Blank Slate and all
Topic: WC - Daily Practice
Thursday 22Mar07 6:56pm

So in keeping with Lolo going to Korea for at least a year on her working vacation I've been thinking about the thrill of going to a new country with a blank slate. Being able to arrive somewhere and re-invent yourself. She can be a woman of mystery and not discuss her origins. She can be an English intellectual smarter than her years. She could be a Rhodes Scholar (are there any women Rhodes scholars?). Or she could simply be a hot mama with sass all Josephine Baker like exuding a comfortable sexuality turning the Korean society upside down. In a Pisces girlfish's imagination you can be whoever you want. That was Matt Damon in the Talented Mr Ripley. He takes on someone else's life and becomes for the minute a rich witty guy instead of the geeky shy guy he started off as being.

And as always my focus is on doing something out of character. Jojay updated me this morning on his dog Murphy as he does every single morning. I looked at his face and something in his face hit me and I announced before it happened, "I'm getting emotional," then covered my face in my hands as the tears came pouring through. I apologized profusely for getting so emotional when that is the last thing he needed given everything he's been going through for the last three weeks. I complained later that I've become such a girl. What happened to the person I was that could keep a stiff upper lip and could control her emotions or at the very least save her tears until she got into the sanctuary and privacy of her own home? Working with all men too, you just can't be a cry baby... tell my uncontrollable tears that someone please.

I don't know what's wrong with me!

What does get a character to act out of character? Most probably it's stress related (good stress is as stressful as bad stress), it could be unacknowledged emotions, some sort of confusion. With a woman, it could usually be linked back to a man (God love em)... someone said to me today that men tend to be slower in the making the decision about women department than women are in the making the decision about men department. Is it really only that? Although it is big when you are a confessed unserious person and you see someone that you actually feel inclined to get to know and see about traversing the serious path with.

Which brings me to the first kiss which is also on my mind. So many shows I catch where the characters are about to experience that first kiss as the characters pause just before their lips make contact. Is it nervousness that causes the pause or is it a preparation or gauging that their lips actually meet? Has anyone ever had that first kiss where the man's lips are more on your nose and less on your lips? Yeah! That's delightful. And just damn humiliating.

Yeah, first kisses, you can never re do the first kiss like a first impression or your first sexual experience. Kali, my character must have a chance to re-invent herself, do something majorly out of character and experience the first kiss with the important one.

Dreamt last night that Picasso who has been fixed for over a dozen years gave birth to two kittens that looked like Zelda but with Picasso's colors. What the heck does that mean?

Okay dear readers, no more discussions about my tears okay? OKAY!

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