Topic: WC - Daily Practice
Tuesday 6:22pm 7Nov06
Started reading, Possessed (The rise and fall of Prince) by Alex Hahn.
I'm already hooked. It's well written and so far is delving into the nitty gritty of Prince and his work ethic and musical obsession. He seems to have that similar attitude that I've heard Madonna also had whereby they made good use of their supporters in their lives and moved on to the next ones. It was a bit of a users attitude when you look at it at face value but when you look at it from a different stand point, I think it was more that they took full advantage of the support they were offered but were so focused on their one all consuming goal that they didn't necessarily realize that their attitudes could be seen as being users.
I like the thought of 100% focus on your goals. I like the almost obsessiveness that has to come into play. Another interesting thing is that Prince, Madonna and Jennifer Lopez don't drink alcohol or do drugs. I have a great interest in the hard workers. People who are prolific, people who are obsessed or possessed, people who get their stuff done. I know that deep inside me that I am also one of those kinds of people, once I get past all the procrastinating of course. ha ha! I started off with my writing as an obsessed person who thought words and ideas all the time, when at work, when out with friends etc.
For many years, with worry about the next paycheque and being a great loyal friend, and being there for my family crises (which were weekly) and all the other things that slowed me down, I got away from that obsession. I'm feeling it coming back though. Now that I've got to a point where I don't feel obligated to be the one person to maintain friendships. Now that I see my singlehood as a more of a blessing giving me the freedom to be messy. Yeah, the intimacy would be nice but with the right person that can understand what my needs are. That whole wash/cut that man right out of my hair thing I mentioned the other day has really worked wonders. I can't run in two directions. If that elusive love thing is going to land on me it will in its time and no sooner. My fear of commitment has always been about having to give up my time to write (an epiphany as I type these words). I love to be around people but I just can't always give my undivided attention, that's why I keep so few people around.
Hmm! Mercury Retrograde has been quite good to me because I use it as it should be used. Go back to the drawing board. Look at ways of improving on what hasn't been working. Revisiting past ideas. Cleaning out my closets even if it's just the closets in my mind. And of course reading about people who inspire me as examples of what I can do in my own life picking and choosing how far I want to take things.
Off to continue with nanowrimo. I'm at 5800 words give or take.
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