DON'T
Don't tell me that you understand,
Don't tell me that you know...
Don't tell me that I will surely survive,
How I will surely grow...
Don't tell me this is just a test,
That I am truly blessed...
That I am chosen for the task,
Apart from all the rest...
Don't come at me with answers,
That can only come from me...
Don't tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free...
Don't stand in pious judgement,
Of the bonds that I must untie..
Don't tell me how to suffer,
And don't tell me how to cry...
My life is filled with selfishness,
My pain is all I see...
But I need you, I need your love,
Unconditionally...
Accept me in my up's and down's,
I need someone to share...
Just hold my hand and let me cry,
And say, My Friend, I care...
MUM
A childless mother
that's what I am.
I lost my son
and alone I stand.
A special mother
is what I'm told.
I delivered a baby
that I couldn't keep to hold.
A sad and angry mother
with emotions and grief.
My body is aching
my mind in disbelief.
My son was taken
even before his first breath.
His dad and I left grieving
over his unexplained death.
I've been robbed of hearing "MUM"
my dreams wiped out.
I've been left with questions
and many more doubts.
I'll always be his mother
who loves him dear and true.
I'm a special kind of "Mummy"
with memories to help me through.
MY DADDY
A special Daddy
chosen for me.
A strong hearted man
is what he'd be.
A wonderful person
and so full of dreams.
A man who has fun
laughs, smiles and gleams.
Someone who'd love me
through good times and bad.
One who'd act happy
even when he was sad.
Dad, you were chosen
to love me so true.
To be there for mommy
through and through.
I am your special one
who changed your whole life.
I was gone in a second
without saying good-bye.
But I know you love me
you told me so much.
Although I couldn't see
I could feel your gentle touch.
You're my special Daddy
I'll always love you.
I'm sorry things had to be
but I'll be watching over you.
SHATTERED
Once a heart is shattered
Can it ever mend
Once your spirit is broken
Can it be whole again
Each little peace is sacred..
each little part must fit
But when a peace is gone again
there is no replacement for it
We learn to laugh and smile again
feel guilty when we do
We learn to live our lives again
all the while missing you..
I know you want to see us
Smiling and happy for you
You're in heaven Angel
But we wish we could see you too
My heart it feels so heavy
and yet I smile and laugh
sometimes I want to scream it
this smile is just a mask...
If only it were tomorrow
you know that golden day
when once again I will hold you
and the pain will go away..
Till then my love i hold you
in my broken heart
I'm trying to learn to live again
and make a brand new start
GOD HAD OTHER PLANS
God had other plans for you I guess this world's too mean
He took you to a better place Where the grass is always green.
God had other plans for you Little angel, earn your wings
protect those you're supposed to and always do nice things.
God had other plans for you All the way up in heaven
I'm just a little sad I'll never teach you, count to seven.
God had other plans for you I know you're in good care
After all his son was our savior head upturned; I sit and stare.
God had other plans for you his angels will keep you well
You'll never have to know sickness Or this life that some call hell.
God had other plans for you Way above the stars
in time the battle will stop bandage the open scars.
God had other plans for you a special little life preserved by love
flying off to everywhere on the snow white wings of a dove.
God had other plans for you he'll have you wait for me
how ever long that will take then I can rock you on my knee.
God had other plans for you so I couldn't tell you goodbye
you were gone before hello no answer for the why.
WHISPER OF AN ANGEL
The whisper of an angel
Can open Heaven's gate,
A glimpse of faith and courage
A love strong enough to wait,
Whisper you are safe
Whisper softly, angel love,
My heart is aching so
Needing comfort from above,
Tell me you are with me
Whisper gently in my ear,
"You will always be my mummy"
In the quiet I will hear,
My heart still aches to hold you
I close my eyes and see,
Your beautiful face now
And who you were to be,
Through dreams I once held close
In the distance now, so far
Still you're more than just my child
You're the twinkle in the stars,
So I'll hear your angel whispers
"You never need let go,
Hold me, mommy, close within"
Though the pain and sorrow flow,
One day we shall reunite
Angels whisper words of grace,
And I promise I will hold you
In another time and place.
FOOTPRINTS ACROSS OUR HEARTS
The door is closed.
The lights turned off.
The closet stands bare.
All the room once waiting...
For the child that should be there.
Sorrow wells up inside of us.
Our tears, an endless flow.
All because we miss the child...
The child we'll never know
No camping trips, No football games,
Nor late evening talks,
No school camps or shopping trips
No shaded morning walks.
We have only our memories
To help through times like these
And we also have each other ,
as we go down on our knees...
To plead with you, our Father,
To take this pain away...
To help us know your love
will guide us through each day.
We may never know the reasons
For this terrible tragedy;
But we can know you love us
through all life's mysteries.
Our time was far too brief;
It was over before its start...
But our little angel left behind
Footprints Across Our Heart
JUST , SAY "I'M SORRY"
You don't know how I feel.
Please don't tell me that you do.
There's just one way to know - have you lost a child too?
"You'll have another child" - Must I hear this each day?
Can I get another mother too, if mine should pass away?
Don't say it was "God's will."
That's not the God I know.
Would God on purpose break my heart,
Then watch as my tears flow?
"You have an angel in Heaven,
A precious child above."
But tell me to whom,
Here on earth, shall I give this love?
"Aren't you feeling better yet?"
Is that what I heard you say?
No! A part of my heart aches,
I'll feel some pain each day.
Do you think this silence is kind?
It hurts me even more.
I want to talk about my child,
Who has gone through death's door.
Don't say these things to me,
Although you do mean well.
They do not take my pain away;
I must go through this hell.
I will get better slow but sure,
It helps to have you near.
But a simple, "I'm sorry you lost your child"
Is all I need to hear .
TINY BOY
Tiny boy
Inside my heart,
In deafening silence
We drifted apart...
With empty arms
My dreams are shattered,
The life I knew
Now torn and tattered.
My heart cries out
Deep silent tears,
Will I feel like this
Through all my years?
I whisper to you
My precious boy,
"Hold my hand
Show me there is joy."
Your tiny wings
Caressed my soul,
Just then I knew
Someday we'd be whole...
THING'S REMINDING ME
Everywere I look reminds me of you,
In every room there's something new.
The cot in which you'll never sleep,
An empty frame with no picture to keep.
Your high chair is now left untouched,
It's just sitting around collecting dust.
A swing in which you'll never sway,
New sheets on which you'll never lay.
There's so many things you left with me,
I'll never bounce you on my knee.
On a page I've stamped your little feet,
I'll never forget how you looked so sweet.
We only had a short time to bond,
In that time, of you I grew fond.
My grief for you in time will go away,
My love for you will always stay.
