Journal,
Right now, i'm ike's best friend. and he's mine too.... we both care for each other. i care for him. and he cares for me too. But is it posible to love your best friend? This may sound weird, but, i love Isaac. yes. Clarke Isaac Hanson. yup. my best friend. i'm soooo afraid that maybe if i tell him that i love him.... he might get mad. scream at me and i won't be able to be his best freind again. i don't want our friendship to end He can't love me. He likes Jackie. i know it. i am no better than her. he dosen't know that i love and care for him. But it really hurts me. i know that he knows that i care for him.... and i know that cares for me. but he dosent know that i love him. and do he love me? i don't think so. i'm really in pain everytime i see his face. ok... maybe not his face. maybe the things we talk about. All we talk about is how will he ask Jackie out. He dosen't realise that he's hurting me. Esp. that day when he told me that he likes Jakie sooo much and that... he'd do everything in the world just to ask her out. it really hurt me. I don't know if i should tell him or not. I just wish that one day i could just go up to him and say to him that i love him. BUT I CAN'T!!! i wish i could but i can't!! i can't!!! Now i'm really scared to fall in love... it might hurt me....sometimes i forget all about this. but everytime i hear "Every Time" by Janet Jackson, i start to cry. i don't know why. it just reminds me of everything. the song just tells everything i feel. it's really crazy. sometimes i think that this was written for me. here... i'll write down the song for you....