It takes a big man
Topic: WC - Daily Practice
Thursday 6:58pm 29Mar07

Saw Nat'lie and she said her wedding day was beautiful. I'm so far removed from contemplating marriage never mind a serious relationship. Is that ever really going to be a possibility in my life? I have moments when I can wrap my head around it but mostly no. It's not like I don't want to marry, it's just that the thought of meeting someone that I'd want to spend the rest of my life with other than my best friend ... Maybe I would be married if I hadn't been so focused on the rest of my life.

Both Lolo and Frogs Legs leave me on April 5th. It should prove interesting and painful. Oh yes folks, more pain for me!

It takes a big man to come right out and say... So I got to work today and the object of my anger said, "Shelley, we need to talk!"
I said, "Why?"
"Because I can't go another day without talking to you and you are too much of a friend to me for me to go another day where we ignore each other. "
He told his significant other last night when he got home, "This isn't right. I can't go to work and not talk to Shelley."
The bulk of my anger and subsequent writing off of this person was that I knew that I had been a good friend to him. I was willing to stubbornly never speak to him again because I was acting from the stance of someone who has been a compassionate friend and who has given her love as a genuine friend. And if you can't see that then fuck you.
He said, "I'm off tomorrow and the thought of going through the weekend thinking that you're still mad at me is simply unbearable."

So the war is over. I'm glad. I'm glad that someone has recognized the value of friendship because that doesn't always happen. I know because I've been the friend to many people who have fucked me over. Change of tide? Today at least.

I was stubborn because I believed that if a person couldn't see my value there was no need to have that person in my life anymore.

My buddy Ado won a spirit of service award at our quarterly meeting. It was about time and much deserved. And my son, Nelson (his mother would be the same age as me if she were still alive) also won a Spirit of Service award. It was nice to see deserving people actually win for a change.

Dropped by the bar for one of the boobsy twins birthday. Had a quick drink and am now happily home. Nelly was trying to coerce me into more drinks because I said that I was at that point where I could just go home or have another drink and party like it's 1999 all over again. I deeked out before another drink was placed in my face. Gotta love those people who want you to stay and get your ass into trouble. Gotta love that I'm more responsible than people would expect.

I've got shit to do like write and work out and quit smoking which I'm planning to do this weekend.

Let's hope that person shows up soon. What with Frogs legs leaving and Lolo going far far away. You see this is why I don't get involved with people at work, when they leave I'm a lonely little girl fish!
A lonely little girlfish!
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