Letter to My Baby 4.9.04
I thought of you today
I came across your picture
Just looking at you,
It almost made me breakdown.
You'd think that after so much time I would've forgotten.
You'd think I wouldn't care anymore.
That I would've moved on with my life by now.
But I'm still trying to relive yesterday.
I want you to know I still believe God will find a way for us to be together.
The timing may be all wrong now,
But someday soon God will make it right.
I still believe you are my soul mate,
The only one I will ever truely love.
I don't think I could ever see myself living a lifetime with anyone else.
I've already given my all to you.
I'm saving myself for you.
Baby, the only thing I want is just to hold you
My feelings for you are still so strong
Even though it's been months since the last time I was with you.
I still believe I'm in love.
Please tell me you still remember me
Please tell me that you miss me like I'm always missing you.
Believe me when I say "I love you."
Please tell me you still have faith.
Tell me you believe in us
Please say that I will se you again
Please call me baby.
Please don't say those things you told me were lies.
Please don't tell me I'm not your baby anymore.
Don't tell me you don't think of me anymore
Don't tell me you don't care
Please don't tell me you've forgotten
Tell me that would never happen.
Please call me baby.
Today I thought of you
And cried.
Today I fell in love
Again.
I love you baby.
Wishing and Waiting 2.13.04
Here I sit in the stillness of the night, looking up at the heavens.
I pick out the brightest star in the sky and make a wish
In hopes that it will one day come true.
I'm wishing that some day soon we will meet again,
Wishing that you will know how much I care,
That you'll understand how much I need you in my life.
I'm wishing that you pray for me, just as I pray for you every minute of every day,
Asking God to please make you the most important part of my life.
I am wishing, wishing on you.
I'm waiting,
Waiting to begin my life with you,
My soul mate, my true love, my everything.
I'm waiting for the day when there is no distance between us,
Nothing to hold us back from loving each other the way we've always dreamed of.
I'm waiting to touch you, waiting to hug you, waiting to hold you and never let go.
I'm waiting to look into your eyes and tell you that I'll always be here for you,
And that no one could ever change the way I feel about you.
Nothing will ever stop me from loving you.
You are everything I've ever hoped for.
You are exactly what I've been waiting for all my life.
I could spend eternity with you and never grow tired of your company.
I'm waiting for the day when you tell me that you'll be with me till death do us part.
And until that day, I'll be sitting here, in the still of the night, waiting.
Waiting on forever.
When You Stole My Man 1.10.04
When you stole my man,
He wasn't sure of what he was doing.
He became a victim of temptation,
And he forgot about all the love I gave to him.
When you stole my man,
You took away the greatest joy I've ever known.
You killed my sense of security,
And you left me wondering if I could ever make it on my own.
When you stole my man,
I couldn't stop the tears from flowing down my face.
I lost the only thing that kept me feeling safe,
And I didn't know if I could get through my future days.
From Dream To Nightmare, Fantasy To Reality 10.19.03
Each and every night, when I close my eyes, I enter into a world that is both trilling and serene.
I feel excitement and tranquility at the same time.
I can see the one I love lying beside me, and as he wraps me in his arms and holds me so close,
I am in ecstasy, lost inside the warmth of his embrace.
He covers me with sweet kisses and whispers softly in my ear, as a gentle piano plays in the background.
I can see the love in his eyes for no one but me, and I can feel the smoothness of his skin that soothingly rubs up against mine,
caressing my whole body from head to toe.
This emotional and physical bond between us is enough to leave me breathless.
In this state of blissful satisfaction, we cling to each other and cherish these feelings of enchantment, senuality, and content,
as we continue on throughout the entire night, forever.
And in the morning, I awake only to taste the bitterness of reality.
I come to realize that it was only a dream.
A dream that, no matter how hard I try, will never come true, and I find myself walking around in a horror film,
living the nightmare that he and I will never be and that his love belongs to someone else.
And now, the only things I have left to remind me of him are just the thoughts of yesterday, memories of the good times we've shared,
and the bittersweet dream that replays over and over in my mind, each and every night, forever and ever, until the end of time.
