Zoloft & Prozac
Mood:  blue
Topic: House & Garden Philosophy
So strange it is sometimes in life. When we are single, in the end we are always hoping to meet that special person. The one you want to come home for. The one who understands you because she is on the same wave length. I was discussing this with one of the chaps in the surgery department. The funny thing is, I already met several persons who are so on my wavelength. But somehow mostly the chemistry is not there. Or there are reasons not to pursuit, or… whatever… Could it be that, when I finally get to meet a “normal”, reasonable person for a change, it feels so alien that I cannot make the switch or connection ? Also, what seems a bit frightening, is that the people who seem reliable, also often are not so challenging, whereas on the other hand the seemingly more dynamic people at the same time are less reliable…

In the meantime the past is catching up and turns out that nothing has changed basically. The same old nonsense or maybe even worse. And many, many, so many conflicts of interest. But apparently I have to change my mindset. A long late-night talk with S. made it clear that apparently I’m living in an unrealistic, naive dreamland. News-flash !!! Women are not romantic and Darwin’s theory is the applied form of female sense of rationale; all this time it’s been about survival of the fittest. Basically one of the major checkpoints is whether as a male you’ll be able to provide a financially stable situation for a family. Whereas I all that time was thinking that love between 2 people should be irrespective and independent of financial situation. Well, I’m not to blame; her husband has the same foolish thoughts as me apparently. Anyway, I was told that this would be the only form of rationale that I was to expect from women. For the rest they will try to play our mind in their most skilful ways… Waaahhh depressing, isn’t it ? Hold on here, I need to get my Zoloft? first, to increase the effect of the Prozac?… welcome to reality gentlemen, you can take of your pink sunglasses now….