His middle stirred. That had happened several times since the first day he saw Cami, but this night it was especially annoying. He had to make an early start and wanted to catch whatever sleep he could, but images of the angel he had fallen for kept flashing before his closed eyelids. He forced himself to think about that day so many months ago, when he first laid eyes on the tranquil beauty he kept dreaming of.

It had been the second day since their arrival at the Rock Creek pony express station. She had been standing there by the side of the road, waiting for someone. That someone had turned out to be a group of young girls; the same group of girls Buck had seen her with that afternoon. They had walked over to the school, and every step she took made the otherwise so stoic rider all wild inside. His stomach churned, his thoughts jumped, his hands began trembling and his whole body was suddenly covered in cold sweat. He couldn't explain it, but she was the one. There was no one else. He had always believed in love at first sight, but now he was more convinced than ever. Cameelia was the one for him, if only she would see it. He had been somewhat suspicious of Rock Creek at first, but after seeing Cami he felt all better at once. No one ever knew about his secret, not even Ike. But his best friend did think it kind of funny he suddenly changed his mind about their new home. But he never asked about it, and Buck was forever grateful. No one would ever find out...

His thoughts drifted and soon he found himself wondering where she was, what she was doing, who she was with. Who she was making love to... The thought of his eternal love in another man's arms made him physically ill, and his body trembled for a second. His hands got warm again, like they always did when he thought of her. Warm and aching. But the painful thought soon became a fantasy, and all he could see was her naked body.

He laid there in the top bunk with an aching hard-on, gazing around the room and wishing he was alone. But Jimmy was snoozing in the bunk across from his, unknowing. Buck closed his eyes again and tried to keep her out of his head. He counted sheep, rambled the lyrics to some old song, and even thought of women he would never find sexually exciting. Like Emma and Rachel for instance. They were like his surrogate mothers, he could never make love to them; no matter what the circumstances. But still Cami's body dominated his thoughts and again he felt his groin swell to a painful level. He wondered what it would be like to touch her, feel her, and breathe her. He wondered what it would like to see her naked, what her body looked like underneath those much too unrevealing dresses she wore, and most of all he wondered what it would be like if she came into the room right now. If she would climb into his bunk, straddle him, bury his rock hard cock in her hot depths, and maybe moan his name... The thought sent shivers of pleasure down his spine and he nearly reached his peak only from thinking it. He had to strain to keep from touching himself.

I'm not gonna let her do this to me, he thought angrily to himself and buried his face in the pillow, forcing his eyes shut. But only a moment later her face invaded his mind. He began thinking about one of those boring, cold, wet and uncomfortable long rides in pouring rain, but before long that too became an erotic fantasy. She would come to him in the rain, cling to his neck, kiss him deeply. Her breath would be hot on his cheek, her lips sweet and soft. Her rain damp hair would smell of flowers and perfume, and her voice when she spoke would be seductive and purring.

"Make love to me, Buck!"

vHis eyes snapped open, his heart thudding hard in his chest. This isn't working! He climbed out of the bunk and landed soundlessly on the floor. Casting an eye at Jimmy he stated his post rider friend was still sleeping soundly. He snuck out of the bunkhouse and hurried to the barn.