Topic: WC - Daily Practice
Monday 1:43am 30Oct06
I seem to be running on three hours sleep a night since IFOA finished. I've been awake since 1am. I wonder what this is about. What's keeping me awake? What do I need to listen to internally, intuitively?
Of course I was sitting at my writing desk staring into space and Zelda let out this guttural scream. WTF! Both cats and I made a run to the kitchen. There's Zelda dangling head first from the back of my kitchen chair. She'd squished herself through the back slats of the chair and couldn't get her ass out. That scream freaked us all out. There I was holding her head and her bum and slowly trying to squish her all the way through. She gave me many a nice kiss for rescuing her and now I'm all paranoid about leaving her alone all day and the predicaments she'll get herself into. sigh! Kittens are a lot of work.
Not too much to say. Have a lot on my mind. Thinking about the ways I need to calm down in my life, the things I need to clean up, the things I want to do. Maybe that's why I can't sleep. Who knows?
Of course it could just be the come down after the high of being in the environment I thrive in and around the people I need to be with. It's almost 2am who the heck figures out anything at this time? Certainly not me.
So many choices, so many things and people to think about, so many things to take care of. And an acrobatic kitten to watch over!
I've got a three day weekend next weekend. Hopefully I'll make good use of that time. My breakfast buddy is unavailable so I can do a full cocoon weekend. Maybe do one of my fake writing retreats. Whereby I shut off the phone, don't turn on the television, act like I'm out in the woods with no real contact options and write, read and draw. Burn some incense, light some candles, do some meditating and find that calm that can only come from inside. Something to look forward to for sure.
Maybe I just need something to look forward to...
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