Stone by Stone

I have a wall you cannot see
Because it's deep inside of me
It blocks my heart on every side
And helps emotions there to hide
You can't reach in
I can't reach out
You wonder what it's all about

The wall I built that you can't see
Results from insecurity
Each time my tender heart was hurt
The scars within grew worse and worse
So stone by stone
I built a wall
That's now so thick it will not fall

Please understand that it's not you-
Continue trying to break through
I want so much to show myself
And love from you will really help
So bit by bit
Chip at my wall
Till stone by stone it starts to fall

I know the process will be slow-
It's never easy to let go
Of hurts and failures long ingrained
Upon one's heart from years of pain
I'm so afraid
To let you in
I know I might get hurt again

I try so hard to break the wall
But seem to get nowhere at all
For stone upon each stone I've stacked
And left between them not a crack
The only way to make it fall
Are imperfections in the wall

I did the best I could to build
A perfect wall, but there are still
A few small flaws, which are the key
To breaking through the wall to me
Please use each flaw
To cause a crack
To knock a stone off of the stack

For just as stone by stone was laid
With every hurt and every pain
So stone by stone the wall will break
As love replaces every ache
Please be the one who cares enough
To find the flaws, no matter what.

by Rachel Bentley