post this to the world (we all have stories...): this morning when I woke up and was still drunk I knew I had to eat something, but didn't feel like eating and didn't know what. I needed some advice. I needed some company, too. My parents had already left (well.. at least they didn't see me wandering around drunkenly smelling like rum cuz i'm a goddamn rummy... says g-bone, anyway...) and the light filtering through the dirty skylights in the kitchen was particularly grey. After drinking cold too-strong bad coffee and choking down toast, I knew I needed someone. And there were only two options: 1)Sara, who would still be asleep... 2) Q107. The Q loves me. The Q is drunk. I knew they would know... but probably wouldn't answer the phone. So I called Sara.
And where did you put all those letters that you wrote to yourself, but could not address?
-ani
I either had dreams about that song or sung it to myself last night while drunk. Probably both. Either way... I need 2 CDs right now, and both are double-CDs and therefore horribly expensive. 1)CCR (the green and gold one. dunno what it's called... best of? who knows) 2) ani - reckoning/revelling (which is what that song is from. ughhhh). I still have those two CDs that Tal made me yet I haven't listened to them. I'll do that today... while packing for Washington.
~check ya later
