[Am I normal?] I write this in the hope that it will offer some comfort or perspective for those who find themselves confused, overwhelmed and asking these same questions.
Firstly let's define 'normal'. For most normal is that which is deemed the societally acceptable, the familiar, known, conforming non-threatening traits and behaviours. These things however as far as I'm concerned have been and can be dictated by prejudice, bigotry, fear and ignorance. Opinion en masse based on those things has created our self imposed boundries, what we can and cannot do, what we deem 'fit'. But does that make it right? Does having your lifestyle question and push those boundries mean you are abnormal that you should be automatically excluded from society, ridiculed? I don't believe so, perhaps as a race we need to loosen the reins a little, to realize the harm and pain we cause by imposing and legislating morallity unjustly or without knowledge.
So, you drink blood, so you psi feed, it's normal for you and for many others, you are normal just different and diversity shouldn't be feared. Without it the world wouldn't be the place it is.
[Can I 'go back']
Unfortunately because real vampirism is not a choice, it's not something that can be turned off and on. It isn't a 'hey, I don't feel like it today' sort of thing, no more than I could decide I want to be 5f 8" this morning because I don't like being short anymore. It is an integral part of who you are like all the other aspects of your personality, physicallity etc that make you you. I think it's best to think of it like that, as simply one part of the whole, one aspect of who you are rather than letting it overwhelm and define you entirely. You are much more than that one single 'label' than any label you attribute to yourself. To dwell on it will not change it, to punish yourself for it will not change it. Instead, why not deal/meet with it head on, accept and embrace it, do what you need to and you may find life will be that much easier and less complicated.
To reiterate this has become something very important to me especially when I see how much conflict and turmoil others go through wishing they could just 'fix' it.