Topic: WC - Daily Practice
Tuesday 5:05am 2Jan07
Ahh this is the fun part of the New Year, trying to remember to write 2007 on everything and trying to remember what day it is. Feels like a Monday but it's really Tuesday. Will the week fly by or will it drag on? That is the question. Should it matter? Should I be more focused on the now and not the next week or next month? Are we really wishing our lives away? So many questions so early in the morning.
The cats decided not to sleep with me last night and only joined me when it was time to get up. I told them it was too late, they didn't listen.
I was mad at someone last week. I tried to stay calm and not focus on it too tough but knowing how I am I knew I'd have to do something proactive to get the junk and the anger and the need to rant out of my head. A sort of mind cleanse, if you will.
I set myself a goal to write non stop for an hour. I know with timed writing that my best times to use are 15 to 30 minute intervals. I knew that a straight hour would push my limits. It's like trying to fill a glass with your tears. A struggle. No one could cry that long.
I really had to stretch to pull out every last bitch about the situation but when I'd hit the hour I felt like I'd emptied out every last bit of obsessive thoughts that I could possibly have.
I made some solid decisions about my relationship with this person, dump his ass. To top it all off, I kept myself focused on a goal rather than wasting my evening away on a person who really isn't worth the time or attention I've given him.
What started out as a way to get rid of the anger and frustration may become a new daily challenge to cleanse the daily junk out. In that hour I cracked 2100 words which isn't too shabby. So starting tonight I'm going to give it a whirl. A daily practice to get rid of the day, the residual aggravations and complaints and stress and whatever else that could be holding me back from my writing. It reminds me of my hour long walks of years ago. When I used to walk an hour to get to work and an hour to get home. I used to leave my stress at the corner of Spadina and Bloor and the rest of the walk became my meditation.
If writing is to be my practice, which it is, might as well use it to clear the junk out to go deeper. Plus it gets me closer to my 3 hour daily writing goal.
EY
