W.
Mood:  blue
Topic: Everyday life (weirdness)
When I allowed W. to re-initiate contact 1 year ago, I actually knew what I was in for. My friends warned me for foolishness and naivity, but I knew exactly that this was most likely to happen. W. was gonna put me under emotional pressure and upset me at least once a month. Once the choice was made however, I couldn't go back. She made Gita part of my life, and me part of Gita's life. There's no way I could let that go without a fight. I know W. is very nice to Gita and she is a very important person in Gita's life. But sometimes I'm worried... thinking about nature & nurture... and hoping it won't affect Gita, hoping she won't see the things W. does to the people who cared about her, or worse even, following her behaviour.
On and off I think Gita would be better off staying with Arjan. I'm sure she would be happy to live with him and his girl-friend, with the cats and all other pets she adores.... But the reality is of course that in the end Gita needs W. and that is the most important thing of all...